When I Was 17

The problem is me

⚠ ERRORS AHEAD

"Doc, please save my sister and her baby, please" I beg to the doctor as the nurse accompany me outside the emergency room.

As soon as the door closed, my tears broke cause i'm holding it for too long.

"it's my fault" I said to myself as I bring myself to sit on the chair, slowly, slowly.

I'm Haely, 26 yrs old. My sister is not actually my real sister, she is my cousin-Emy Nitrile. Their family support me, cause my father died while working, and my mom? i dont know where the hell she is. And i don't care.

We're now here at the hospital. Because ate Emy will give birth to her baby. But it's too early, the estimated day for her delivery is next next week, but earlier she suffer from an extreme pain that's why I rush her here.

"HAELY! "

I saw my auntie and uncle running towards me, and as soon as they reach me, auntie hold my sholder tightly and look me in the eye. I can see that she cried.

"what have you done?! " she shouted at me and i just look down.

"didn't i told you that stop acting like you're a doctor cause you're not!! "

"Emelda, stop " uncle said.

Tears falling down from my eyes, guilt is eating me. Auntie is right, i'm not a doctor anymore, that's why i should stop acting like one.

Auntie look at me one last time before going outside with uncle to calm herself.

Ate Emy suffer from asthma last month while auntie and uncle are currently on a business trip. I want to consult her to a doctor but she doesn't want to. She said "you're a doctor before right? you can help me. I trust you"

The only person that trust me is now in danger.

Asthma during pregnancy might increase the risk of various problems, including a pregnancy complication characterized by high blood pressure and signs of damage to another organ system, often the kidneys,restricted fetal growth or premature birth.

That's why i let her take Anti-leukotriene agents like montelukast. These drugs shut down the effects of molecules called leukotrienes, which trigger airway inflammation.

I think she overdosed from the medication that affect her and her baby. It's still my fault. And i hate it. The problem is always in me.

?When I Was 17?