Blinded by love and Pain

Chapter 5: Interview

Nathan POV

She fell asleep on the couch next to me. I looked at her, she looked peaceful and beautiful. I kissed her forehead and took her to the bedroom. I allowed her to rest.  As I watched her sleep, I kept playing the moment I thrush inside of her, I was very rough and the way she screamed I knew it was due to pain. Guilt started flooding in, making me  feel like a jerk. How could I have known, the way she kissed me, taking off my top and the way she did magic to my c**k with her hands, led me to believe she had vast load of experience. But then she never initiated anything, she was shy all the time, I had to guide her. I sighed at that thought. I thought she was being submissive waiting for me to tell her what to do. All the signs were there, but they were not prominent.  I looked at her again, and I felt a tear coming from my eyes. I find myself talking to her in her sleep: ‘You were so innocent and pure, I came and took your purity. I can't deny that this was the best s*x I have ever had in my life. This is coming from a person who has slept with a lot of girl across the globe. Every girl's first time must be special, gentle and with the person they love.  But I robbed you of that. I will make it up to her tomorrow. Jah! I will. I hugged her and dosed off.’

Zelda POV

We spent the whole weekend indoors with Mr stranger- Nate having s*x and getting to know each other. He was really sweet and a part of me hoped the weekend would never end. I woke up Monday morning to an empty bed. When I heard the shower running, I got up, wore my clothes and waited for him to finish. 

"Morning honey," Nathan said, giving me a kiss on the mouth. I smiled at him thinking; man he is just too perfect for me. It wasn't long after he got dressed and we ate, he dropped me home. I was feeling sad when I exited the car. Before I closed the door he said, "I will see you Friday honey," he leaned over and kissed me. I nodded and walked away. I went straight to my apartment, I took a shower, got dressed and left for the job interview.  I arrived at the New Tech group company a bit early. Man! the building was tall and located uptown. When I entered the building, I felt out of place. Everyone looked like a model (those front cover magazine model). When I say everyone, I meant both the men and women. They were really super thin, girls wearing sexy clothes, some wore revealing clothes while others wore tight clothes and heels and most of them had curly or straight long hair (falling down- be it weave , wig or natural hair). It made me wonder if they are able to breath in those tight cloths,  let along sit and walk comfortably. I on the other hand was wearing a skinny black jean, a baggy golf t-shirt and sneakers (tommies). I had a neat bun on my hair like a ballerina. 

I greeted the receptionist and told her my name. She first looked at me top to bottom four times, not greeting back. Then I heard her say, "ID Ms, and take a sit." I gave her the ID and sat down. After 15 min, she called me, gave me my ID and a visitor pass. She then told me to take the lift and go to the 4th floor, conference room 4-11 on my left after exiting the lift. She looked at me like she was disgusted, making me feel very uncomfortable. I looked down, feeling ashamed and said, “Thank you Ms.”

I left and went to the conference room. When I got there I knocked and I was told to come in. There was a round table, 3 ladies and 2 men. I greeted everyone and introduce myself, my voice was shaking. A redhead lady sat in the middle, looking as beautiful as ever. I swear everyone in this company was beautiful if not handsome. They all looked at me in shock, the redhead girl pointed at the chair in front of her, indicating that I should sit down. She then said Ms Brown, I'm Mrs Greyson in charge of the finance division. Ethan is the manager, he will be the one working with you if get the job. Mark is the secretary, Mary is standing in for HR and Emily is standing in for the company CEO.  

"Ms Brown tell us about yourself, why you think you are the best candidate out of the 24 we shortlist and if you have any experience working as an accountant," said Ms Greyson looking bored. I looked at everyone else, they all looked bored and somehow disgusted. I wondered if it was because of my clothes or thick body or because I'm not wearing makeup.  Before I could answer I heard Emily say, "Ms brown we don't have the whole day, please answer the question or leave." She looked irritated as if I was wasting their time. " I....I..have an MBA degree and a BSc degree in statistic and mathematics. Throughout my studies I worked in the bank as a consultant at a local hospital HR department. I also taught a statistics. Blah blah blah!" 

It was silent for a while, then Emily asked, what makes you think you will fit here.  "Because I live by the company values, learn fast, adjust easily and I'm a team player. " Emily looked at Mark and Ethan as if she was asking them if they had any questions for me.  Then she turned to Marry, who smiled and nodded her head. Marry then looked at me top to bottom then said, " Ms Brown as you have seen everyone in this company looks elegant and professional, Are you willing to change your look so you can fit in? Don't get me wrong there is nothing wrong with the way you look, but we have an image to uphold. You understand right."

I looked down and felt like crying. I wear saggy golf t-shirt to cover my small waist and big butt when I am wearing tight jeans or sweatpants, I can't wear heels. I never tried them because I felt I was too big, plus I like comfort. I can't put on makeup it’s not me, plus I simply don't like it. I sighed, then answered the question feeling defeated. "Clothes wise maybe, depends on what you have in mind. Shoes, well I can't wear heels but I can wear flat sandals. Makeup, no, it's against my believes." I replied looking down not making eye contact with any of them.

"Thank you Ms Brown we will contact you in the next 3 to 5 days with the outcome," said Ms Grayson . I thanked everyone and left. When I got outside I saw a small coffee shop outside the building and I thought I will go check it out. As I was about to enter I saw Nathan sitting with a woman. They were talking and laughing like it was only the two of them in the room. I froze for a while thinking if I should go in or just go home. When the lady stood up and left Nathan, I couldn't help but notice how sexy she looked. She was short, flawless skin with her natural afro tucked in a bun. She was wearing a short floral dress with heels, holding a fancy handbag. She really looked like a million bucks.

Before I could shed a tear, I decided to go home. When I go I sat on my bed thinking about Nathan and the girl, definitely his GF no doubt. She was perfect, and I was big. I kept thinking about them and I cried myself to sleep.