Last Chance At Redemption

Puppy Love

Liam

Its 5 am and I can’t get any sleep thinking about her. Raven has been flooding my mind relentlessly for years and it seems to be getting worse by the day. Ever since I turned 18, my wolf (Ryder) recognizes her as a possible mate but says that he isn’t 100 percent sure because there is something off about her and her wolf. He can sense that she is different, but he doesn’t know if it is a good thing or a bad thing.

It’s extremely frustrating for me as I don’t know what to do about it. I am soon to become alpha of this pack and I must have a luna by my side that is respected by other pack members and pack alphas as well. Raven is just an orphan rogue and has been basically a slave to the pack her entire life. How would they respect her? What would the other alphas think about one mated to a slave rogue?

I must admit that she is extremely beautiful and only a blind man would be able to deny that. She is also kind and compassionate. I have seen her help the old lady, Ms. Louis on a couple of occasions after her chores are done. I have always felt an attraction towards Raven but have stayed away from her for her own sake.

I will never forget the day that she was punished because of me. I was about 10 years old, so she must have been around 9. One of my many nannies would take me to the pack’s playground daily and sometimes, Raven would also be there. Ms. Louis would take raven from time to time whenever she wasn’t too tired from work.

Raven and I had become friends and I loved playing with her. I would always be disappointed when she didn’t go, and I would ask to go back home. We would build sandcastles together, take turns pushing each other on the swings, and play hide and go seek. On the day of the incident, my mother had insisted that I take my sister with me as well, claiming that she also wanted to go, but she only said it so we would both be out of her hair. Tina hated going to the park and getting dirty.

I had been playing with Raven in the sandbox making shapes without noticing that Tina had been eyeing us the whole time. The wind blew as we were playing, and Ravens hair had gotten in her face. I reached forward and tucked her hair behind her ear without a moment's thought. She looked at me surprised by my action and as I looked at her bright green eyes, I knew I didn’t want to play with anyone else ever again.

“Raven, will you be my girlfriend?” I asked her nervously, afraid she would say no.

“Me?’’ She questioned as a deep blush set into her cheeks.

‘’Yes you, I want you to be my girlfriend and when I’m big, you’ll be my luna” I stated proudly, while holding her hand in mine.

She stood silent while she pondered what I was saying and asking of her.

“Yes, I’ll be your- OUCH!” Raven never got a chance to finish the sentence. Tina had seen the exchange and had pulled Raven away from me by her hair. I attacked Tina and started screaming while I hit her for hurting raven until the nannies pulled us apart. Raven was ushered away by Ms. Louis while Tina and I were brought in front of our parents.

Tina told them everything she had seen while adding extra venomous details to the story. She told my parents that Raven had declared to everyone in the playground that she would be the future luna of the pack. I had tried to defend Raven and told my dad that I had been the one to ask her to be my girlfriend, but that only made things worse. My father slapped me for the first time that day and slapped my mother in front of us as well when she tried to come to my defense. I had never seen him hit her before but I could tell from her reaction that she was accustomed to it.

He prohibited me from ever going to the park again or talk to Raven and warned that she would be receiving punishment for her ambition. The next day, I was crushed. My father had stayed true to his warning and had Raven punished to show me how serious he was. He had sent one of his warriors to beat Raven, remove her from Ms. Louis room and have her tossed into the basement where she would be sleeping from that point forward after finishing the new chores and duties that were given to her.

Raven had tried talking to me when we would bump into each other for the first few weeks, but stopped after a while when she realized I was ignoring her on purpose. I would even tease her along with the other kids whenever Tina was around, as I knew my father would be asking her about my reactions and I didn’t want them to punish her further.

After a few months, I could no longer tolerate seeing her like a servant and started to spend all my time in the library, reading and focusing on my studies. On my twelfth birthday, I asked my mother to allow me to study abroad in the kingdom with the Elders until I came of age. I told her my plan was to become an elder after I passed the alpha title to my own heir. Her and my father were thrilled with the idea as it would bring great honor to their names and happily agreed to let me leave.

I returned a few months before turning 18 and continued to stay away from Raven just as I had done before. I knew it would be difficult for me to see her again, but luckily, I've been able to keep myself more composed than I thought I would. I guess maybe the distance helped a bit. In the years that I was away from her, I was studying and enjoying being a man wh**e. I had enjoyed having s*x with countless women, but hated the fact that I would always think of Raven while I was having s*x with them.

I wonder if she feels the same way? She must feel something?

I look out of my bedroom window and admire the snow that is beginning to fall on the ground, marking the beginning of winter. I've always liked the snow and the calmness i feel surrounded by it. As I stand there, I realize the basement must be cold and begin to wonder if Raven has a blanket down there at all. I decide I'm quickly going to head down and find out. If she doesn't, then I'll speak directly to Ms. Louis and have her take her one so no one finds out it is from me.