my mother

finding out the Truth

years ago when my babies where still little my mom as always was there to supported and help me with everything honestly I admired this woman a lot she was my inspiration and I was going to be the best mother to my twins

Honestly I never knew I was carrying twins just by six months my belly had grown so much that I could barely do anything productive. mom always told me I was carrying more than one child but I would only laugh ,I guess that's how mother's instinct work.

One morning I decided I was going to finish university from where I dropped and my parents where happy with my decision. so I started school again and my mother would help with my babies and when I came back from school I would take over because she had work too but she would work for home.yes that's how my mother loved me she decided staying and working from home was the best choice as she didn't want baby sitters

After that the some a year I completed my education and through connection Dad pulled some strings and got me a job at a top-notch company. Everything was falling in to places now that I could secure my kids future.

one evening I was playing with the kids when Mom come in and said "hey how are my favorite babies" they are fine I responded with all smiles on our faces come here let's take a walk in the park the sun is setting and it looks beautiful; Lisa come along.

oh no mom go without me I have some important work to do

"come on you can do it later am here with the babies" enjoy your walk am not coming, though can I use your laptop I spilled water on mine earlier today?

sure it's in my room right drawer.

"Okay see you later"

"bye mom, bye babies "

when mom Left I immediately went to her room to get her laptop I wanted to finish my work as soon as possible before they got back . I was In a hurry that I forgot she told me to look in her right drawer intend I opened the door to her Waldrop's

when I got there I went to her wardrobe and looked through that's when I realized it slipped my mind mom to me to go in a drawer.just as I was about to turn and close the door something caught my attention I wanted to ignore it but curiosity got the better of me. squatting down I took the white book and opened it. I adjusted my posture as I Sat down .

I took a deep breath and opened it. there was jewelry, a picture and some documents I looked at the picture and then started reading the content of the documents.

I didn't know I was crying until Tears started blinding my vision I blink and they rolled down my face freely I was in a state of shock how could this be I told myself.

"I was not my father's child and to make it worse than it already was my mother was dying "

I began to ponder on it that's why she looks like that she was dying that's why everything about her charged foods, clothes sizes, hair choices, frequently hospital visiting. it All makes sense now how did I not notice did dad know she was sick did he know I was not his child? I wondered as I sobbed.

I sat there for a few more minutes before I decided that this matter had to be addressed,I got up took the papers along with the photo, I waited till she got back.

Luckily when she got home Dad also drove into the compound it's good that he came this matter had to be resolved here and now.

Heey..... we are back mom yelled happily as she made her way inside the house with my twins, but she froze when she saw my face

hey honey how are you Dad said as he kissed mom on the forehead then he turned around to acknowledge me.i was already in tears "Lisa why are you crying did something happen "he asked

" why Don't we asked mom'?

honey I... I didn't let her finished whatever it was she wanted to say as I showed her the photo I found, I didn't have to shaw her what else I found as the horrified look on her face told her that I knew everything.

Dad grabbed the papers and read through one after the other by now he was fighting hard to control his anger.

Did you cheat on me?

I..I..I Lisa why did you go through my belongings?

oh Please that doesn't matter would you care to explain to us what this means.

Am so sorry, am sorry that's all she said as she sobbed uncontrollably..

It's been days since mom refused to say a thing she tried her best to talk to me without bringing up the issues but I was determined to know.

Dad had turned into a workaholic after work he would go drink and come back wasted , mostly when he is back he causes a lot of noise and making a scene after which he would only sleep on the couch.

One weekend it was quite and the tension was palpable I walked outside my bedroom heading towards the kitchen mom was making breakfast as if my supposed Dad would ever eat it, and dad himself was seated at a glass window reading a newspaper.i guess everyone has decided to go back to there usual self though not as it was before. I walked in kitchen mom said "hi" I only replied with an "hello" and walked out before I could despair from site she said it's time to talk join your father take a site I will be there in a minute.i only looked at her with resentment.

we sat there looking at each other then mom cleared her throat and started explaining everything.

It all started when we were having difficulties conceiving I would go for examination to see maybe something was wrong with me, but each time the test only came out fine. I was okay and I began to wandering why?.. your dad and I badly wanted a child but he seemed okay.."because he believed one day we would conceive ..so one time he got sick I secretly told the doctor to do a paternity test.

The results showed that he was okay though he had low sperm count I was devastated, and I loved your father so much that I wasn't willing to discourage him.

so I decided to hide this from him

After some years he got promoted at work and started going on business trips a lot.i was so lonely but i had a clear schedule I would go home from work Just like that. but one day a friend of mine invited me for her birthday party I agree as I knew it was begin hosted at her house but little did I know it was at a hotel's bar I wanted to leave but she urged me to stay I couldn't say no it was her birthday..

After having some drinks I became drowzee and found myself in a room with a man making out ..we spent the night together.

Weeks later I discovered that I was pregnant I was happy but sad that I cheated on my husband ,I wanted to get rid of it but before I could Leo my husband found out he was going to be a father he was the happiest man ... that time I couldn't bring myself to tell him both the truths of my pregnancy and his paternity test .

And you were born I didn't want to ruin the relationship we all had as a family...

there was silence but the I broke it with a question

"And what about the issues that you are sick when where you planning on telling us"?

I looked at her then at Dad he looked down..

Dad you knew about this didn't you?

"Am sorry Lisa your mother didn't want to stress you"

stress me are you guys kidding me I said as I stood and slammed mu hands on the table .

"Lisa sit down now he yelled"

I was beyond angry " Don't Tell me what to do you are not my Dad "I yelled

my mom stood up and gave me a resounding slap,I was beyond shocked."you will give respect to the man who raised you young lady". my mother slapped me for the first time in my life.

As days went on things were awkward between the three of us I decided I was going to move out and so I told them about my decision they disagreed but I told them I wanted a positive environment for my child to grow in and besides I was already 18 turning 19 next month I was capable of taking care of my children and providing them with what they needed.

I was beyond disappointed in myself that my mom had been suffering for almost a year and I didn't even notice .