It was raining the day everything got worse.
The kind of rain that didnât fall gentlyâbut poured like the sky was angry at the world. Students rushed through the hallways, trying to escape it, laughing as they shook water from their clothes.
I stayed back.
Like always.
By the time school ended, the building was almost empty. I stepped outside slowly, holding my worn-out umbrella, the cold air brushing against my skin.
Thatâs when I saw him.
Ethan.
Standing under the shelter, frustrated, running his hand through his already damp hair.
âDamn it,â he muttered. âI told Jake to wait.â
His eyes scanned the area, clearly irritated.
He looked⊠stranded.
For a moment, I just stood there.
My heart started racing again.
This was my chance.
Not to talk.
Not to confess.
Just⊠to help.
Slowly, I walked toward him, each step feeling heavier than the last. My fingers tightened around the umbrella as I stopped a short distance away.
âH-hereâŠâ I said softly, my voice almost lost in the rain.
He looked at me.
Actually looked at me.
For the first time.
My chest tightened.
I held out the umbrella toward him, my hands slightly shaking.
âYou can use it,â I added, barely above a whisper.
There was a pause.
For a second, I thoughtâmaybe this time would be different.
Maybe heâd smile.
Maybe heâd say thank you.
MaybeâŠ
But then his expression changed.
Annoyance.
âAre you serious?â he said.
The words hit harder than the rain.
âI donât need your help.â
My hand froze in the air.
âIâI just thoughtââ
âYeah, thatâs your problem,â he cut in coldly. âYou think too much.â
My throat tightened.
People passing by slowed down, watching.
âIâm not some charity case,â he added, his voice louder now. âKeep your pity.â
Pity.
That wasnât what it was.
But I couldnât explain.
I couldnât speak at all.
My arm slowly dropped, the umbrella slipping slightly in my grip.
âI wasnâtââ I tried again.
âJust stop,â he said, already turning away. âItâs annoying.â
Annoying.
That word stayed.
It stayed longer than it should have.
Longer than I could handle.
I nodded, even though he wasnât looking anymore.
âOkay,â I whispered.
But the rain didnât hide the tears this time.
And stillâŠ
Still, I left the umbrella on the bench beside him before walking away into the storm.
Because loving him meant givingâ
Even when he gave nothing back.
And maybeâŠ
Maybe that was my biggest mistake.