It is much more difficult to fall back asleep after that. My mind keeps swirling with the possibilities of what the dream could have meant. Some of it is obvious to me. I mean, I have always dreaded Carl finding out that I am pregnant as well as what it could mean for our future. He does not exactly seem like the fatherly type at any point during our 5 years together.
There has to be something else that I can do to avoid some of the futures that I saw. I refuse to allow him to have any type of hold over me after everything that he has already done. There is no way that I can allow for him to do something like that. Caleb might have had a drastic solution but it still is not something that I want to even consider just yet. Just going through with it would be admitting to him that not only
