The Girl I Cheated On

Chapter 20 I have Plans

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Riya's P. O. V

"This is too much.. I really don't want him here. This was supposed to be our time. He can't be ruining it."

"I am so sorry Riya. Varun doesn't know about the situation. He thought you would be happy. And why aren't you? Isn't he your boyfriend?"

Oh god where am I! It wasn't supposed to be like this. We were supposed to be friends. I don't know how we ended up together. He was always around me when Arjun left. Everyone assumed we were in relationship. I wanted to clarify but Abhish asked me to give him a chance. And here I am. Giving him a chance to make me fall for him. Two years and I feel nothing.

"I don't know yaar. I don't really know what to do. This is difficult."

"You are right. I can understand your situation. This is really difficult."

"Whats difficult?" Varun popped his head inside the room.

"Hy sorry if I interrupt anything the door was open."

"No its fine. I will give you guys a moment." I tried to excuse myself before Varun interrupted me again.

"No no its okay. Its fine. You can stay with us. I was just here to say hi." He gave Natasha a quick kiss and a hug.

"So how are you?" I asked.

"Good. Just eagerly waiting to get married to my beautiful fiance." He said looking into her eyes.

"And I hope you are not trying to convince her other wise. "

"What? What are you talking about?"

"Look, Riya... I know you are not really interested or you don't really sort of believe in marriages. But I would appreciate you dont become a hurdle here."

Ouch. I felt insulted. I am not and I would never try to convince her not to marry. What makes him think that?

"Varun..." Natasha butted in eyeing him.

"What?" He asked as if he didn't just insult me by assuming things.

"Wait. First of all I am not against marriage I do believe in it. Second, I would never try to make her not to marry you. I love her and I would want nothing else than to see her happy with you. Forever. If you got any such impression than I am sorry."

"No Riya, you dont have to apologise. Varun, where is this coming from?"

"Oh..see" she continued. "When I said this is difficult we were talking about something else."

"Oh ..I am sorry" he waved both of his hand. "I must have misinterpret things."

Yeah. This explains why we don't talk much. He is a very good guy for Natasha but he tend to have a temper when someone gives there opinion about their relationship. Good thing only Natasha can handle his temper perfectly. I wouldn't have forgiven him this easily but this is for you Nats.

"Its fine but what makes you think that I dont believe in marriages." I asked obviously confused by his behaviour.

"Abhish told me. He said you don't want to marry. Like ever."

"I can't believe he is discussing all this with everyone."

"Look, I know you think I shouldn't have invited him but I am just trying to do what you would have done for Natasha. He really does want to marry you. I am not forcing. Just give this a thought. Abhish is the guy. You will be married happily ever after. Trust me."

"Its not like I dont want to get married to him ever. But I dont know if this is the time or if we are the one for each other."

"Spend some time with him. Think about it.Thats why he is here. You don't have to say yes right away take your time. And if you do, do it soon. Am not telling you to marry him right now but least you can do is commit. I am sure he will be more than happ just with that."

"Since when did you become his lawyer baby." Natasha pulled his cheek. I know she is not happy about him taking his side.

"Not a lawyer. Just trying to help. No pressure."

"Bye hunny.." Natasha pushed him out of the room locking it.

"I DID NOT ASK HIM TO DO THIS. I SWEAR." She pinched her neck.

"Its okay I trust you. This is coming from someone else."

"OBVIOUSLY!" She popped a strawberry in her mouth.

"I should talk to him."

"but what are you gonna say?"

Arjun's P.O.V

"Dad all these people has been hired for major works. We just need your approval and your signatures." Handing him a few files I gave him his signature pen. His favourite.

"Good. These are some good people to work with. ..so when are you going to bring the blue prints I thought the work has been started."

"I was busy in a few meetings. I shall go tomorrow evening."

"When are you coming back?"

"The next day."

"Why? Stay there for a few days meet some friends. You have old friends there right? Just handover the blue prints to Arun. He is our trusted employee, he will bring it back."

"No its fine. I am good."

He sighed before putting down the pen and looked at me.

"I know why are you avoiding that place bete. But you cant let things affect you this way. Its not good for you." He slowed down at the end.

"I am not avoiding anything. Its just that I have no reason to stay. Besides Arun is taking a leave."

"Really? Why? " He picked his pen signing every page at the same time.

"Apparently his twin brother is getting married."

"Yeah yeah. He did mention something to me about that. Isn't the wedding in our hotel."

"Yup."

" So why don't you stay there for a few days and make sure all the arrangements are done nicely."

"What am I? Aren't there workers for that? And aren't you forgetting the documents? "

"Look he is our very close employee we must treat him like a family. He wanted me to attend the wedding but you know I am busy. You should go there on my behalf and make sure you have fun. You have been working so much lately. You do deserve a break you know. And take Ms Rahila with you. She will bring it back. She too is equally trusted."

"I am getting a feeling that you don't trust me with your blueprints. Thats why you don't want me to bring it back to you."

"Stop complaining and get back to your work son. Thank you. Leave."

He doesnt waste a minute more with me. What a man. Just when I was about to exit he called me back.

"Arjun?"

"yeah?"

" Lets have dinner together."

" Um I..am busy."

"Where?" He eyed me suspeciously.

" I have plans." saying this I left as soon as possible to avoid any questions.

Actually I had the same plans I have had for two years.

I stopped at this bar I go regularly. I ordered by usual scotch .

Leaving my college was hard. It took away my self confidence. I felt low most of the time. Mostly when I was not working. That is the reason I am always working. I need to forget how weak I felt that even after everything I have how insecure I truely am. I feel lonely, I feel untrustworthy, I feel useless. I feel like I am the worst thing that can happen to this world. Dont mistake me, this is not how I feel all the time. But it certainly is a phase I quite frequently face. This is how it feels like when you are low. Normally, I would take my pills but not right now. Today I want myself to suffer. To dwell into pain and feel everything. Today I will drown myself in alcohol and feel everything. I might be able to lessen my regrets that my poor choices in life has brought me. I might be able to deal with things better tomorrow and when I go there I might actually feel nothing.

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I felt something very very heavy put on my head when I wokeup this morning. I felt nauseous and ran straight to my bathroom only to throwup a bucket load on the pot. Not a good start to the day. Ahh my head hurts. I dragged my self out of the bathroom to my kitchen to fetch some water for myself. I took an aspirin and gulped it with some water. This might ease my headache. I dont remember most of the things from last night but do remember I had too much of vodka and other drinks too. I cannot function today. My head hurts so much it feels like its about to explode.

I was slouching on my sofa when my door bell rang. It intensified my headache to a level I didnt knew existed. Groaning I picked myself up and dragged my self to the door. Not in a mood to chit chat I decided I wont answer the door if its Arun. Peeping out of the hole I saw it was Rahila. Opening I withdrew my self to the sofa again.

"What?Who opened the door?" she looked surprised finding me resting on the sofa with a cushion on my head.

"I did." I replied through the cushion.

"Are you okay sir?" she asked concerned.

"Hangover"

"okay. Have you had your breakfast?"

"No."

"Should I cook something for you?"

"No."

"Where are other staff?"

"On leave. Why are you here?"

"Our big boss said we need to fly to your hometown to bring the blue prints. You, Arun sir and I. "

"So?"

"So, I brought flight tickets and I am here with your today's schedule. Unless... you don't wanna work today. Taken pills? "

I nodded through the pillow. I dont think I would want to work today.

But we will see. If the headache lights down, I might.

"Scrambled eggs?"

I withdrew the pillow to look at her, who was now making her way to my open kitchen. I contemplated If I want to eat or not. I can actually say no but she decided to make it anyway. I can also shout at her for not following my orders or even not caring enough to listen to it but I decided not to for two reasons. First, eating something might decrease my headache since I have not eaten a single thing after yesterday's lunch. Second, She makes pretty good scrambled eggs. And there might be a third reason because I also dont want to disturb my own head by meaningless shouting.

She started making delicious eggs on my stove in my kitchen and in my house. I felt spoilt. My PA is making breakfast for me while I am having my hangover. What have I done with my life. I cant even cook for myself. Looking at her I couldnt stop but imagine to myself. What if she was Riya. It would have been such beautiful sight to see her in my house to cook for me like that to care for me. It melted my heart. But she wasn't her.

Rahila shifted when she noticed me looking at her.

Awkward.

Clearing my throat I said, "Would you care to add some coffee too?"

"Sure." she said avoiding eye contact.

Oh boy.

I crashed on the sofa with a cushion on my head again.

Having breakfast did clear my head a little. I was also feeling a bit better from the inside too.

Whistling I picked some cloths to wear after I had finished my shower. I dressed well for a short day at office before I started packing my suitcase. Arranging everything I needed I set the suitcase aside thinking of what to get Madhav for our reunion.

Rahila was in the office she wanted to complete her today's shift. She booked three tickets for this evening which I am looking forward to.

I dont know why but I have a very mixed emotion about this trip. I am kind of excited may be because I will get to meet my friends again and also sort of nervous to face some people I might face.

Two years, a very long time to forget someone you want to forget but its seems like yesterday to some who wants to cling to every memory possible. I know that I belong to the later one in this case but I cant tell about her. Most probably she belongs to the former. She must have been over me by now. Two years must have been a long time for her. She must have moved on. Or maybe she is married. Who knows! I cut all contacts with her the moment I left and never tried to reach her may be to try and forget her but her thought never left me. No matter how much I deny it but the truth is the thought of her haunted me. It was always at the back of my head whenever I worked, ate, travelled, talked, walked almost everytime. These thoughts mostly consisted of things I have done when I was with her. All the wrong things I did and all the right things I did not do. How I messed my relationship and how I missed my last chance. It was mostly regrets. It made me want to be a better man. Make better decisions. Value people and not take them for granted.

I might see her. I wish I do. May be it is one wrong decision. I might loose my sanity but seeing her happy and moving on without me might make me loose my last hidden hopes and help me move on knowing that no matter what happens with my life she is happy somewhere creating memories of her own with right people. Happy memories.

I put my luggage in my car and drove towards my office. Reaching there I completed some paper work. Delegated few of my works to my subordinates for next two weeks. I did actually thought of spending some time with Madhav and other friends throught out the trip and may be I will attend a function at Arun's brother's wedding. But I am not looking forward to that I dont like attending weddings or any social outings for that matter.

"Sir?, We should leave in an hour."

Said Rahila after knocking twice.

"Sure. Hy what about Rashid? Where is he going to be? Are you taking him with us? You can I mean you should."

She looked at me for a second then showed me her toothy grin and said,"No actually my mother is going to take care of him. He really enjoys her company and she is very caring woman so he will be fine I am sure."

"oh.."

"You seem disappointed. You really like him do you?"

"He is adorable."

"I am sorry."

"hmm?..why?" I asked confused.

"I know you have been through some similar stuff as a child. Losing a parent..its tough and that made you develop a soft corner in your heart for Rashid."

"Maybe..but he has you. You are a strong woman and am sure a wonderful mother too. I am sure you will take good care of him and not let him spoil like me."

"Common, you are not spoiled. You are quite responsible."

"Oh if only you met me in college. Your opinion would differ."

"Yeah? I have heard. Well,everybody is like that in college and its college what else would you expect youngsters to do? People make mistakes at that age. All you can do is learn and move on. See, learn from me I fell for the wrong guy and thought we were madly in love with each other. Turned out it was just me. He was not ready for such commitments. He changed, his love changed but I was still there waiting for him. He wasn't the best choice. But if he hadn't come in my life I wouldn't have had Rashid in my life. He is my baby. I wouldn't change anything in my past."

Rahila was a wise woman. She knew exactly how to tackle with problems both in professional and her personal life. She has this knowledge that mistakes are inevitable. Bad choices are bound to be made by you in some point of your life. And its normal because you are only human. Knowing this makes doesn't make her life any easy but it surely helps her deal with problems more wisely.

She was right marring her ex husband was a bad choice it resulted into current situation she is in. Her husband wasn't ready for serious commitment. He wasn't ready for a family life. He did decide to commit to her anyway because he thought he was madly in love with her. What I think is he was immature enough to not know what he wants. His bad choice changed Rahila's life. She deserved the family she was promised. But here she is fighting the battle of life herself with a two year old son. It isn't bad enough now because she capable of leading her own life. Sometimes I wonder if Riya and I would have ended together and such was the result. Though I dont doubt my love for her but if something went wrong I dont trust myself enough. Maybe she is batter off without me. Maybe I did the right thing to give up on her.

"He is lucky. He has you."

"I am lucky I have him."

To be continued...