Chapter 20: The Mysterious Life of KudzuI drove in the direction of Mama’s house, not knowing whether I would stop to see her or not.
Truth was, I just wanted to be alone for a while, without Noah hanging on my t**s, alone, by myself, with my own thoughts, able to hear myself think for a change, some quality me-time.
Before Noah was born, I had read all kinds of books on what it would be like to be a parent, but nothing could have prepared me for the truth. I would love to say it was beautiful and inspiring and life-changing and awesome, and it was some of those things, of course, but mostly it was utter hell. Utter, complete, unremitting, agonizing hell. Nothing could have prepared me for the way my life was engulfed by the needs of this new being, this screaming little meth baby who ne
