Reincarnated Soul

Two : Her Nightmare

“Cassandra…”

I saw his angelic face laying on my shoulders. I miss this feeling of warmth from him. I miss his hugs. I miss all of this.

“Yes Dylan?” I said as I caressed his face. I am drawn to this moment, this kind of intimate affection between us, I don’t wanna end this.

“You knew that I love you right?” His greyish eyes look deeply into my eyes. Every word he said is like a melody to my ears!

“Yes...and I love you too. You’re my most precious one” I told him as I kissed his forehead. I smelled his hair and I can’t resist loving his fragrance. Oh Dylan, I’m really glad you’re mine!

“Then why?”

I’m shocked when his aura turned into a dark one. Earlier he seemed so happy but now, I can sense his anger between his words.

“Huh? Why what?”

“Why did you kill me? Why did you kill me Cassandra? How could you not notice that it’s me all along? Why? Cassandra why???”

This time I felt so confused. I don’t know what to say!

He harshly grabs my hand and it hurts me so bad. I really can feel that he’s so mad at me!

“No, Dylan...it...it is a mistake, n-no! I didn’t mean to do that…No!”

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“NO!!!”

I woke up screaming with tears in my eyes and a heavy feeling inside my heart. It’s a nightmare. Yes It’s just a nightmare, but it feels so true. His warmth, his face, his emotion, the anger that he showed me...it looks so real.

“Dylan... I’m really sorry. I love you so much!” Those words just blurts out of my mouth as I release a big sigh. My tears are still flowing and I can’t stop myself. 

“I know, I know you’re mad at me Dylan. I know, I’m sorry, it’s my fault I’m sorry” I tried to cover my mouth with my hands but I couldn't hold myself back. I still made noises revealing my pain. I slowly touched the ground where I buried his body. Yes, I’m still inside this magical forest and I feel so lost. I don’t want to leave Dylan here. I feel like my life is pointless now. He’s my only purpose, I planned my future with him, I imagined my whole life with him by my side, but now he’s gone because of me. I can’t forgive myself for what I’ve done! I’m so dumb! Dylan is right, why haven’t I noticed that it is him all along?! He’s my lover, I should’ve known better! I’m so worthless.

After a few minutes of crying, I felt so tired. I lie on the ground next to his grave. I keep on touching the ground as if I’m touching his body. All the memories we had are stuck in my mind. I feel like I am going crazy. I really can’t believe that I did this to him. That I’m the reason why he’s gone. For three years of protecting him from my clan, I never thought that I would be the one who brought this harm to him. It’s been a week since he died, but I’m still here. It’s still fresh in my mind, how I killed my lover with my own hands.

“I’m a sinner, I should be punished” I told myself as I sat down from lying on the ground. I’ve thought of an idea. I looked around the forest and I saw an arrow from afar. That arrow seems familiar. It’s from the werewolf that tried to harm me last time. I immediately walked towards that arrow and I touched it. I checked its pointed part and it is metal, yes, perfect.

“It’s a perfect tool to kill myself” I said as I walk back to Dylan’s grave. My life now is in vain. What’s the purpose of me still living if I can’t be with the one I love?

I clenched my hands while holding the arrow. I’m mad about myself, and I know I deserve this punishment. It’s better to die than to live without him. 

I looked at his grave, before I pointed the arrow to myself. I’m aiming to pierce my heart, my heart that has been so heavy for a very long time. I took a deep breath. “Dylan...I really love you. I’m so sorry for thi--”

Before I even finished my sentence, and before I even pierce myself, a pair of hands grabbed the arrow away from me. 

“Cassandra no! What are you doing?!”

I looked at the man who restrained me from killing myself. I never expected to see him here, at this very moment. His soft almond long hair brushes his pale face. His fangs are not visible right now but his red eyes are. He’s wearing a dark suit and he looks so neat.

He's… “Cyprus…” I saw him looking so worried about me. Cyprus, he has been my friend since I was a child. He’s been so good to me until now. I don’t know where he came from. I didn't even notice him coming.

“Cassandra, are you trying to kill yourself?!” 

I can’t utter a word in front of him. I just cried. I felt weak again as I knelt in front of him while crying. I covered my face because I am so ashamed. I really want to die at this point.

“Look Cassandra… I’m sorry for what happened to Dylan, I..” he tried to touch my shoulders but I resisted.

“How did you know about what happened?!”

He can’t even look directly into my eyes.

“The Queen told me,” He said as he looked down on the ground.

As I heard those words from him, I couldn't help but to feel angry. The hatred that I feel from the Queen got worse. In my mind I already killed her. She’s already dead to me.

“That wicked Lucinda!” I clenched my fist as I punched the ground resulting in a big c***k. I saw Cyprus’ eyes widened from what I’ve done.

“She’s still your mother Cassandra” He again tried to touch my shoulders but again, I resisted. Right now I feel like he’s an ally of the Queen. Yes he’s my friend, but as of the moment I can’t trust anyone.

“No! I don’t have a mother since the day that I left the kingdom, Cyprus” I showed him how mad I am. I hate the fact that the Queen is controlling me all through the years that I’ve stayed in the kingdom. I hated myself being the heir. I hated myself for being her daughter.

“But Cassandra, our kingdom needs you! You’re the heir” he’s trying to convince me but I don’t buy that. I want to be gone as of this very moment. I want to end my life. I want to end my pain. I want to end my suffering.

“NO! CYPRUS I WANT TO DIE. PLEASE LET ME DIE! KILL ME PLEASE” I beg him as I touch both of his hands which are holding the arrow that I have earlier.

“Cassandra! I can’t do that!” He removed my hand from me and he leaned back. He’s showing me that he disagrees with my decision.

“If you can’t, let me be” I tried to get the arrow from his hands but he moved away quickly. He really doesn't get easy on me right now. “Cyprus! Just give me the arrow!”

“Wait no Cassandra, listen! Dylan won’t be happy if you kill yourself okay?!” I stopped from what I was doing when he said that. I don’t know how I feel about it. I just don’t know. All I know is that Dylan is mad at me. He even visits me in my dream just to show his anger. It’s my fault. He won’t be there in the grave right now if it wasn't because of me.

“It’s my fault Cyprus. I killed him. I deserve to die”

“No Cassandra, it’s not your fault. Please listen to me”  he then forcefully hugged me. With that, I cried once more.

“I missed Dylan so much. I love him so much, but I killed him. It’s my fault Cyprus”

“Cassandra, no. If there is anyone to blame, it's your mother. She planned all of this. If you die right now, you can't get the right justice for Dylan” he is caressing my hair while saying those words convincing me not to kill myself. Somehow, he has a point. Yes, maybe it’s the Queen’s fault, maybe she really planned all of this, but I’m still the one who killed my lover. 

“I’m still the one who bit his neck and sucked his blood that caused his death. I didn’t even recognize him that night. He’s my lover, but I didn’t recognize his body. I’m a fool. Whatever angle to look from, Cyprus, I’m very foolish.” he removed his embrace to me and he then touched both of my shoulders. He is now facing me and looking directly into my eyes.

“You were dizzy that night. The Queen put some molten metal through your veins, remember? She is the one to blame Cassandra, not you. She caused all of this.” wait, I was wondering… how did he know all of these details?

“H-how did you know that? Does Lucinda really tell you ALL of that?”

“It doesn’t matter. All you need now is to be strong” he then touched my face. I sense something off about him right now. I don’t think Lucinda will tell all of the details to him like that. Why does it feel like… Cyprus is there when all of those things happened to me? It feels like he’s been there watching everything.

*swoosh*

My eyes widened when Cyprus tried to block the arrow from piercing me. It’s not the arrow that I have before, but an arrow coming from afar. I saw his shoulders bleeding because of it. I don’t know what to do. I’m surprised.

“Werewolves. Run Cassandra” He said before I saw a familiar figure from afar, holding a bow and arrow. Wait, she’s the woman who tried to kill me before! The woman who struck Dylan’s arm. She’s with somebody right now. There are five of them! It seems like she can’t fight alone.

*swoosh*

Another arrow came out from one of her comrades. Who’s this woman? Why is she so desperate to kill me?

“Do you know her Cyprus?” I said as I grabbed his collar and pointed my fingers to that woman.

“She’s Ethenia. That’s all I know. Now run Cassandra. I’ll take care of them” He showed me that he is strong. He removed the arrow from his shoulder as if it didn't hurt.

“Are you sure Cyprus?I can help you heal your wounds”

“No need, I’m the alpha, remember? I can handle this. Now go, take care of yourself okay? Please, don’t die” he said before he pushed me away.

That’s my last glimpse of him before I ran fast leaving him from the magical forest…

That’s also the last time I see my lover’s grave.

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“No! Wait, please…what are you doing?”

I arrived in the city where Dylan lived. It’s 5 o’clock in the afternoon already and I’m shocked and confused. The landlord is taking away all the things inside Dylan’s apartment.

“Dylan hasn't paid the rent for two months already. It’s time to gather up all his belongings and take it all away”

Oh gosh why is it all happening to me? Really? It’s been a very tough week for me. Now this?

“Please, don’t do that. I’ll pay for his rent. Just please stop taking away all of his things please” I had a lot of memories from him here, all his things, this place.

“Do you have money?”

I paused.

I wonder if I do have money. By that time, I realized that I don’t have anything as of the moment. I’m very unfortunate.

“Uhm… can you please give me an extension for at least a month or two? I’ll just find a job to pay fo-”-

“Sorry but...no” she turned away from me and continuously told the two male carriers to bring out all the things inside. I’m losing hope already. I sat down on the sidewalk and began to cry. I don’t want to lose this place. I already lost Dylan, and then this place? It’s the only place that I have. The place that can remind me everything about him. But now it is slowly gone in front of my eyes.

I looked down on my fingers, seeing the engagement ring that Dylan gave me. I remembered that time, when he proposed to me…

“Marry me, Cassandra”

His voice, I can still hear it. That night I feel like I’m the happiest vampire alive. Oh Dylan, I wish you were here.

“Hmm..miss, If you really want to stay in this apartment maybe you can give me that ring as a payment” I heard the landlord and I looked up to him. It seems like he saw me looking at my ring. This golden ring.

“But...this is very precious to me”

“Okay then. If that’s the case you need to find a new place to stay” 

I think thoroughly. This ring is very important to me. I can’t give this up, but I can’t also give up Dylan’s apartment. At the moment I don’t have any place to live. 

This ring symbolizes his love for me. He gave this to me when he proposed. I do love this ring because it is from him. It reminds me of that very romantic moment when he asked me to marry him.

I…

I miss him…

I don’t want to give this up but…

I need to choose.

“I’ll g-give this ring. Just please bring back all of Dylan’s belongings and let me stay in his apartment”

It’s a very tough decision. 

But I guess they left me with no choice.

I may let the ring go…

But His memories remain engraved in my heart.