HATE THAT I LOVE YOU

Heartache

The time flies so fast, our semester will only end in one week and I have been courting him for five months but still nothing.

I did everything that I can just to seduce and tame him. Everyday I'm giving him surprises like flowers, chocolate, poetry, pick-up lines, teddy bear, I just don't have enough to give myself to him, but I think he will never take me seriously. What is wrong with me, why doesn't he even like me?

Shit, I'm a bit late due to lot of paper works in school and I'm also busy with my love of my life if what will I give him today, so I decided to confess again with him, so when I enter the classroom almost all of them are already in class.

I entered the classroom with a smile.

"Woohh, let's have fun ah" Aaron teased with a smile. It's just that I always ignored like that.

"So you what the cheesy pick up lines today? I'm excited to hear it.

" Marty said they all laughed at the same time I just stared at them.

"Good morning love" I said to Raven who is busy in reading. I'm a bit jealous of that book. What’s with that book that he can't even look at me? Hello, I'm much pretty than that book.

"'Yeah you’re improving huh"

"Are you an Alaxan ? Because no matter how tired and hurt I am, just seeing you is enough to chase all the pain immediately.

I love you my Gunner"

"Woohh, you're too straight forward right Jiselle" Aaron commented

"Thank you" Raven said reluctantly but I still managed to smile at him even though I wanted to cry in front of him.

"And here come another rejection. Haha" the whole class laughed at the same time. I want to go underground, oh, it's really embarrassing what I'm doing.

"Haha, you really don't have much hope in him Jiselle" Miranda said

"Haha, yes, there's Denise already"

"Would you shut up, stop it damn jerk" I said annoyed, but their laughter only got louder.

"Hey, Miss Mendoza watch your mouth" it whispered

"What the f**k, I love you" I replied to him making the whole class laugh. While he was just shaken, and I ignored him so I sat down because our professor also came.

"Ok class I will group you into two in preparation for your next sem subject in your thesis cause I will still be handling your class and I'm pretty much sure that you will all pass due to your excellent performance. This is also the only section. there is a second year of Social Work so you are still together " Long explanation by sir.

"Antonio and Sisa .... Susan and Lester .... Maria and Lena .... Miranda and Aaron ..... Adrian and Andrew .... Tracy and Troy ....... Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah ...... Raven and Jiselle .. that's all for today. I will let you talk to your partner to discuss your upcoming thesis .. .. See you tomorrow for your final exam "

Yes, you are my partner. we really are destined for each other. Even destiny is making the way to our love story and now I’m more eager to make him fall in love with me.

'Bye sir' simultaneously says. They are all busy not because they are talking about the thesis but because of their various vacation plans this coming semester break. Well, the nerds are already planning while as for me, I put my chair closer to Raven.

"Damn I want to swear" I said and he stared for the first time I saw him get bored.

"You already did it" he said

"I'm not swearing ah, I just love you '' I smiled sweetly at the same time He just shook his head with disbelief.

'Raven, you should say yes to Jiselle” joshua's joked while Gunner my loves very smoothly scratched his head.

'Gunner my labs, I love you, I love you and I love you' next time I'm still smiling from ear to ear.

"I won't get tired of saying that because I love you so much" I added. Gunner pulled me to where, so they were all screaming.

He was holding my hand and that's where my eyes were looking, and I couldn't help but smile with excitement. I was feeling red on my face, my heartbeat was also very strong. Is that it? The time when he will admit that he loves me too. Waaahhh I can't wait for it to happen. He let go of my hand when we arrived in an empty room.

Waaahhh don't say he has other plans. I was just shaken by my thoughts. He looked like a pissed-off, so until now I can't see the emotion on his face. I saw him wipe his face with frustration and took a deep breath before facing me seriously. That’s made him even more handsome.

"Can you please stop this nonsense" he said calmly.

"What the fudge, I really like you and I love you and that's not nonsense. And I will do everything just to get you"

"Please, I'm begging you. I love someone else." There was emphasis in his every word, and he seemed to be holding back his anger.

"s**t, what do I care if you love someone else? Tsk I love you too. You shot me and unfortunately you hit my heart so here I am courting, so if I want and you should want me back. I will arrest you and imprison you with love here in my heart "I once winked at him while smiling.

He didn't seem to believe what I said and stared, but it was only for a moment and he spoke again. "Stop all of this or else-" he said quietly but he didn't finish what he said because I entered immediately.

"Or else what? You will be going to kiss me just to shut up? Damn, I can't wait for that to happen." I said with seduction while biting my lower lip. Tsk do I assume? Is it corn? Or eh what can I do I just love.

oh wake up Jiselle Allendrea. That's embarrassing, that’s just to not know.

"Tsk, don't assume that much cause I don't even like you." He looked disgusted as he said that before walking out. I just laughed bitterly, tsk s**t this love for him. I can do things I don't do. Why is he still there in my heart?

"Don't let your love change you into a waste person because it's no longer love, it's just stupidity and foolishness. Because this true love will change you into a better person, not the one who looks mad and miserable in front of him. Jiselle don't Let anyone step on you. Many loves you, you just don't know because you're so naive " He said leaning against the door while slouching. Wait, is he still there? Did he hear it all? But only now have I heard him speak seriously because all he knows is nonsense.

'A-adrian? K-are you still there? 'I stuttered the question He approached me and wiped my face I did not realize that I was crying.

'Don't cry, you are more worthy of this, tsk.' He said seriously and I can't explain how I feel s**t why he is so kind to me and he is so handsome.

'Stop crying, you'll look like a trash to him, but for me you are so much beautiful. Fix yourself and c let's go back to class, ok?" I just nodded.

Whenever something bad happens, he is always there at unexpected times to comfort me and I'm thankful to him. If only I could teach my heart, I already did and when I no longer looked like a fool I would have tailed Raven

Raven's POV

Tsk she is so annoying, I'm not a Saint noh, I also get angry especially when I'm full. I love Denise and I will do everything to protect her and our love to anyone who wants to sabotage us. That woman does not even know how to be shy? I will admit at first I enjoyed her stretches but damn Denise saw that so here I am having a hard time coaxing her because of that stupid woman. I don't wanna hurt her and said any hurtful words but she just made me did that.

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After what happen, a weeks ago, I'm still on to him. After everything that he said I’m still in love deeper with him. What would I do now? I will still court him no matter what. I’ll just continue what I’m doing, I know one day he would realize things and eventually fall in love with me.

We are on vacation for two months then enrollment again. I miss Gunner already and I'm bored here at home even though I've only been sleeping for two days. I can't send Chan here because they haven't had a break next week and he's busy too.

When I miss Gunner my labs so much, I always send him messages on the messenger but nothing happens. It would have been nice if he had seen this, but he wouldn't even be able to open my messages.

"Hey, Gunner my labs miss you so much"

"How are you? I love you"

"Eat, don't get upset" "I love you"

"Good night dream of me"

"I really love you" Tsk, I still have a lot of texts with him, but I haven't seen the diligence of commenting on Denise by her waaahhh oh what's worse they were together in Hong Kong for vacation, and they looked so happy to each other. I envy her because she loves by the man I love.

The heartache of seeing his smile on Denise can only be shown, because the smiles he shows me are mixed with disgust and annoyance. He never showed his true smile on me. Waaahhh I can stand them because my heart is mourning again. Tol tok tok.

"Sister, dinner is ready. Come down, Mom said" shouted by our youngest Jiro which made me back on reality. Even after everything that I’ve heard and seen I am willing to take a risk just to make him notice me again and again.