I think carefully on my answer for a while before trying to tell her. I am not completely sure about it myself. I mean, I was never attracted to him when we were younger but he has changed so much now that I might find myself surprised. Just when he tried to buckle me in I found myself inhaling his scent which had my heart racing. Is it really possible that I could want something more of him in the future?
Then again, I cannot see myself ever being ready to be with somebody after my marriage. As wonderful as it sounds to find my happily ever after, with 5 years of constant abuse behind me I am not sure if I will ever be able to trust a man again. So much was done to me in those five years that I am not the same as I was before.
That leads to my next problem. Even if I decide to give him
