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They both got to talk for some time as I watched Lily play around.
It felt nice to be with her yet I was feeling uneasy. I knew they had to move or I go away again.
That night I talked with Miss Hong-yi.
"I appologize again. I shouldn't have went there to your place."
"There's nothing we can do. And I believe everything has a purpose. So it's fine. I feel like I was being watched anyway."
"By those people?"
"Yeah. I've been watching my surroundings. I feel like you saved me."
"And ruined your appartment."
"Hey at least I'm alive."
She chuckles.
"So what happened to the video?"
"Oh, it got uploaded."
She runs to get her laptop. She opens up the website and we watch the video.
The video was raw, and it was purely unedited. How I wish interviews and reports were like this.
It gained a lot of attention from the people online. Most people did not like it and were bashing me and Hong-yi.
"They don't believe."
I sigh and bow my head.
"After all this trouble we went through."
I added.
She also looks sorry.
"Some people still believe you. Think of them. We still believe in you."
"Yeah. As long as it still hasn't been taken down, it's fine."
We went on with talking.
"How can I help with getting you into safety?"
"This farm is pretty nice. I've been planning vacations too so just my luck."
She smiles.
"I'll make sure you are safe here. I'll need to leave again soon. I have to face the mess I made."
"Yeah, take care okay? You still have to go back to Lily."
"Sure."
I laugh.
I made her gadgets untrackable so that it was more safe.
For the time being I'll stay in this farm just in case they decide to go here and try to capture me.
A week passed. No one showed up. I'm wondering how but at least it's safe right?
Is this area just too remote?
I decided to go back to the city. I felt a bit more motivated to kick some a*s again.
Hong-yi lent me her car. I told her that it might not return to her. She just said it's fine.
"I really don't know how to repay you."
"You don't need to."
I bid her goodbye.
I was a few kilometers away already when I realized I left something. I also felt my gut nagging at me to go back.
So I did. I didn't want to because it would compromise my time, but I just felt like I needed to.
As I drew nearer to the farm, I noticed that cars were parked there. I had a really bad gut feel about them.
I got out of the car with my g*n pointed at them.
As I rushed inside, I saw countless guards taking away Lily and Hong-yi.
I started to shoot and break some of their necks. They were so many.
I had to hurry. They were taking Hong yi and Lily away already.
I Screamed and pushed my way through.
I felt weary alreadt but I had to keep going. There were just so many of them. I can feel my strength fading. But I have to keep pushing.
"Lily!"
I scream as they got hold of me.
I saw Hong-yi resist leading to her death. I saw her get shot in front of me. I panicked thinking Lily would get killed too.
The thing I feared the most was come to manifestation. I was nervous, mad and I just did not know what to do.
I resisted more and beat more guards up. Taeyong was no where to be found. Was he dead? I hope he was still in the station.
I got out of their grip and started to fight back again. I was fueled by rage and fear.
I was killing people without me knowing it. They shot me but I didn't bother. It felt like nothing.
I managed to clear them out but Lily was already in the car with them.
I ran and ran but I was too late. I was too late.
My efforts weren't enough. I was not enough. More. I need more.
I drop to the ground after chasing them they sped away too fast.
I dropped to the ground. Blood was all over me. I had no idea I was bleeding.
I was sobbing. No I wept so hard. I did not cry because I was in physical pain. I cried because I felt pain emotionally.
I felt so depressed in that moment. I was distraught.
I did not know what to do. I stood up and limped to the farm.
I saw Hong-yi's body laying on the floor. I just felt so powerless.
Soon Taeyong came, but I was not there anymore. He saw the devastating scene. He called. I didn't want to pick up.
I felt so ashamed. I knew he was mad at me. At why I could not protect them.
"Hello?"
My voice was trembling.
"Are you okay?"
"No."
He hugged me. He didn't mind if I was covered in blood.
I had a bullet on my arm, he carefully got it out. while I was just silent. I had no expression. I had no life.
"I should just die."
I muttered below my breath.
"Liua. you only get defeated if you give up."
"Why. Is there another way? I just want to die."
I was angry at him. No I was angry at myself. Angry that I just couldn't save Hong-yi or Lily.
"You'll die. Then what? Lily is gonna suffer? Or you will make the difference to save her?"
"That's the problem! I want to do something but I know I'm not enough!"
"If you believe that, then you are. Change your mindset or you go home."
Those words immediately struck my brain.
I had to work harder. I had to push myself more. I had to change my mindset.
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