Everyone Has Secrets

I Just Want to Retire

I can tell you right now I was not looking forward returning to work. I know the biggest secret of this company. It’s that I want to say around 50 percent of the people that work is his wolves. I don’t wanna go in today. I want to stay in my new house call up that mover and have a fun time. I don’t wanna talk to my boss today. I want to just quit and be done with it. I know I have to talk to the CEO Kevin; which I guess is the alpha. I’m new to this bullshit. I want to go home. Walking into the doors of his office, is it wrong for me to pray to get fired? Like, mother please let me out of here and just let me be fired. I don’t need anything from this job but my life at this point in time. I just want to wipe my hands clean of this. I have to fix my face and walk into this door. I look at my CEO Kevin McCarthy and He smiles and says, “Hey, Miss Johnson. I understand we had a mishap on the business trip.”

Bruh please tell me this “smile” is not a bad thing “Yes we had a bit of a mishap. However, the overall trip was a success and the project was approved” Panda face keep it up you doing well.

“Mr. Kern”

“Alpha Kern he looks at me. You know about us now it’s important to address us properly when in private.”

Bruh I just don’t want die today. b***h don’t like this panda face fade. “Alpha Kern seem happy with the plans and looks forward to processed with the project. He also wanted to add a few more design what would give us a better profit”

He looks at the folder on his desk and back at me. He still smiling. I used to like the Daddy Dom vide he got going on but now. Knowing that this guy right here can kill him worst than my next-door neighbor with a knife freaks me out. It worst than finding out your next-door neighbor is a serial killer. I need to lay of ID channel. I’m never going to do that. I’m going home to watch “who the beep did I marry”

“Well, now that you're aware of the complete situation, we do have to change the terms of your contract with the company.”

 “Yeah, I understand.” Panda face break. Bruh say wat. Please tell you terminating that s**t. I don’t want a change I want to leave. Fix your face.  “Mr. McCar… I mean Alpha McCarthy, what type of changes to my contract?” The panda face will not be broken again there is nothing it can’t defend.

He goes be hide his desk and take his seat. Look at me he offers me the seat cross the desk. As I sit down, he points to the contract “Well, it looks like your contract is up in just a few months. Two to be exact.” I pauses and sit back in his chair “I haven’t heard anything about you renewing your contract. I haven’t even heard new of you going to a different company. I’m curious what are you going to do?”

It feels like I’m feeling some kind of pressure with those last words. Ok what I am about to say it going to be a get out of jail free card or nail in the coffin. Plus this dude don’t need to know all my business but s**t I gotta tell him sumin… I got it “ I planning to not work for a while to travel. You know maybe do some freelance work to get by from time to time”

He c***s his head. Not a good sign he knows sumin and going to tell me what it is. Like bruh why do you have such a strong tell. “I did look up your public record because of this. I saw that you just finished remodeling project and moved in. You even used a moving company within network”.

Hold the front door. In network… like a wolf ran company. Who number did I get and should I call it up now? Panda face still strong. “ Alpha McCarthy I don’t understand what that has to do with me traveling”

“It seems like you will need more then freelancing projects to keep up your lifestyle.” He rest his hand underneath his chin. Bruh that’s is a strong threat to black list a person from even freelancing. I did know he was able to do that. But I guess you trap people when you need to. f**k. Panda face you got this don’t give s**t away.

“I understand young people like yourself like to travel and see different places. Having a nice safe place to return to.” My guy how do you threat my house. I want to raise my child there. Just you watch I’m planting a s**t tone of aconitum around my house. Panda face I love you. “So I was thinking of changing and extending your contract”

“I don’t understand what benefit would your company have extending my contract?” panda face still on point.

“it’s rare to have humans really know about us and not just the fairy tell version everyone given. Have a person like that can be a very useful situation for us and them.” Mr. McCarthy cause I can say what I want in my own head. How in hell does this s**t benefit me. I really don't like where this is going at the moment. I would not like a change in contract. I would like to terminate or just complete the damn thing.  I do not need this type of stress in my life in this part of my life.

“I think it would be best to have your contract extended indefinitely?” He smiles. Da f**k you just say. Indefinitely. My panda face damn near broke over that s**t. Deep breath.

“Sir… or should I say Alpha. what do you mean by Indefinitely?”

“Just until you retire. To put it simply job security”. Sir I was trying to “retire”. I wasn’t try to secure anything.

“I see… I don’t have a few questions”

He smiles “ what are they?”

“what choices do I have in this matter?”

“hahaha” please let that not be your death laugh. I just need to know what my options are in this matter until the new moon. “I do love that you understand situations very quickly. I will let you work remotely for the year you want to travel. Just a few small projects to keep you on the books. Starting now you salary with increase 30 percent.” Quick math was is 30 percent of 300k. “Also, you will be in charge all of the accounts of the other packs. You were always good at not sticking your nose where it doesn’t belong but now. You should also be good a handling our ways.” I want to go home and cry. I pay my cheek to stop a tear from dropping. Panda face does not protect against leaks. But I have learn not to cry in situations like this. “Any more questions?”

“Can a take 35 days of paid vacation? Starting next month”.

“Next month is in two weeks and we also have that party for our clients over that period. You can leave right after that party. I’m happy you are so very understanding of the situation you are in. There is one more personal question I have to ask you.” I loss about 15 pounds from stress as it is during this meeting. I don’t even know how long I have been in here. It feels like that whole f*****g day is gone. I still have to look over that younger designers’ plans.

“Sir?”

“Are you in a relationship?” Yo wasn’t lyin when you said personal. I can’t just say that not in a relationship and no plans for a long-term relationship. Just want my IVF treatment and f**k around when the little one isn’t looking. I don’t like what this question could mean for me. Like where da f**k is this going?

 “Am I allowed not to answer?” gotta shoot my shot on this one.

He smiles. Well f**k. “You are not married are you in a relationship of some time?” I guess that mean I really have to answer this damn question. Well f**k.

“at the moment I am not in a relationship.” Panda face has a f*****g limit and it reaching.

“Well, as you can imagine we werewolves have low numbers.” Well f**k my life. This a broodmare conversation.  “And I am assuming you not against having children, looking at your health records.” Who the f**k broke HIPAA and I feel that I can’t sue because werewolves.  Again, f**k my life. “would you be against having a donor?”

Update Panda face reach its limit. You now are working under dissociative mode. You are unable to fell or have any emotional reaction at this time. It will sneak back up to you in about 2 – 3 days. Prepare to cry in you bed for the whole weekend.

“wouldn’t be that an issue considering that I’m human.” I can even fake emotional tones anymore.  

“Lucky for us no. or there would not being any werewolves today. If one parent an wolf that child will be a wolf” He say leading back in his chair. “I hope you understand.”

“I understand”

“Good. We’ll talk more about his after your vacation. Yes?” His voice is smooth however there is a pressure to it.

“Yes” I said in a monotone voice. “Can I be excuse now?”

“Ah yes it seems I kept you from your normal duties for such a trivial conversation. Again, we’ll talk more after your vacation.”

I leave his office and straight to the bathroom to throw up. 20 pounds. I lose 20 pounds today because of stress. I walk back to my desk with such a drained look on my face. My coworker Dalia comes over to me

“Was it bad? Did you get canned?” she said with a worried look on her face

 “No, it’s just he wasn't very happy about you know, the issue with the project I when on the trip more” I should  no be this good a lying. “However, he still wants me to work on the next project.”

“O well that guess all is well ends well” I can’t believe you bought that.

She looks at me with that sneaky kind of smile and that valley girl voice. “well aren’t you going to not renew you contract with the company? How are you going to do another big project?” Girl no in the mood but gotta fake a whole mood.

“Yea well he said he wanted to extended my contract for the time being. I guess I didn’t do to bad of a job” She so red. It would have been funnier if she could turn green.

“I guess. What are you going to do now?”

“today I think I going to finish working at home. I mean I just need my computer.”

“Yea that the lucky part working at this kind of job. Girl why are you so down I mean it looked like you contract wasn’t getting renewed”. b***h I was trying to leave. “you should be happier”

Look at her trying to bring some life in my eyes. “It was still a hard meeting”

“I guess. You should just count you lucky stars. I mean wear would You find a better job” b***h I get paid more than you. Plus I get head hunted all the time. Where would You get a better job.

“yea yea” I wave her off. But does that stop Dalia never.

This woman never shut ups. Dalia always talks a lot. She is the gossipy person in the office. Can’t say I’m any better because I'm nosy and I just let her keep going without giving her too much to thought. That how I ended up in a lounge with this woman after work drinking cocktails.  she kept ordering drinks because this woman can drink a lot, especially when she's not paying for it. I don’t know how she does it and I really don’t care why because I’m not paying for my drinks. But this guy in the corner opened a tab for us to drink on his dime. Nice.

“….. You know what I mean.” s**t I missed something she had I need to pay more attention.  

“all these women are just throwing themselves at him. You know?” O she talking about Andrew. O honey it’s not just women. At least the men get some action.

“yea it just sad… he pays them no mind.” I said drinking my cider.

“well you when on a that business trip with him not too long ago with Yeah? Did anything happen?” O you trying to get me in trouble with those hungery girls (and guys) at the office. Nope no happening.

 “No. why would you think that. Have I ever made a pass at him? I don’t touch hot items.”

She clicks her tongue “Well why not? I would have a least tried.”

“Girl haven’t you hear and you paid extra for handsome men? I don’t chase. If he doesn’t like me like that, I don’t waste my energy”. Finish off the bottle.

“Well that girl Jennifer from accounting. In then Sarah, and sales. Where throwing themselves at him. I even hear that Sarah got in bed with him.” O sweet honey chile she lied.

“Really? Was he any good?”

She look like she has the upper hand. “Well I hear his the best she ever had. But for real nothing happen on that business trip?” she look at me hoping I will give her a different answer.

“Yeah. Nothing happen with us. But there was a situation with the client and the project. However, I was able to fix it little problem. I was so scared we was going to lose the contract. You know there goes my bonus for this job. I think I stressed too much over that.” When you lie give people a story. Also remember this damn story cause I got a feeling it’s going to come up again. Hopefully not but you never know.

“Girl you miss a big opportunity. She said he was the best.” You got me thinking are wolves that much better in bed. I may use that mover guy number after all. “ But I’m telling you everyone was so mad that you got to go to a business trip with him. They was all saying you was going to sneak into his room.”

Buzz Buzz

“Girl I got a text messages.” Looking down at my phone.

“from who.. your boyfriend? What boyfriend? Everyone knows your single.”

“Yea not a boyfriend. But he pays to feed me, f**k me, and extra cash and gifts when I want” I did not mean to say that. f**k. Got to stop drink.

“what?”

“Got to go he send a car it’s on it’s way.” I wave at her on the way out the door.   I feel the heat from her jealous. I mean girl you got a guy to pay for our drink tonight. I guess she feels like his not enough. But that’s not my problem. Right now I just want to f**k the pain away from this day.