Blue.
That was my name.
Not that it mattered.
No one really used it anyway.
âHey, youâmove.â
I stepped aside again, just like always. My shoulder brushed the locker as I made space, my fingers tightening around my books.
And then⊠I heard his voice.
Ethan.
âWhy is she always just standing there like that?â he said, his tone careless, almost annoyed.
My heart stopped.
I didnât turn. I couldnât.
âWho?â one of his friends asked.
âThat girl,â Ethan replied. âSheâs⊠weird.â
Weird.
The word echoed in my head like a slap.
âI think she likes you,â another voice teased.
There was a short pause.
Then he laughed.
Not the warm laugh I fell in love with.
This one was sharp.
Mocking.
âAs if,â he said. âIâd never go for someone like her.â
Something inside me cracked.
I wanted to disappear.
Noâ
I wished I never existed.
But stillâŠ
Still, my heart betrayed me.
Because even after hearing thatâ
even after the way his words cut through meâ
I loved him.
I loved him in the quiet way.
The painful way.
The kind of love that asks for nothing⊠and still loses everything.
Later that day, I sat alone in the cafeteria, pushing food around my plate without eating.
Across the room, Ethan was there again.
Laughing. Smiling.
Living a life I could never be part of.
For a secondâjust one secondâhis eyes met mine.
Hope flickered in my chest.
But thenâŠ
He frowned.
And looked away.
Like I was nothing.
And maybe I was.
But even nothing can feel pain.
And mine was just beginning.