THE HOUSE WE KEPT

Chapter 4: The Door That Doesn’t Lock

Lina’s POV

The lock stopped working in the middle of the night.

I didn’t know it at first. I only realized when I woke up to the sound of wind moving through the room like it had been invited in. The board Dreo had put over the broken window had shifted. A sliver of cold air was coming through the gap, and the door behind me was open. Not wide open. Just unlatched.

I sat up fast. My heart was loud in my chest.

I was sure I had locked it. I remembered the click. I always remembered the click.

I stood and crossed the room barefoot. The floor was cold under my feet. I reached for the doorknob and found that it turned too easily. The latch wasn’t catching. The wood had swollen from the rain, or maybe it had never fit right to begin with.

I tried again. It gave way with a soft sigh.

Dreo was on the porch.

He wasn’t sleeping. He was sitting with his back against the wall, a blanket over his shoulders, watching the dark like it might say something back. He looked up when he heard the door.

“It doesn’t lock,” I said. My voice was thin.

He was on his feet in one motion. He crossed the space between us in three steps and crouched by the doorframe. His hand ran along the edge of the wood, testing, pressing.

“The frame shifted,” he said. “From the rain. I’ll fix it.”

“It’s fine,” I said too quickly. “I can sleep with it open.”

He looked up at me then.

“You can’t,” he said. Not unkind. Just certain.

He went to his bag and pulled out tools. He worked quietly. The sound of the screwdriver was small and steady in the dark. I stood there and watched him. I should have gone back inside. I should have pretended I wasn’t watching the way his hands moved like they knew what to do without asking his head first.

He didn’t ask me to go inside. He didn’t tell me it was late. He just worked until the latch clicked again. Solid. Real.

He stood and tested it twice. Then he looked at me.

“Try it,” he said.

I took the key. I turned it. The sound was clean. Final.

“Thank you,” I said.

He nodded. He didn’t go back to the porch. He leaned against the doorframe instead, arms crossed, like he was waiting.

“Are you scared?” he asked.

The question was so direct it took the air out of me.

“No,” I lied.

He didn’t call me on it. He just said, “You can leave the door open if you want. I’ll stay here.”

“I don’t need you to—”

“I know,” he said. “I’m not doing it because you need me to. I’m doing it because I want to.”

He said it simply. Like it was a fact about the weather.

I didn’t know what to do with that.

I went back inside. I left the door open an inch.

I slept.

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The next morning, Aling Teresing came with more than food.

She came with paint.

“Pula,” she said, holding up a can. “For the door. Pink na faded. Pangit na.”

“I’m selling it,” I said.

“Then sell it with a red door,” she said. “Red doors mean welcome. Even if you’re not.”

She set the can down and left before I could argue.

Dreo looked at the paint. Then at me.

“We don’t have to,” he said.

I picked up the brush.

“I want to,” I said.

We painted the door together.

He did the edges. I did the flat parts. We worked in silence, but it was not the same silence as before. This one had color in it. It had the smell of paint and the sound of the brush moving back and forth.

My hand slipped once. Red paint smeared across my wrist.

“s**t,” I whispered.

Dreo took my wrist without asking. He pulled a rag from his pocket, damp with turpentine, and wiped it clean. His thumb moved in small circles over my skin.

He didn’t let go right away.

He looked at my wrist like he was memorizing it. Then he looked at my face.

“Careful,” he said.

“With what?”

“Everything,” he said.

He let go.

The door was red by the time we finished. Bright. Loud. Impossible to ignore.

It looked wrong on the old house.

It looked right on the house we were making.

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Mimi came back.

She didn’t knock. She just appeared at the gate with a new drawing and a question.

“Why is your door red now?”

“Because red means welcome,” I said.

She thought about that. Then she nodded. “Then I’m welcome.”

She came in and sat on the steps. She drew the red door. She drew me holding the brush. She drew Dreo beside me.

“Is he your asawa?” she asked, without looking up.

“No,” I said. Too fast.

“Then why does he look at you like that?”

“Like what?”

“Like you’re something he’s trying not to drop.”

I didn’t have an answer for that.

Dreo was on the roof. He didn’t hear her. Or maybe he did and chose not to.

Mimi gave me the drawing. “For your pink room,” she said. “So it won’t be sad anymore.”

She left.

I held the paper for a long time.

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That night, the rain came back harder.

We were inside. The roof was holding, but the wind was loud. It moved through the gaps in the boards and made the house sound like it was breathing.

I was in the kitchen. Or what was left of it. I was trying to clean the counter that Lola Rosa used to use. The wood was warped and stained, but I scrubbed it anyway.

Dreo came in. He was wet from checking the outside.

“You should stop,” he said.

“I can’t,” I said. “If I stop, I’ll think.”

He didn’t argue. He just took the rag from my hand and started scrubbing beside me.

We cleaned the kitchen in silence.

When we were done, my hands were red and raw.

Dreo took them in his. He didn’t say anything. He just looked at them. At the redness. At the small cuts from the nails and the dirt from the garden.

He reached for the small first aid tin he kept in his bag. He cleaned each cut. He put ointment on. He wrapped my hands with clean bandages.

His hands were steady. Gentle.

When he was done, he didn’t let go.

He held my bandaged hands between both of his.

“You don’t have to fix everything by yourself,” he said.

“I do,” I said. “If I don’t, who will?”

He looked up at me.

“I will,” he said.

The words hit me harder than the rain on the roof.

I pulled my hands back. Not because I didn’t want him to hold them. Because I did.

“I can’t stay,” I said.

“I know,” he said.

“I’m going to sell this house.”

“I know.”

“Then why—”

“Because you’re here now,” he said. “And now matters.”

The wind moved through the house again.

I didn’t answer.

He didn’t ask me to.

He just took a step back. Gave me space.

But he didn’t leave the kitchen.

He stayed.

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Later, I went to my room.

The door locked this time.

I sat on the floor and looked at Mimi’s drawing. The red door. Me. Him.

I thought about what he said. `Now matters.`

I thought about the lock that didn’t work, and the man who stayed on the porch until it did.

I thought about how easy it would be to open the door again.

I didn’t.

Not yet.

But my hand was on the doorknob for a long time before I let go.

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*End Chapter 4*