Mafia's Deadly Love

Happy Birthday To Me.

Aimee's POV

My head was still spinning as I tried to open my eyes. The bright white light blinding me making my head throb even more. As things start to come in focus, I hear beeping sounds. It was painful trying to make sense of where I was and what was going on. I propped myself self up, my elbows holding my weight. I found myself staring at the heart rate monitor and another fancy machines. I figure out that I was in a hospital room but why?

Then all of it comes back to me. Sara not breathing and turning blue, Dr. Singh telling us it was bad news.

I panicked.

How long was I out for?

Where is Sarah? Is she okay? What was the bad news?

I was about to get off the bed when suddenly Mr. Williams came in. As soon as he did I bombarded him with questions, Trying to blink back the tears forming in my eyes.

"Mr. Williams, Where is Sarah, Is she okay? Can I see her? Please tell me everything is okay?"

Mr. Williams lowered his head and didn't say a word. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath as if contemplating telling me the information he has been keeping.

"Why aren't you saying anything? please don't scare me, please tell me whatever it is, I promise I can take it. But I need to know. " I said trying to hide the emotions in my voice.

"Aimee, listen to me very carefully, alright. I know you love Sarah very much, but you need to be strong for the kids, I know this is going to be hard and I will do as much as I can to help you, but the road ahead of you is extremely difficult and you will have to manage things all by yourself."

He said with sadness in his eyes.

I anticipated what was coming my way and my body went numb. I felt nothing. I felt like my organs were gutted out of my body leaving nothing but a hollow statue of myself.

"Just tell me what is it?"

"Aimee, Dear, You fainted two days ago, in these two days, the doctors has to perform an emergency surgery for Sarah. Sarah had no one other than you on the emergency list, and you were unconscious, So the doctors decided on going through with the surgery. They tired everything they could but, before they could revive her it was already too late. They did manage to get her heart back but she is brain dead. The doctors have not taken her off of her life support because they thought you and the kids might want to say your final goodbyes to her. Anna (Mrs. Williams) has already broken this news to the kids. They have made some cards and stuff for her." He didn't look me in the eyes while continued to give me information about Luke and Beatrice coming to visit us. Mr. Williams kept talking about some guys wanting to meet me but that was the least of my concerns right now. I was bashing myself for fainting. I was blaming myself for not being there for my only family. I have lost everything. Anybody I go close to goes really really far away from me. First my parents, then my friends at the orphanage who got adopted and now Sarah.

How will I live now and for what will I live?

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I was sitting next to Sarah holding her hand. Machines beeping by her side. She looks so calm and relaxed. I can't believe she is not here anymore. It looks like she would get up any second and scold me for not going to work. I chuckled and little remembering what she would say,

"How many times have I told you not to skip work for me. You need to be independent Aim, you can't live your life like this. Also I am not taking your money for my treatment I still have plenty saved for that. So drop this melodrama and go to work or what's better is you need to take rest. That's it. I have heard enough, if you don't want to go to work that's fine, but are not going to worry about this old fag anymore. Here, take my blanket and go to sleep, I don't want to hear another peep out of you."

A single stray tear fall from my cheek on Sara's hand, " You are my everything Sarah, How dare you leave me here all alone? What am I gonna tell the kids? Who is gonna read them bedtime stories? Last time when you were in the hospital the kids screamed and yelled because they had to hear my annoying voice during bedtime. How will I manage the orphanage on my own? You promised me that you will take care of me till I am all big and strong, but you left even before I could have my first drink..." Tears streaming down my eyes, I felt helpless, my mentor was gone.

"Come on get up, tell me in your oh so threatening voice, Aimee You don't need anybody but yourself, no one needs somebody else to love them when they can love themselves......Come on tell me, stop acting now, I know you can hear me please please please wake up, I can't do this without you...." I was about to lose control over my emotions when I heard footsteps coming our way. I quickly wiped my tears and drank water out of the glass that was kept by my side. I kiss Sarah's hand before setting it down and prepare myself to face the kids.

One after another all the kids adjusted themselves around the table with Olivia by my side hugging me, her face red from crying, I squeeze her a little to show comfort.

Were all standing in silence when a five year old boy said, "Aims Why is Mom still sleeping? Aunt Anna said she will never sleep like this forever." Tears filling his eyes.

"No Gus she will wake up, She is going to meet god. When you get old enough, God calls you to come meet him at his home and he likes Sarah very much so she will stay there till you become a very big and strong man. Until then she will become a star and every night you can see her in the sky and talk to her. And because she will be up in the sky, with God she will be able to see everyone, even when you are stealing cookies from the kitchen, so don't worry okay, She is going to a very beautiful place. Alright all of us are going to say goodbye to her and promise her to be very good till she comes back also give her your cards, she will want to take it with her to show God, She will tell him how good all her kids are okay."

I give him a big hug, it was almost impossible for me to keep my emotions hidden. I felt very guilty for lying to them but I had no other choice. Suddenly all the kids join us and we stay there for a bit.

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We held the funeral after two hours of pulling the plug on Sarah. I was completely devastated. We knew nobody else so it was just The kids, Mr. and Mrs. Williams, Luke, Beatrice and I. It was very emotional. We held the ceremony quick because, Mr. Williams has made all the arrangements in the two days I was out, which I am very grateful for. Moreover I had to take over a lot of responsibilities and I couldn't have done it if the funeral was still pending. We were leaving the graveyard, when all of a sudden, Olivia comes from the back and hugs me, she gestures me to come at her level so she can whisper something in my ear.

I do kneel down and extend my ear. She slowly says, " I know this is not the right time to say this but...."

" It's alright Olivia, you can tell me anything you want kid." I patiently wait for her answer.

"Happy Birthday Aimee, Sorry" She ran away quickly. I had completely forgotten that it was my birthday. I lost my everything once again on my birthday. I became numb again.

I couldn't move..

Luke came towards me and shook me "Let's go Aimee, Why are you kneeling? Are you feeling ok? "

I managed to get up "Guys you go ahead, I want to stay here for a bit, I will be back before supper. Beatrice can you please look after the kids till then?

" Yeah Sure Aims, but are you sure you want to be alone, Luke can stay with you... Right Luke?" She elbowed him in the stomach

He winced a little and said, "Of Course, I will wait."

" You guys have done a lot for us thank you all for that but I really need to be alone right now please."

"Alright Aims whatever you want, but keep your cell on and call us if you need anything at all okay, Love you, Take care."

They all leave me alone and I make my way to the back to Sarah's grave and sat down, trying to make sense of the past six hours of my life. Everything was so f*****g bizarre, and awfully quick.

My mind couldn't accept all the information. I was sitting at her grave for hours I phone kept buzzing and I ignored it. I had made up my mind. I couldn't go back, I couldn't live. I had nothing to look forward to. I have lost everything. I was making up my mind to leave this world. I switched off my phone and was about to leave and go to that one place that would free me from my pain, suffering, trauma, failure and everything else.

I turned around to discover a man standing infront of me in a black suit.He must me about six feet tall towering over me. I am about five and a half feet tall. He looked straight at me and before I could open my mouth I saw two more men dress exactly like him stand behind him they were both holding guns. I instantly knew they must be the men Mr. Williams was warning me about. I should have paid attention to what he was saying. I quickly brought my attention back to the men in front of me. They were surely following me. They wanted something from me, but what? I have nothing of my own to give to them. They looked like they were a part of some gang but I didn't care. I wasn't scared. Infact they would be doing me a favor if they killed me.

But in this very moment I realized that the kids at the orphanage need me. If these people are following me to then they might know about the kids. They might try to go after them and I couldn't let that happen. I promised Sarah that I will look after the kids. I have to keep that promise. I have to live for them.

"You need to come with us Aimee." The guy standing in front of me said

"No, I don't think I need to." I knew he was Italian because of his accent and they were standing on the opposite side of the exist which made me believe that they were new around here. But they could have some men stationed outside the gate , I wasn't going to make the mistake of underestimating my enemy.

"Well if you don't co-operate with us, we have other ways. Just so you know our boss will be much happy to see you co-operate with us, he might be a little more generous if you did"

"Oh is that so? Well if your boss so desperately wants my co-operation he should have come here to talk to me. But he isn't here. So what makes you think that I would listen to anything you say. I don't know what this is in regards to. All i know is you have been to the hospital a few times in the last few days."

"Aimee I don't have time to f*****g sit here and chit-chat with you, I will have to force you to ....." before he could compare his sentence I said

"I don't have time for you either. My kids are waiting for me. And I dare you to try and force me to go with you. That will surely demonstrate your manliness. Whatever it is that you want from me I will consider giving even listening to it tomorrow. I have to go back and take care of my kids."

"Tomorrow at 10am sharp be ready." He said, I could tell he had a smirk on his face.

I turned around and started to walk towards the exist and they don't stop me, which was extremely weird. I kept walking without turning around. Once I reached the gates I saw Luke pull up in his Forest green truck.

I went and sat inside the truck without a word. Luke didn't say anything either. My mind replayed the events of today in my head and I thought to myself.....

Well I guess Happy Birthday to Me.