I stared out the window of the penthouse as I wore black. I haven’t slept or and eating very little in the last couple days. Jake looked over at me as he talked with his mother as his face fell. I know he is trying. I know that he loved him like he was his own. My god. Why did this happened?” I placed my hand on my stomach as I looked out to the park with kids wrapped up in their fall coats as they build piles of leaves then jump into them. Tristian didn’t get a chance to do that in his short little life. He gave me six wonderful years. Jake walked over to me as he placed his hands on my hips and leaned down to my forehead laying his lips against it, “Please Babe, Eat something. I know this all hurts. We are all hurting but you have to eat.” I shook my head as he sighed, “F

