Luna Lucy

chap 1

Lucy

It has been three years since I came back to the pack as a doctor. Three years since I accepted my mate bond and became Luna. Three years since I dropped my dream of becoming the pack doctor because the work of a Luna is more important.Three years since I practically became a housewife.Six months since that dreadful incident that led to the death of my little angel.

I never stopped blaming myself for her death, all it took was five minutes of not paying attention to my child. I was her mother so I owed her that much, especially at such young age. My mate has not been the same since that day, he keeps telling me that I am not at fault but I see it in the way he looks at me sometimes that he also thinks that I am at fault too and I don't blame him. The death of our daughter changed something in our relationship that may not ever get fully solved but we are still trying to mend it.

Eric has pivoted his whole attention to the pack, I guess that is his own coping mechanism but I wish he would realize that I need him too. I am a mess and I just need him to hold me and be there with me, I need him to tell me that everything will be okay, that we will be okay. But you don't tell people how to cope with death so I think I will let grieve his own way even if it means allowing him to marry his job for now, but I know he will come to me when he is ready to talk and I hope he does that soon because I really miss him.

When we got married, we decided to have our own house instead of staying in the pack house. I remember him building these white fence round our new house and even leaving space for my garden. He even made a playground for our Madie when we found out that I am expecting, it was the happiest day of our life. She gave me a new purpose in life, motherhood. I definitely remember her playing around in her playground but what I don't remember is leaving our gate open leading to her running outside to get her ball which led to her getting knocked down by a car. Now her playground has turned to her burial ground and I am left with nothing but a grieving mate and a big house. I have not shifted since I lost her, my wolf has been so depressed that I have not even heard her since that day. I keep trying to connect with her but she keeps blocking me, so I have decided to let her grieve at her own pace.

Everyone says that it gets better with time but I don't see it getting better anytime soon. My friends has been trying to get me outside so I can at least socialize with my pack but I am so scared of seeing their judgement or worse their pity face. But I know I have a duty as their Luna so I will have to get over my discomfort and get back to my duties. The annual mate festival is around the corner and there is so much to do since we will be hosting it this year.

The annual mate festival is a sort of get together where all the mateless members in the packs in our region(south region ) comes together to meet with each other hoping to find their soulmate. It is rotational and this time around, my pack is hosting. And I have a lot to do with little time, at least it will get my mind off my pain for a while.