My Soul and My Mate

Training

Its 5am in the morning. I get up just like i have everyday for the last 5 years, except now its too early. I miss being able to wake up when the sun was out.

Warriors have 5 different ranks. All children 10 years and older are required to train unless certain circumstances stop them.

THE RANKS

Beginner

Intermediate

Hard

Elite

Knight

To be able to pass from one rank to the next you must challenge. What does that mean? Let me explain it to you because it sucks and its hard.

Once you issue Challange, you must pass a Psychological exam, then go through the "Course". The course is a 10 mile run, followed by sparing with an Elite warrior, a Knight warrior all in human form. Followed by wolf form fighting. Sounds fun right. Trust me, they dont take it easy on you. Most people fail winning against the Knights, but if they feel you have proven your self you can go up in rank.

Ryan is the Beta of our pack, as so he leads all the training. He was dad's best friend. He is a strong 6ft 3 man, made like a football player. Brown guarded eyes, with curly brown hair. He rarely smiles anymore unless he is with Beta April, his wife or his kids. He has 3 kids, Michael my best friend who is 17, Richard who is 12, and Fernando, who is 4 years old.

Along with Beta Ryan, Gamma Michelle and Delta Allison, who both lost their husbands 5 years ago, help run our pack. They have been mom's greatest support through all of this.

Mom has been challenge by multiple Alphas during the last 5 years. Many think that because she lost her mate she would be weak. Mom did not allow her self to wallow in self pity instead she trained just as hard as all our warriors, add to that her powers over the elements and I have yet to see anyone come close to beating her.

I have been training hard, everyone pushes me harder because being the princess means I will always have someone trying to kill me or mate me for my status.

I am still an Elite, why you ask because none of the Knights think I am good enogh yet. The harder i push myself the worst it hurts everytime I fail.

Michael, who I should say is my best friend, is so good looking. Every female here wants to get in his pants, but he wants to wait until he meets his mate. He said its not about being a man w***e or being a saint. Its about respecting the gift the moon goddess gives us. Let me tell you, he is gorgeous, he is built like his dad, except his hair is a beautif shade of brown, and he is tall, 6ft 5.

I have secretly had a crush on him forever, but I respect him and our friendship enough to not want more. Honestly when would i have time to follow a relationship. Training doesn't just end for me, after warrior training, I have princess training.

Learning to walk gracefully, to speak with respect, and to remember all the rules and regulations we have in our Kingdom, i want to just run. Mom said I would need to rule with my head and my heart, and sometines kick some butt.

"Woke up in a mood I see" Michael looks at me and rolls his eyes.

" I am not in a mood, I just hate waking up before the sun does, the rays fill me with energy, and the darkness just makes me want to crawl into bed and sleep." I explain.

"I know Princess but as your Knight if you are in a mood, then I have to put up with your attitude and honestly I am to tired for it." Michael smirks at me.

"No one asked you to take on being my knight, I was just fine with you being my best friend, now I have to put up with your bossy attitude on top of being a over protective, annoying, and honestly not so smart Knight." I stick my tongue at him.

" See told you, mood. You know I can have someone else become your protector if you want. But will he help sneak you in when you are out late, or take the blame when you beat up some suitor trying to win your heart." He tells me. He is so right, no one gets me more than he does. I hate when guys think I am just a weak princess that needs to be told what she likes and what she needs.

I am lucky to have him, but I will never admit it, specially to him, his ego would get ten times bigger than it is already.

We start walking to the training grounds. We begin our run, half way done , the sun is finally out. Something about the sunlight always brightens my day, makes me feel re-energized. We make good time. Ready for the sparring. I am itching to get some good hits on Beta Ryan. Just once I want to knock him on his butt, just once.

Beta Ryan stands in front of us "Partner up, lets get ready to spar, princess lets dance you and I" he looks at me with such seriousness. I got this, I can beat him.

I continue to pump myself up even though I already know he will beat me.

"Emma you are figting with your head, you continue allow yourself to think too much about loosing rather than focusing on being here. Follow your stuncts, fight until the end. Stop focusing on loosing and start focusing on my next move and then the next."

Beta Ryan screams at me. He is right. I already lost this fight and I am just angry again. I have great insticts. I know how to fight. I can beat someone twice my size, but here in front of the man that is like a second father to me. I falter. I freeze. I am done.

I walk away from the fight. I shift into my wolf and run through the forest. I run until my legs can't go one more step. I stop lay down on my paws and just wait until Michael arrives. He always keeps his distance when he knows I am frustrated, close enough to protect me, far enough to give me space. I can't seem to get it together. I have passed every challenge with ease. I know I am strong but I am scared. I wasnt strong enough to help anyone 5 years ago. I was weak and needed to be protected. My father had his Beta and his best men protect me, instead of having them there to help him.

I shift back to my human form and begin to punch the tree in front of me until my hands are bleeding.

" Why!!!!!!!!!!!??????"