LEAD ME ON

ENVER

Medalina pov

Holding my hands with pleading eye he says

“please”

Is he going through something? what's wrong with him huuu? I know I am tired but not enough to deny his doe eyes.

so yeah. I said “Yes” “let's go”

I hold his hand in mine, existing from the office thinking about him. Did he stop going to therapy or what, there were a lot of assumptions in my mind. these days I am not getting time for myself. I was planning this weekend off for me but seems like it's not gonna happened, I'm not mad about it, not at all. The only thing important to me right now is Enver. So It's fine

Coming outside the office. I gave him a questioning look asking “what was next”?

I want a cozy place” he said

How much cozy do you want? I asked him

Home ….. he paused for a second and then said ….. let's go to my place

Ok……….I do want to say no or take him to my place but I wasn’t able to. The only thing I said was “ my car” hhuuu?

Sure, let's go

Giving him the car keys I went towards to passenger seat.

The ride was ice cold silent until I asked “is there anything wrong”

No, not really

I waited for him to say furthermore but he didn’t so I speaked again……

Do you have a double bed?

“Why,” he asked looking at me

Do you think I have the energy to go back to my place

I do have a sofa ..he said

Ok you can use that for today, I need the bed

Hmm will see

what with the hmm will see I am not sleeping on the sofa for sure. It was 10 min long ride after we reached he went forward to open his house door. I entered I saw a sofa and I lay ..............wow this is relaxing, stretching my back I ask him for water. Now my eyes were checking each and every detail. His house vibe has always been calming and full of aesthetics my god everything seems so beautiful here. It feels like he has applied the color theory to every part of this house even the junk parts are complimenting the vibe, no doubt he is best at what he does. My eyes followed him to the kitchen. while taking a bottle out of his freeze his eyes met mine. I didn’t knew I was staring at him until he stared back raising his left eyebrow. And I laughed awkwardly. he came in front of me, my head was up trying to match his level he looked directly into my eye as if he watching my soul. it was not dominating at all but like submissive. Without breaking eye contact he sat down, not on the sofa but onto the floor now I had to bend my head to match his level. I took the water bottle from his hand taking a sip I ask

“what's the plan now “

she is coming back tomorrow he said bluntly

who, who is coming back?

MOM"

the second he said that word my mind froze along with my whole body I asked for confirmation and he nodded

why, why she is coming back she left you in the most vulnerable state when you needed her the most. she never looked back, not even when your dad died, you were left alone in this world but she never looked back but why now

I know, I will never forgive her for that and don’t know why she is coming, the only thing she told me is she is coming with her daughter.

what are you even saying? Does she have a daughter

yeah, she is 14 years old

Is she gonna be with you

I don’t know, probably yeah

No, NEVER she not gonna live with you. Enver you are already going to therapy because of all that past trauma? I can’t allow that.

Enver pov

right now I am already in mess but seeing her caring about me gives me a lot of relief. she has always been with me from my worst to best. And yes my mom is coming. I can’t deny the fact that she has been the reason for all my difficulties but right now she needs me, she called me the day before yesterday to tell me about her plan of coming back as her husband died last month, and she needs me. she even told me about her daughter, I don’t know if she gonna be with me but I am sure she is not coming for me.

what you thinking about ? a voice was heard medalina asked me .. .. she paused for a second and asked again

are you ok ?

I am not … It seems like the past is coming back those sleepless nights, those fights those screams those teary eyes, I don’t know if I can handle that again. I am tired medalina

Don’t worry I am here. I will always be here for you. you don’t have to worry about it.

she is assuring me and this is the best feeling knowing that you have someone who is gonna be with u forever and yeah I know she is gonna be with me.

Wanna eat something I have some pasta and chicken left I asked her trying to make the environment light, she nodded,

wait here let me heat it up

ok

standing up he went straight to the kitchen. I know him for ages now, he won’t share his problems with anybody if he has shared this, he must be in a mess that's why he asked me. I can’t do much for him but I won’t let his mom destroy his peace. I still remember the day I met him for the first time in middle school we were so young. I was childish I saw him in that crowded class doing nothing but just sitting alone and looking around which trigger my curious brain, so I decided to make him my friend. I made all the effort to sit next to him, trying to make conversation. sharing my candy, following him to his house. it took a lot of effort to melt him. finally, he started to talk, or should I say he started to reply to my questions. we become friends he was my only friend. He was so cool, good at studying, good-looking, and good at cooking back then I didn’t know the reason behind his cooking skills but now looking back it hurts me.