There is someone coming to my door. Man this guy feet are heavy. I hear a tapping on my door.
“Victoria”
I am sober now, not horny, and this guy voice still sounds like heaven. But I’m upset at him right now. I understand that are different from me and have little to no boundaries but. He f*****g up my plans and this from my understanding literally hurts him more then it hurts me.
“Victoria … please open the door…. I don’t want to break it”
“if you break the door it’s because you wanted to. If you don’t want to break it you won’t. I’m not the one who invited themselves to another person vacation.” I say in a low tone.
“so you are awake” he keeps my tone.
“ you are to loud to sleep”
“ a moving ship doesn’t make it hard for you to sleep”
“ not if anything it make it easier. However you being loud makes it harder. Go to your room. I already claimed this room. If you wanted it you should have board the ship before me.”
“you had a head started it you remembered”
“not my problem. Facts are facts. Let me have a pity party.”
“ now why would you have a pity party”
“Sir. You de done chase me to my vacation, change me room, and demand I be with you. What’s not to pity.”
“I think there would be worst.”
“no there could be better. This… you was not in the plan. So right now in the moment I’m being sad.”
“ I don’t want you to be sad”
“Are you getting off the boat and leaving me by myself for a month?”
“no” he responded quicky.
“Then you want me to be sad in this moment. I think you should unpack and let me nap. Big points if you can do it quietly.”
“ I’ll get you for dinner.”
“no you’ll see me in the morning. I’m too stressed to eat.”
“Victoria you need to eat.”
“f**k …sweethoneychile. I’m grown your grown. I know when and if I’m hungry (or when I want potato – which is all the time) . I understand you want to see me but ion wanna see you right now in this moment. Right now I’m in this bed and maybe on my phone watching videos. TOMORROW. I’ll see you TOMORROW.”
I hear his voice dip a little bit “fine or I’m breaking the door down”
“Brrruuh who fixin it.”
“I’ll pay for it later if I break it”
“don’t get us kick off or I’ll really reject you for fuckin this up for me more than you have.”
“don’t worry about that you can go and do anything you want along as you’re mine”
“ that sounds like a threat”
“ a promise …. I would never give threat”
Sound like some wants to kiss my feet later. I get up and take a shower in the bathroom. And go back to sleep.
DREAM KIND OF
Back in the living room
“mother self his not so bad. The goddess didn’t give us her worst….not her best also.”
“She need to clean up her “children” if she can’t even give us her worst in good faith. She had to give us … this one… middle. If her middle is like us giving her our worst. I see why they are dying out.”
The Moon Goddess enter the door.
“ who are you chastise my children”
Older self spoke up
“Do you know you should knock. Even the snakes knock. What kind of the question is that by the way… you know who we are. Just because we are like this” showing our chain on our wrist. “doesn’t mean we are powerless. You maybe young but you should know what we are”
“You ask for my help and you criticize the help I give.”
“So… have we shown that we are ungrateful? Have we rejected that kid of yours? we can criticize like we would the others. But we have accepting him…. Well…. We didn’t outright rejected him. Are all of the creature you like are rude?”
“ You have nothing and created nothing. Yet you… you…”
“ Stop….. We are. Creation is more then what you think you have you are so young learn. We asked for you help because what is coming. Everyone waking up and I don’t want us do divided when it happens. ”
“So we cheatin”
“mother self…. We are getting a head start. The other are going to more bloody when they wake up. We don’t like a mess”
“True but older self I think you are tyin to rush thing.”
“mother self I think you are too laid back. Chaos devours and if we are not careful the other will eat before us. You say rush I say we are being safe if we want to keep playing as we are ”
“Still we are eating more than we can chew. This body may not handle it”
“ Younger self body and the branch. To take up the extra.”
“ I guess that we are going to be on our ass because of that. The reason why we have a wolf sire.”
“ Still on our ass because of this.”
“ the conscious does not know what the unconscious does. We consciously wont caught on. We will work it out.”
“whatever. I have her try to be nice to the boy. At least not lash out”
The goddess
“How dare you ignore me!!!”
Olderself
“why are you still here. we ask for help you gave. We will up hold our side. Young god control from outside the playing field. Inside the playing field is where we play. If that kid of your is smart we are going help him and his grow”
The goddess
“ I don’t like you talking to me like that”
Older self
“get used to it. If you gonna talked to us like that. We are doing our best to play the games that going to start”
the goddess
“ and her”
Mother self
“ older self-doing the talking for the both versions at the moment. The third version is working on their body at the moment”
The goddess
“What game?”
Older self
“think of this plan as a gamebored however you get some time to build before you start playing. There are 5 of us and we are going to start to play. The world may or may not be destroy. There will be many deaths. We may try to “kill” each other or not. Last time we go the s**t end. This round looks to be a better round?”
The goddess
“Why did you ask me for help?”
“ The pieces you have on the bored can be useful. Some can be loyal and they are strong. I just wanted a foothold before that others think of it. One of playing trying to drain the others before the game start. That bitch.”
The Goddess
“ I don’t want any harm to come to my children.”
“ You are young. I guess that what you get not being on the stage but be hide it. Life … death mean nothing to forever. You and you children are the same to us and we are the same as them and you. We are just a bit more aware. Everything will restart on this plan or another. Just have fun.”
The Goddess
“ I work so hard for my children”
“ you are overly attach to them and yourself as a goddess. We are not so attached. We just want to play. The worlds, the different plans… everything is at play. We know the rules a little bit better because we having forgotten we are source and the source is everything. If we lost we go back to source and then out again…. what fun.”
The Goddess
“Who are the others?”
“the short answer is everyone including yourself. The long answer ion.”
The Goddess
“Ion is the long answer”
“Yes”
Awake
Knock… Knock… Knock
“ you are not the police why are you knocking on my door like that?”
“Victoria it time for breakfast”
“ food is 24 hours on a cruise. I want to sleep in”
“ I still going to work in a cabin and I want to eat with you at least.”
“…………………”
“no come back”
“I’m thinking”
“about”
“Should I care about your feeling considering you changes my plans. (I am soft hearted about things like this but he don’t need to know that)”
“ Please” in a low tone
“………”
“Victoria please”
“…. Fine I’ll get up and get dress….” (I’m too soft hearted)