The Last Breath In Love

My Life Without Him

Chapter 10

Well I guess can actually be that of showing you flames.I mean things are fine now the next minute, it's hectic.

I learnt that love is a feeling that one cannot explain

never been so broken like this before , it's easy to say crying cleanses a broken soul. But I fail to understand how we keep crying and our souls still remain in pain .I guess after all its the life we get to live.

I hate how I invested so much into our relationship and showed me that some people will give the wrong definition of love,break you into pieces and leave you just lying there to put yourself together again.One thing I can tell you is that teaching your heart to be a rock "You strike a woman,you strike a rock" carries a strong message that you should keep in mind. It's not easy to move on because I'm used to having him around and now that we have taken separate ways ,life hasn't been so easy. I see him every day and he tends to remind me of everything good that we had,find myself smiling by just looking at him. "How did it get to this point?" a question I ask myself every single day.Love is beautiful and it needs the right people with the right intentions to express its beauty. I once told a friend of mine that love needs love to be true Love. I hope that someday we'll be able to get the true meaning of LOVE and stop misusing it.

I did absolutely everything to try and forget about the love we shared ,how it felt . My late mother used to say "When something is not real it doesn't last",it triggered my mind and I realised that everything was fake,the love was fake,the feelings were fake and I couldn't even see it,how dumb I've been. It all feels like a nightmare that won't end ,all this pain and sadness doesn't wanna end .The hate I have for myself.Sometimes I feel like I deserve all the bad things happening to me you know it's pretty hectic when you love someone but then things don't work out the way you expect that's an adventure I took

CHAPTER 11

Well, I've loved and learnt.

Being loved back it's pretty amazing yoh it's okay .I believe every adventure one takes has it's own flows and it's mix up there and there but I know that each and every one is us is capable to pull through. Just a few hiccups shouldn't stop you from moving forward.its just a phase you need to pass.

Honesty it's very important when starting a relationship and that's one thing he forgot when he first approached me and his mouth was full of lies ,lies and lies. And I fell for those lies what else could I have fallen for .At least something felt real for once ,sad enough everything that was happening had to end .

God has his ways of working things and we just have to accept how he does things.I needed to accept the situation because I couldn't change it.I faced up with what God had prepared for me and his reason behind it,I go with everything that God say goes because it

I can't oppose the word of the Lord . It's just a matter of time and then things would definitely go my way,for once and forever.

Never stop your life because someone has decided to hurt you and try to stop you from moving forward in life.You're the manager of your life ,you get to choose how to manage it

It came as a shock and a heartbreak when I had to end everything that was happening,so perfectly. Fires of everything and water was poured onto the fire and that was it ,the end. I had to now

I decided to move on and everything seemed to go well for me .At some point, I'm glad that we decided to go separate ways because maybe we were holding each other's lives. That's why things couldn't work out the way we expected .

Well I guess that's how it should be .

and I met this other guy, but not immediately after the break up. He's tall,dark and very handsome ,he seems to get me way more than I get myself . I never imagined my life without this guy,my life still feels so incomplete. The most painful thing is having to see him almost every day and not being able to talk to him . I get that maybe what we had was never enough for him. Oh well, that's if something is ever enough for him.At some point, I feel like he's the most ungrateful person I've ever met. After all I've done for him, he still went out and hurt me. I just can't seem to get over him and it's a very serious issue on the table because, at some point, I have to let go and move on too. Honestly I have been trying to avoid the fact that the little precious love we had was all gone even after the storms we'd been through, holding each other's hand at every challenge we faced as a couple, but I guess that meant nothing to him.

Chapter 12

Each day I have to learn how to slowly move on from him and again it's difficult but I just tend to keep on moving. I wake up some of the days and wonder how did I arrive here or was it meant to be. You can never tell if something is meant to be but can tell if it needs to happen . One can barely tell if i was over him or not because everytime he shows up i would just lose myself in the moment ,remembering all the times we spent together . All the love we made oh god knows what we have been through as a couple.I could barely get by a day without thinking about him.My friends gets pretty annoyed when i happen to talk about him when we are together. I loved this guy for who he was not what he had but i guess he was looking for someone who would love him for what he has and that is why i did not fit in his life. At the same time i'm glad he actually broke my heart instead of leading me on.

My mother taught me that even if everything happens for a reasons no matter if it results in heartbreak or happiness ,it gathers arounds lessons to teach you about how life operates and i must admit that i am glad that i pulled through even though it was not easy. Still remember when i would cry myself to sleep ,thinking how less worthy i was that i could not keep up with him and work things out. He wanted a relationship that was more out of this world ,one that he could have failed to maintain well i'm not badmothing him or anything for that matter i just know him to that point so you see never lower your standards for a person that barely appreciates you or anything you do for them.