Chapter 3 — A Line You Do Not Cross

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I did not sleep the night before she returned to our territory. The house was quiet in a way that made every sound clear: the tick of the hall clock, the soft sigh of ducts, my own breath. Dawn came gray. I tied my hair back, washed my face, and told myself today would be simple. If a boundary needed to be spoken, I would speak it. At noon a black car rolled to a stop by the front steps. I watched from the upstairs landing. Two guards got out first, then Jones, then the girl he used to love. She was paler than I remembered from old stories and stray mentions. A scarf lay at her throat as if the cloth wanted to defend her. She looked fragile in the way that makes people want to carry things for you. They walked in without ceremony. Jones gave a short order to a maid to bring tea. He did not see me yet. He guided the girl to the sitting room, the one with the long windows and the straight-backed chairs. I listened to the low weight of his voice—professional, measured. It was the tone he used for reports and schedules, not for a reunion. That should have calmed me. It did not. I went downstairs. The foyer smelled like lemon polish. The sitting-room door stood open the way a mouth stands open to invite a word. I stepped in and took the chair opposite them. I did not ask permission. This was my house, and I was done pretending to be a guest in it. “Isabella," Jones said, rising halfway and stopping. He looked like a man who had rehearsed a speech and could not find the first line. The girl's eyes moved over my face as if she were cataloging damage. Up close she was pretty in the easy way—clean skin, soft mouth, wrists that looked like you could snap them with two fingers and regret it afterward. She folded her hands on her lap and waited to be introduced. “Say it plain," I told Jones. “No ribbons." He glanced at the girl, then at me. “Sophia is unwell. She needs rest. She'll be under the physician's care." That was the summary. It left out the past. It left out the part where he had once told me that first love is a story you keep on a high shelf so it doesn't trip you in the dark. It left out the part where people hear the word sick and stop asking questions. I looked at Sophia. “Do you speak for yourself?" She dipped her chin and held it there like a student with good manners. “I don't want to trouble anyone," she said in a voice meant to be poured like warm milk. “I asked to be left at the clinic. But the Alpha—" She broke off and looked down, as if his title were too heavy to lift. The words were polite. The posture was not. She was already arranging herself into the center of the room. Even sick, she knew where to sit to be looked at. I did not blame her for that. I noted it. I have learned to trust the parts of me that take notes. I kept my tone even. “You are ill. That is unfortunate. We will make sure you receive proper care." I turned my eyes to Jones. “Proper care does not require this room." “It's temporary," he said, hands flat on his knees. “Until she stabilizes." “Define temporary." “Months. Not years." My mouth wanted to laugh. I did not let it. “No." The girl's lashes lifted. Jones's jaw tightened. I felt the old habit rise in me—the one that suggests I soften what I know is true so the conversation stays smooth. I kept the habit on a short leash. “You can fund a nurse," I said. “You can sign an order for a private room. You can assign escorts, a cook, a driver, a healer, a watch. All of that can happen somewhere else. What will not happen is this." I traced a small circle in the air between my knees and the edge of the rug. “Not under this roof." Sophia drew a breath and let it tremble. “I never meant to upset you," she whispered. “If I had any other place—" “You have many other places," I said, and I kept my voice flat so the words would not blur. “You have a clinic with trained staff. You have any cottage the Alpha points to. You have a dozen families who would take you in for the story alone." I shifted my eyes to Jones and did not blink. “You do not have this one." He set his shoulders like he was bracing for a push. “Isabella, be reasonable." I leaned forward, elbows on my thighs, hands linked to keep them from breaking something. “Reasonable is asking before you move people across lines that matter. Reasonable is acknowledging a wife before you make space for your old lover. Reasonable is listening when the person you vowed to protect says she will not host her own humiliation." Sophia flinched at the word lover, a small neat tremor like a bell tapped with a finger. Jones's eyes stayed on me. He did not like the word humiliation; it forced him to consider pictures he preferred not to look at. “I understand your feelings," he said. He did not, but it was a sentence leaders use when they want to move on. “This is about health." “This is about respect." I sat back. “And the answer is no." Silence followed the word and settled in the room like a chair no one wanted to sit in. In the hall a maid cleared her throat and then made no more sound. The kettle in the kitchen hissed and clicked. Outside, a delivery cart rattled past the gate and turned toward the kitchens. Everything continued. That helped. It meant the world did not crack when I put the word down. Sophia folded and unfolded a handkerchief. She kept her eyes low, but I saw the quick flashes—assessment, calculation, a test of angles. She was sick, yes. But she was also the kind of person who knows where to place a tear to make it count. “You think I want to be here," she said, voice thin with effort. “I don't. I'm embarrassed. I'm ashamed." She pressed the handkerchief to her mouth and held it there. “I'll leave if you say so." She turned the last words to Jones without looking at him. It was a clean move: deference to me on the surface, appeal to him under it. I heard my own breath. I kept it even because even breath keeps the room from tilting. “Good," I said. “Then we agree." Jones stood as if that would let him find a different angle. “Isabella—" I lifted a hand. “No. Don't talk over this. You brought her to me, to this room, to make a case. You've made it. Here is mine: she can be safe and cared for without living in our house. This is not a debate I will repeat every day for the next six months. That would be slow damage. I am not volunteering for it." He looked away at the window and then back at me. When he spoke again, his voice had dropped into the register that makes other people say yes. “I am asking for compassion." “You are asking for consent," I said. “You do not have it." Sophia finally raised her head fully. The soft veil dropped from her voice and for a second I saw the clean bones under the act. “If you send me away," she said, “people will talk." “They will," I said. “They always do. You can help them talk sense by telling them the truth: you need care, and you will receive it in a place designed for it. There is no scandal in that." The handkerchief lowered. Her mouth pressed flat and then softened again. She tried a different door. “Maybe I can stay a single week," she said, almost bright. “Just until the worst passes. I'll stay quiet. I'll keep to a room. You won't even know I'm here." I thought about walls and how sound finds them. I thought about maids pausing in doorways, about bowls of lemons that would appear again, about the long list of small concessions that become a life you do not recognize. “No," I said again. Jones exhaled. The sound was not loud, but it carried weight. “We have a duty to the sick." “We do," I said. “And we also have a duty to our vows. You do not place one on top of the other and call the bottom one unimportant." A red line climbed his throat and faded. He was angry. Good. Anger meant the truth had landed. He took a step toward me and stopped. He did not touch me. He looked at Sophia, then at the table, then at the far wall, then back to me like the room might offer him a sentence he had not tried yet. I made it simple for both of us. “Arrange a car," I said. “Call the physician. Sign the authorizations. Pay whatever it costs. She leaves today." Sophia's mouth opened. She shut it. She opened it again. “You would turn me out while I'm ill?" She made it soft, but the steel showed through. “What kind of woman does that?" “The kind who knows the difference between help and self-erasure," I said. “You will have help. You will not have me disappearing in my own home." She looked at Jones for rescue. He found nothing to give her that wouldn't burn him later. He stayed silent. It was the first useful choice he had made all day. A maid came to the doorway with the tea tray and froze like a deer. I waved her in. “Thank you," I said. She set the cups down and left fast, feet whispering across the rug. Sophia watched the cups as if an answer might float in one. Then she looked back at me. “You hate me," she said, testing that angle too. “I don't hate you," I said, and that was true. Hate is a chain. I was done wearing chains I did not choose. “I hate what happens when people give their wants a saint's name and expect everyone else to bow to it." She blinked. Jones stared at the tray. The lemon in the bowl glowed too yellow. I turned the bowl so the fruit faced the window and not me. I stood. My chair legs made a clean sound against the floor. “This conversation is over." I adjusted my sleeves and smoothed the front of my shirt because that small act of order steadied my head. “I will speak to the physician myself." Jones started to speak. I raised my hand again, palm out. “No more," I said without heat. “You can be generous somewhere else. Not here." I looked at Sophia and made my voice as clear as I could make it. “You will not stay to recover here. You will leave today. I want you out of this house immediately." I did not add anything after that. There was nothing to add.
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