Last Chance At Redemption

Raven

After finishing my chores, sure enough, Ms. Louis sneaked me half a piece of bread that had been left over from the lunch service and quickly walked away. I was extremely appreciative and ate it as soon as it landed in my hand to ensure that no one would find out.

2 years ago, Ms. Louis was beaten after being accused of stealing because she gave me a piece of birthday cake from Tina's 16th birthday party. Every year, we pretended that it was my birthday as well, since it was the day before I had been found. I think the only reason the alpha and Luna allowed me to live was because there were so many visitors for the party and they wanted to show themselves as being kindhearted and just in front of the other Alphas in order to make more alliances.

I felt bad for her that day and have made sure to never purposely ask her for food as I don’t want to see her get hurt again because of me. I do love the old lady and sometimes pretend I’m bored so I can help her finish some of her tasks as well. I know she can see right through me, but she doesn’t make a fuss and accepts my help.

I begin to walk back to the basement as my day reaches its end, when I bump into someone. They were carrying a plate of food and the contents fell on the floor.

“I’m so sorry, I’ll pick this up right away” I say as I bend down to pick up the mess I have made. I look up to see Liam with an unreadable expression and I am afraid he’s going to kick me again.

“Dammit Raven, can you at least watch where you’re going’’ he huffs as he starts to dust crumbs off his shirt clearly annoyed.

For whatever strange reason, I realize that he looks different today. He's always been handsome, but today he seems even more easy on the eyes than usual. As I stare at the new stains on his shirt, I can’t help but admire how well it fits his fit frame. He is 6’3, muscular, and has baby blue eyes that seem to pierce straight through you and read your thoughts. His dark brown hair is always styled back away from his face, allowing his features to shine. I also realize that he smells really good today. He must have bought a new cologne. Usually, all I smell on him is either alcohol or the stench of another she wolf, since he's the pack's biggest man wh*re.

"Raven'' He says, snapping me out of my thoughts. I look up to see his annoyed expression has been replaced with a smile as if he were amused and could tell that I was ogling him.

“I wanted to apologize for kicking you this morning and was bringing you this food since you've been punished again"

He says, seeming like he is uncomfortable and not sure of what else to say. I just stand there repeating his words in my head as I cannot believe what I am hearing. This is the first time that he has ever shown any type of kindness towards me. I begin to wonder what it means and if it could be related to my sudden attraction towards him. Can he feel it also? What if he doesn't and this is just a prank? what if the food is poisoned?

I look at his face again and can somehow tell in his smile that he is being sincere. After a few seconds, I finally get my thoughts together and as i am about to respond to him, the look on his face quickly changes back to his normal annoyed expression obviously caused by my lack of response.

"Unfortunately" he says, then pauses."You knocked it onto the floor, so my kind act towards you was just as useless as you are. By now,one would think that you would have learned to be more careful.”

He walks away and I'm left with my jaw wide open and more confused than ever by him. "Maybe he's just bipolar", I think to myself and decide to shrug it off. This was the first time he had ever been kind enough to bring me a plate of food, let alone actually apologize to me, even if he did insult me right after.

I headed to the kitchen and heard my stomach growl. The smell of the food makes it almost impossible to throw it away. I did just clean the hallway so it couldn't have gotten too dirty now that I think about it. I decided to swallow my pride. I turn myself around and continue on my way down to the basement with food in hand, rushing a bit before anyone sees me and decides to humiliate me any further for eating trash. Even worse, they could accuse me of stealing it. I know Ethan would never come to my defense and admit that he had given the food to me.

When i get downstairs, I sit on my mattress with my plate and Brownie starts to rub all over me, wanting in on the action. I'm not sure if it was hunger speaking or not, but this was one of the best meals I have ever had. It was also the biggest meal I had eaten in a while. It took us just a few minutes to eat everything before I finally got up full and content to get ready for bed.

I shower using a small bucket, soap provided by Ms. Louis, and a sink that I have in my small half bathroom that was built in the basement closet. I'm not allowed to use any of the bathrooms upstairs, but I don't mind as I prefer not risking the possibility of running into any as***les.

As i finally lay down , I couldn’t stop thinking about Liam and started to wonder if maybe he could be my mate. However, I doubt the goddess would make such a mistake. He surely would reject me on the spot and I don’t think that is something that I could withstand. I have heard that some shewolves can die after a rejection. After years of being malnourished and over worked, I’m positive I would be one more added to the list. After deciding to stop allowing my thoughts to get the best of me, I cuddle up with Brownie and drift into the best sleep I’ve had in years.