14 OCTOBER 2019 :
Dear diary, I didn't slept last night. Samantha said that I am one of them. All night I was wondering what she meant by it. And also I had a vision in which I saw Peter. Blood was rolling down his forehead and there was a fragmented flower wase on the floor. It left me with another question.
My life is full of answered questions. The more I try to find answers the more I find myself trapped. I feel like I am locked in a cage , the keys are in front of me but I am not able to reach them no matter how hard I try. I am tired now. It's not so that I am lazy or unmotivated or stuck , it's just that I am exhausted now. I know I will be ok and then everything will work out. I know that what is meant for me will happen no matter how much I try to avoid it. I know... But I just
