27 Emma Three weeks, right up until the day before Christmas eve, Judge and I fall in love all over again—if we ever fell out of love at all. We drive out to the amusement park three times during this visit, but we avoid the ferris wheel and the ghost train—Judge told me about Lindsey’s creepy horror show in the tunnels. Instead, we wrap up warm in a quiet, unremarkable nook in the corner of the amusement park. Judge moves his hands up, up my legs. I didn’t realize how badly I wanted his touch until he touched me again. It sparks electricity in me, all over me. I long for it whenever I’m not with him. And, finally, we use the L word. I’m bent over with my head against bed, Judge drilling me from behind, and I’m begging, begging, screaming out in pure pleasure. I know Dawn can probably

