Avalon
Let her in. Feeling her more, being to her depts. Being washed over with peace, collar the beast inside me that threatened to devour and destroy everything.
She won’t leave me, she won’t reject me, she wants to stay. Not because she is locked, but because of me.
I was having a hard time believing that it’s true.
I’ve never let anyone in before. It’s not something that comes naturally to me, in fact, it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done. But it’s worth it. She is worth it. I am worth it, it’s the only way for me to start to heal, even though sometimes is easier to choose to remain sick, jaded.
This time I choose to heal, to be able to love her better.
I’ve hurt her many times, I’ve been abusive, said cruel words. Words that many times I cursed just after they left my m
