Bad Boy Knows My Secret (BxB)

Could you please not tell anyone?

Oh, you're still here? I wonder why. Probably because you want to hear how my story ends. Well before I do that I'll have to start by telling you how it all began.

As I mentioned before I was going to tell my best friends about my s****l orientation. Everything was going as smoothly as ever and by that I mean my parents were so busy trying to eat each other's guts that they didn't even notice how I sneaked out of the house. Honestly I think even if I died from starvation inside my room they would probably not realize it before my body started stinking like a dead rat.

Anyway I don't want to bore you with my parents right now. Even wondering about them changes my mood drastically so let's just put them aside for today. I'll concentrate on something more positive like how I'm about to tell my best friends that I'm gay. So shall we begin?

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"Why did you bring us here, Jesse? Couldn't we just go to the Granny's diner? That's where we usually go anyways, I don't understand why we traveled all the way to the neighbor town." Lucy pointed it out after we got to our table.

"I'll explain everything soon enough. But before I do that why don't we order something. I've heard that they have a really good pizza. You can order anything you want it'll be my treat." I said and smiled politely, avoiding direct eye contact with any of my friends. Instead I stared at the menu thinking about every possible way of how everything could go wrong. But I could never even imagine what a horrible disaster my future was holding for me.

"Don't mind if I do." Lucy started clapping like a little kid who was just told she could eat as much ice cream as she desired. "You know what, I think I'm warming up to this place. We should go out more often. It's actually quite a surprise that it was your idea to travel all the way over here. Usually I'm the one who has to force you to even leave your room."

While Lucy was blabbing about some nonsense which was all true by the way, she really had to drag me from my bed every time we went to the movies or pretty much anywhere except for school; Felicity started waving her hands to get our attention since she couldn't really talk. That's because she's mute but I think I already mentioned that earlier.

"Did you hear that Matt and Briana had a massive fight? They are on a 'break' now. I think Matt finally realized how horrible Briana really is." Felicity signed to us with her hands.

I cracked a smile when I heard that school's 'hottest' couple had relationship problems. Lucy was fast enough to notice my reaction and she raised her left eyebrow in response.

"What was that about?" She asked me eventually.

"What do you mean? It was nothing." I tried avoiding her question but it didn't look like she was planning on giving up anytime soon.

I couldn't tell her that I had a huge crush on Matt ever since we were in the middle school, that wouldn't make sense, before I actually came out from the closet. I always knew Matt and I  never even had a chance because he's straight, but what could I do? The heart wants what the heart wants.

I can't just turn off my feelings towards him now, can I? And by feelings I don't mean love because I definitely don't love him. It's just an innocent crush which will never become a thing so why bother talking about it.

"It was clearly something. Now, stop muttering, you know how I hate when you do that and start spilling the tea. Did you have something to do with their fight?" Lucy insisted. She looked like the Cheshire cat from Alice in Wonderland with the grin on her face.

"What? There's no tea to spill. How could you even think that? Of course I didn't do anything. What, do I look like a home wrecker or something? Besides it's not like Matt and I are best friends. He doesn't even know I exist so how could I have broken them up?" It didn't look like Lucy was convinced but I thought that my response was good enough to at least make her stop assuming weird things like that.

I really had nothing to do with their argument whatsoever. I haven't even spoken to Matt since like a week ago and our conversation was about him borrowing a pencil from me which as a matter a fact he still hadn't returned.

I wouldn't lie to you. I don't even know you so I have no reason to lie.

You know it always amused me how hard it is to open up to people that you've actually known for your whole life like your parents, compared to opening up to strangers. It's like I'm on therapy session or something. I'm not sure if anyone cares enough to actually listen how I complain about my life but if we're being totally honest psychotherapists really don't give a f**k about our problems. They're just listening to you because you're paying them to do so. Not that there's anything necessarily wrong with that. I mean they somehow have to make money to survive in this world so what's the problem if you're doing that while listening to some stranger talking about how his wife dumped him for his best friend and now he's thinking about stabbing them both with a fork.

"Stop making excuses and tell me everything. I won't stop bugging you before you..." Lucy was cut off by the blonde waitress who approached us with a little notebook in her hand to get our order. What a perfect timing. It's actually the first time I'm happy that someone's intruding in my conversation.

"So did you guys decide what you'll be having today?" She asked and smiled at me. Then she raised her hand to move her hair behind her ear.

"Yes, we'll have one pizza with extra cheese for all of us and a salad and water for me please." I answered her.

"And I'd like fries and a cola." Lucy added after me.

"Alright," she started writing down something in her tiny notebook and once she was finished she turned her face towards Felicity. "What about you miss?"

She signed what she wanted to order to me so I could translate for her.

"Um, she'll be having a cheeseburger without mayo and a large cup of Pepsi." When I turned my face towards the waitress she looked shocked at first but she quickly snapped out of it and her facial expression turned back into the usual smile that she greeted us with when we first saw her.

"Coming right up!" She replied soon afterwards and accidentally touched my shoulder while she was leaving.

"Whoa, she was totally flirting with you." Felicity signed when the waitress left.

"What? She totally was not. She was just being polite, that's all." I replied.

"Yeah, yeah whatever you say, Sherlock. She's been staring at you ever since we arrived in this weird place." Lucy added with her signature smile and a risen eyebrow.

I couldn't care less if I'm being honest. She's really not my type. She's not even the correct gender for me. Actually she would be if I wasn't gay but my friends don't know that yet so I can't tell them the reason why I'm disinterested.

I mean don't get me wrong she's really pretty and I'm sure she'll find a nice straight man to date with. Or she'll get pregnant like every other horny teen girl and drop out of school to take care of the baby while the baby daddy will be making other babies with some other girls.

"Whatever, I have to pee. I'll be right back." I stated and stood up to go to the bathroom.

I didn't really want to pee but I needed a moment to focus on my mission so I just went into the men's room and sat on the toilet sit. This restaurant was pretty big so likewise it had a big bathroom which smelled surprisingly nice. It must have been freshly cleaned, men's restrooms usually never smell this pleasant.

While I was in there thinking about my problems I heard someone's footsteps approaching the bathroom door. Two people came inside and about a minute after they finished peeing they went to the sink's to wash their hands and one of them started speaking to another.

"Are you nervous about next Friday's game? I've heard that some important people will be there. This could be a really good opportunity for you. If you do well you'll have the chance to get the scholarship you wanted."

"Why would I be nervous? I know I'll win! It's the Gladiators who should be worried."

Wait, I think I've heard this voice somewhere before. It sounds really familiar.

Oh my god, what if it's someone I know. There's no way! If he's from my town, or even school. There's no way I can come out to the girls if that's the case.

They left the bathroom soon afterwards without saying a word but for some reason I felt like I was being drowned in a room fool of water. I could hardly breathe but after a while I managed to take back control of my emotions and started thinking rationally.

It's probably just my brain playing tricks on me. I'm sure it was someone I've never even seen before. I should stop overreacting and go out there to tell my friends about my true identity. It's now or never. I'm done hiding. There's nothing I should be ashamed of, it's not like I asked to be a homosexual. I was born like this. Some people are born tall and slim but they're not hiding their height or skinniness so why should I hide my true colors. Okay, maybe that wasn't the best analogy or even a good one but you get the idea of what I mean, right?

I got back to our table few minutes later and when I sat down in my seat I saw that our food was already served. Even the pizza was there. Geez how long was I in the bathroom - a century?

"Where the hell were you? We were starting to think that you fell asleep and Freddy Krueger visited you in your nightmares and stabbed you to death." Felicity signed this sentence for me when I got back. She was a huge horror freak so I wasn't shocked that she would assume that the only reason I was stuck in the bathroom for 20 minutes must have been that some psychopath with burned face decided to make an appearance in my dreams.

"She was the one thinking that. I just assumed you were j*********f or something." Lucy said casually. Who the heck says something like that? She's honestly such a hoe. No offense, she's my best friend and I love her but it's true. I'm sure she's slept with more boys than she could count. Not that I blame her or something. If anything, I'm actually jealous. Well at least one of us is getting some action and having fun.

"Stop saying stuff like that you'll make me lose my appetite." I replied to her sarcastic comment. "I was just scrolling down my ** feed and lost the track of time."

"Oh. That's totally understandable. Happens to me all the time." Lucy answered staring at her phone screen.

"So what did you want to tell us? Are you going to finally reveal the reason why we're here?" Felicity signed with her hands.

"I'll do that in a moment but now I'm starving so let's just eat first." Actually I wasn't hungry at all but I also couldn't find the courage or right moment to tell them everything so I just kept pointlessly delaying it.

After we were done eating I realized that there was no point stretching it out. I should just get this over with and be done with it.

"Umm. Guys I have to tell you something. I've been keeping this secret from everyone but because of that I was never able to truly express myself to anybody. But before I do that you have to promise me that you won't tell anyone."

"What is it, Jess? You can tell us anything, you know we're your friends and we'll love you no matter what." Lucy replied. Her careless smile changed into something more serious. She looked like she was really concerned.

"You might not even talk to me after I tell you what I've been keeping from you."

"This is ridiculous. You're scaring me. Just spit it out already!" Lucy was getting frustrated from all this tension and so was Felicity.

Here we go. This is the first time I'm saying this out loud and my heart's beating like crazy. I think I might even have a heart attack. Oh, I know I said I didn't like alcohol but I wouldn't say no to a shot right now.

"I'm..." I wanted to say it but the words just wouldn't come out of my mouth. I breathed in heavily and gathered all the strength I had left in my bones. "I'm... gay." I said as I closed my eyes. I was too scared that when I opened them Lucy and Felicity would be gone. They'd be running without looking at me. It was really hard finding friends for me and I didn't want to lose them in just a second.

"Are you kidding me?" I heard Lucy's voice and tried opening my right eye. Well at least they didn't run. Maybe they want to tell me how disgusting I am for even saying those cursed words. "I thought you killed somebody or something. Don't scare me like that."

"So... you're not... mad?" I asked confusedly.

"Why would we be mad? To be completely honest we kind of knew already." Lucy replied cracking a smile.

"But how? I wasn't even sure myself until few years ago."

"Honey, no straight man would order a salad." She replied sarcastically looking down at my plate full of vegetables. That's not true though. I'm pretty sure there must be at least some straight males who enjoy eating salad. And there are plenty of vegans in this world so I don't really think that's a valid point. "I'm just glad you finally came out. Holding it inside you must have been really hard but we didn't want to push it. We thought that you needed some time to really think about everything. And there was also a chance that we were wrong and you were actually straight so we didn't want to risk scaring you off."

"Keep your voice down. Might as well scream 'hey look my friend's gay come and beat him up so he'll learn his lesson.'" I spoke a little louder than I intended to. Because of that some people started looking in our direction. I wasn't quite sure if they heard what I said or they just got annoyed that I was talking loudly.

"Relax, no one knows us here, wasn't that the whole point of dragging our asses at this place?" Lucy answered and started sipping her drink.

After that we talked a little more. Everything went much better than I anticipated. I thought this would be the last time I saw my friends' faces but now we're closer than ever. I was worried over nothing. Or so I thought in that moment.

When we finished our drinks and by drinks I mean water, cola and Pepsi, I excused myself to the bathroom. I really wanted to pee this time. I left our fee on the table and stood up from my chair.

"Don't take an hour this time please. We'll be waiting in the car." Felicity signed before I left. I just nodded and chuckled a little bit.

I finished my business, washed my hands and was about to leave the bathroom when someone came inside. I didn't pay attention to the person at first because my hands were wet and I reached for the paper towel to dry them. Then I walked towards the door to leave but someone was blocking my exit. Someone tall and muscular might I add.

"Um, excuse me, do you mind?" I was annoyed that some weirdo was on my way and he wouldn't move. He was taller than me so I didn't look at his face and also I didn't like looking into peoples eyes, it always made me feel scared that they would somehow manage to find out that I was gay just by looking at me. But now I was forced to gaze at this irritating individual. And that was the moment I realized my life was going downhills.

I saw my classmate Andrew. Our football team's captain. Wait oh my god, he must have been the guy that came in the bathroom when I was first in here, the one that I thought had a familiar voice. Dang it, why didn't I trust my instincts? Ugh, I'm such an i***t.

But just because he's here doesn't mean he heard what I said right? He probably saw us and came to say hi.

Who am I kidding? He hasn't said a word to me since... Actually I don't think we ever had a conversation before. He must have heard what I said and now he's here to beat me up like a training bag.

Maybe I'm wrong though. There's no point in breaking my head about it I'll just ask him why he's here. Yeah, that's a good idea. Totally not suspicious.

"Andrew, what are you doing here?" My attempt of sounding inconspicuous was clearly a failure.  

"So, you're gay, ha?" oh okay he's not in a mood for small talk I guess, but that's a good thing I'm not either. And why is he looking at me like that and what's up with that stupid smirk on his face. What a jerk.

"What? That's ridiculous." I replied and he raised his eyebrow. I knew there was no point in lying anymore. "Okay fine, so what? Are you gonna beat me or what? Just get it over with, don't waste my time."

"I couldn't care less about that." He answered in my surprise.

"So could you please not tell anyone?" I asked him with an awkward smile.

"I could. But what's in it for me?"

"What do you mean?" I suppose anything would be better than telling everyone in our homophobic town that I'm gay so I'll have to do anything he asks.

"What I mean is that you, Goodman, are going to do everything I order you to do if you want me to keep my mouth shut. You're going to be like my personal puppet." Whoa, I didn't even think he knew my name and now I actually wish he didn't. "So do we have a deal?"

His smirk grew wider and wider before it turned into a devilish smile.

Yup! I'm screwed! But not in an enjoyable way.