Aimee's POV
After crying all night on the bathroom floor, I gathered the strength to get up and get washed. I stood underneath the shower fully clothed and turned the shower on. Boiling water covered my body.
I wanted nothing but to burn my skin off. The filthy hands of those men felt like they were permanently imprinted on my body.
I took a Luffa and scrubbed my body vigorously. I didn't realize that I had busted my knee bad as well as my back and hips were bruised from the incident.
My anger and helplessness flowed out of my body with tears. My skin was red and bleeding a little from all that friction. The scenes from the bar kept repeating in my head. Their hands, their voice, their faces.... everything was haunting my thoughts.
I fell to my knees again and closed my eyes.
"You are such a sweet little girl, Don't tell Sara, okay this is our little secret. You are the best little girl." His hands were inside my pants, I tried to scream but he covered my mouth pain flooding through my body. "Shh...Shh...it's almost done, princess. My sweetheart just a little bit more. I know you like this, don't cry."
"You are such a beautiful little girl princess, you will become a star someday. Everybody would want you. Maybe even a set of parents" He said unbuttoning his pants. "Open wide, and this time sallow it up, don't make me upset, we don't want to repeat what happened last time now do we?"
My eyes fling open and I rush toward the toilet and spew my guts out.
After an hour of throwing up, I managed to get on my feet and wash my body once again. Once I am decently cleaned up I get dressed I'm my usual white button-down and black jeans. I go out and start getting my chores done. I text Luke that I won't be able to make it to my shift and quickly finish my chores.
I was done with all the regular orphanage work and it was still 5 am. I kept myself busy to try and avoid past flashbacks.
I opened up my phone to check on the adoption advertisement response, and to my surprise, we had some couples interested in adopting younger children.
I immediately reply to them and ask for their contact information to reach out to them and get started with the background checks and house visits.
Sarah had a rule to always go to check the environment we might send our kids to because we don't want them to end up on the streets again. we always used to do 1 announced visit and 2 unannounced visits and randomly talk to their neighbors to understand the family life our children would get and we have had instances where people were adopting children for welfare checks and then would mistreat the children.
Now that Sarah isn't here I have to be extra careful about these things I can't afford to make any mistakes.
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11: 30 AM
It was time to go my heart was beating fast. I didn't tell anyone anything about last night I don't want them to worry about me. Even though I have very little money left I took a taxi to the address that gave me last night. I didn't want to smell like sweat for a job interview. This is my last chance to make things right for these kids once they are all settled with their families I will be set free.
My life has been full of struggle and miseries, Now just a few more months and then I will finally rest.
I will sleep.
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11:55 AM
I arrived at the address written on the paper, it was a very tall building with armed guards and a metal gate, I walked towards the gate and a guard walked towards me and asked
"Name"
The guy never asked my name nor did I the paper didn't say a name either just an address I hope he doesn't think I am some random person off the street, I don't want trouble certainly.
while these thoughts were running laps in my head he yelled again
"NAME"
A....Aimee.
Suddenly the magnetic gate opens and he gestures for me to go inside.
It was super weird but I just followed the guy inside.
we reached a hotel-like lobby and there was a metal detector like the one I saw in movies, but never in real life. There were guards everywhere, with huge guns, I started to sweat a bit. And I thought I could save myself from embarrassing sweat stains. He made me walk through that and then gave me a full pat down, in front of everyone, it was humiliating.
But I sucked it up for the kids. He brought me to an elevator and scanned his card, the doors opened and he gestured for me to go inside and then he pressed a button and got out. He stood there facing me till the elevator doors closed.
My heart was pounding I was regretting my decision of coming here, but what choice did I have?
The elevator seemed to go up forever and then it came to a stop, I braised myself for what was to come and clenched my fist.
the elevator doors slowly opened to a grand room,
It had white and black checkered flooring with black walls and dark wood furniture.
Everything was very intimidating. There were no windows in this room just pictures of abstract naked women and guns and cars. in the middle of the room was a big dark brown wood desk. It looked like it weighed a million pounds. Behind the desk was a chair with its back facing me, the chair was super tall I couldn't tell if someone was sitting on it or not.
I walked off of the elevator and walked towards the desk, as I was walking towards the desk I noticed 2 doors on the back wall behind the desk one on each corner.
I stopped about 2 meters from the desk and waited.
My mind was yelling so loud I got dizzy for a second and that's when I heard his voice,
"Right on time, I didn't expect you to be on time."
I didn't know how to respond to that I was very busy trying to clear my vision. I stood his waiting for his next move.
Sweat dripped down from the back of my head and down my back, more sweat accumulating in my palms.
He slowly turns his chair around. He is wearing a dark brown 3-piece suit with a black shirt. I took like the fabric is having a hard time taming his muscles within its boundaries.
I stand still with my head down staring at my feet,
"I didn't know I was talking to an inanimate object."
His words cut me, but nothing I haven't heard before, and it's true in a way, I am an object, I am here to serve these kids to the best ability and once the need for me ends, I will end up in the trash. that's my life cycle, it is no different from any other object.
"Sorry Sir, I am here for a job, any job you give me, I will do it, whatever you want, I also want to thank you for saving me yesterday in the bar, I am very thankful and I want to apologize to you for all the inconvenience I have caused as well as all the money that I have caused you. I wish I could I will pay you the money back but all I can do right now is give you my word, once my kids are settled I will pay you back as soon as I can."
I muster up the courage and say all of that in one breath never making eye contact, the embarrassment from the situation eating me from inside out. Begging for a job. Going against everything Sarah taught me.
He smirks and lets out a taunting laugh and then barks
" You think you can pay me back, me! do you even know how much your stunt last night has caused me, and what all will you pay me back for? huh?
Will you pay me the $70k for all the damages to the bar or will you pay me back $500k for the lawsuit for fighting with those guys or will you pay me back $100k for all the medical bills? Or will you pay me back the $300k I paid the owner and the manager of the bar to keep their mouth shut and delete the CCTV footage? That's almost a million dollars, i didn't even count the damage that I sustained on myself."
The impact of his words settles in as tears linger on the brim of my eyes, he gets up from his chair and walks around the table and towers over my small body, and yells,
"You could sell your soul to Satan and still owe me $999,999 you are worth nothing Aimee, nothing and you dare to tell me you will pay me back?"
Tears roll down my eyes, I thought about this conversation going in a million different ways but I never thought that I would owe him a million dollars instead.
I can barely afford to survive with all that I earn, how will I pay back a million dollars? it will take me more than 50 years to give it all back.
"You are nothing but a mouse, running around in the gutters and you are no match to me, but you are right, it's only fair to me that you pay me back for the damages. So let's see what is it that you can offer me?"
His words are so different from the once he spoke last night. He doesn't sound like the same person, I haven't gotten myself to look at him once since I entered the room, but it doesn't matter. I do recognize his voice but he isn't the same guy I met yesterday. I saw empathy in his eyes
as if to tell me he saw me. the real me. the broken me
like he recognize this feeling.
like he was going through it too.
but I was wrong, as usual, I thought I had a chance, to finally be free, but now I know I will never truly be free.
Tears flow, I have nothing to offer, no money, no skills, and I didn't even finish high school.
I stand there frozen with tears hitting the floor, I thought I couldn't be humiliated more than this happened.
"I looked into you, Aimee" "You are an orphan" "You live in a pathetic little orphan home, that was run by another rat like you, what was her name again? Oh...yeah ....Sarah.... lived a pathetic life and died an even more pathetic death.
un tale perdente."
"And you are following her footsteps, rendendoti un perdente più grande di lei, but what can you expect, losers must stick together."
My blood boils I can take anything you throw at me but I won't tolerate disrespect to Sarah,
without thinking twice I pick my head up and gather my voice and with tears still flowing down my face I yell
"Whatever it is that you want or whatever it is that you have against me you keep it between you and me don't you dare bring my family into this. I may be a loser or a pathetic mouse or all the worst things in the world but you keep her out of this, YOU KEEP MY FAMILY OUT OF THIS, LASCI LA MIA FAMIGLIA FUORI DA TUTTO QUESTO, CAPISCI !!!!!"
I stare at him with anger and disgust, I may not have much self-respect left but I sure won't let him disrespect the only person I had by my side all these years. She has done all that she could, I owe her my life and I will till my last breath.
He looks me in the eye, I can see the volcanic anger brewing within them, but I won't back down, I see this monster and I should be scared but for some reason, I feel like I can win the world at this moment, like all my problems and miseries don't matter, all that matters is winning and won't go down without fighting.
"You think yelling at me is going to help your situation little mouse? I am the Lion, the king of the jungle, this king of this world with one snap of my finger I can wipe away your whole existence as well as your so dear famiglia. you are standing on quicksand mouse watch your words or fall to your death."
He grabs my arm roughly and pulls me in towards him and said "This is how you are going to thank me for saving your life?"
His grip gets tighter making it hurt more, I look down at my arm and see blood stains forming and spreading making it bigger. I had already burned myself in the hot shower and scrubbing it made it worse, his hold broke the light layer of skin that was holding my blood. he follows my gaze and I see him surprised for a second but he quickly hides it, he tightens his grip even more making me whimper.
"You were so desperate for a job, but don't think you need it anymore, well then you are free to go back to your s**t hole"
He leaves my arm and turns around, to his desk he picks up the pack of cigarettes that was sitting there and pops one in his mouth. he pulls out a lighter from his pants pocket and lights it up.
I see my only chance fading away and I quickly beg, "I am sorry please, please don't do this, I will do anything, please, I don't want anything for me, I want it for my kids, just for a few months till they get adopted then I will never show you my face ever again. "
he goes behind his desk and sits down on his chair as he lets out smoke from between his lips. he smirks at me and then the words that come out of his mouth break me, into infinite pieces.
"then beg for it. make me believe that you truly deserve this job, show me how desperately you want this job mouse"
i walked around to the table and stood on his side, he turned his chair and faced me, I dropped down to my knees right next to his feet, lowered my gaze to his feet and joined my hands and said "please...iii..beg you sir, please give me this job."
I thought this job will set me free but this job will drag me down to the depths of hell.
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un tale perdente. :- Such a loser
rendendoti un perdente più grande :- making you a bigger losser.
LASCI LA MIA FAMIGLIA FUORI DA TUTTO QUESTO, CAPISCI :- Leave my family out of this, YOU understand