Home (male x male)

family & acceptance pt 2

Yujirou, Ren and Yuichi were sitting on one sofa while Mizuki and Ichirou on another. As Yujirou was telling Yuichi all the stories he himself already knew his hands shook as he flipped through an old photo album, tears started to fall soundlessly down his face as he looked down at the smiling faces of his father, uncle and himself on one of their first fishing trips. As the photo album fell from his hands to the floor Yujirou was by his side hugging him tightly "Ichi, Ichi poor Ichi it's okay let all those years of tears out " Yujirou spoke calmly to Ichirou while Ren held Yuichi close to himself Yuichi had also started to cry seeing both the photos and his big brother in tears. "Mizuki I think you should take Ichirou home, you don't need to do anything but hold him and let him cry maybe make some tea for the head ache he's going to have he has ice in his freezer cool his eyes as well I think he needs your love the most right now" Mizuki had been feeling useless when Yujirou spoke to him a sense of determination settled over him . Standing up from the couch Mizuki gently place his hand in Ichirou's and tugged gently and smiled a sad smile down at the crying teen when he looked up at him "lets go home Ichirou " he spoke in as soothing a voice as he could manage his heart was breaking with every tear Ichirou cried and he cursed himself for not being able to take that sadness away from his heart. " we are only a few doors down on the next level Yuichi so come see him in the morning if you are still worried" Mizuki reassured Yuichi who looked worriedly at the two departing teens, Yuichi nodded as he rubbed his eyes with the sleeve of his jacket " okay " was the only thing Yuichi got out before he started to cry again the two older men surrounded him trying their best to comfort him as Mizuki lead Ichirou out the room towards their studio.

Back in his own room Ichirou curled up in his bed clinging to Mizuki crying he was lost in a storm of pain , his mother had betrayed his father and him and in the end Yuichi. She had stolen their father Yuichi would never get to have what he had with their father he would never know the great man he was like Ichirou did. Ichirou would never be accepted as he was the person he truly was inside would never be part of her family, she had never known how to be his mother maybe that was his curse as her first child. Did he have her bad blood? He had not cheated on his girlfriends because he never truly committed himself to any he didn't want to get close to a woman after he knew the truth behind his fathers death. He was scared he would kill his partner or himself like his father had done if he were to be cheated on, he felt so insecure so he ignored all feelings but those of the body he slept with the people he wanted to but never allowed attachments to grow. Miho had been the first girlfriend he had made and kept around for longer then a week , the girls had all wanted more from him then what he could give so he had broken up with them stating he wasn't ready for a relationship after all. He had never felt so serious about anyone the way he now felt about Mizuki maybe he had always been gay but the wrong men had approached him, if he had know Mizuki when Ren first came into his life would he ever had become a playboy or would he have become a loyal one man type of man he had no way of knowing anything. "Mizuki why do you want someone like me ? aren't you scared of being hurt I'm a good for nothing I can't even be sure I'll not betray you the way my mother betrayed my father or betray you the way he betrayed me, I carry their weaknesses and bad traits in me" Mizuki held him closer kissing his forehead gently " You would never betray me because you know how much it hurts to be betrayed and even if you betrayed me I'd still love you! I'll always love you Ichirou and I will not betray you, I don't care if you beat me or kill me everything all of me is yours" as he spoke he placed his hand on Ichirou's heart and took Ichirou's hand to place it on his own heart. Mizuki knew he shouldn't be seducing Ichirou at such a time but Yujirou was right he needed his love and the best way to convince Ichirou was by physically loving him , "Ichirou let me love you, love me as much as you can but right now let me show you my love" he spoke in a voice so full of passion Ichirou could only look up into his eyes through his tears. 

Mizuki smiled tenderly at the man he loved kissing him gently with an urgency he hadn't felt until that point " I love you" he stated forcefully as he straddled his boyfriend who had finally stopped crying he removed his shirt " My heart is beating wildly for you without you this beating will cease so keep loving me forever" Mizuki hadn't realized how much all the events of the day had affected him. The clock by the bedside read 3:00 AM Ichirou looked over at Mizuki sleeping peacefully next to him up until a half hour ago they had been loving each other passionately , Mizuki had been insatiable all the misgivings and pain in Ichirou's heart had been washed away mixed in the tears, caresses and loving. The screams and moans that had filled the room had filled his heart with so much emotion he had cried, swept away in the absolute love and belonging he and Mizuki shared with one another. Looking at his sleeping lover he made a promise deep in his heart to cherish Mizuki as long as he lived as long as he was honest and loyal he knew his father would always be proud of him , his father loved him he knew that he had just loved his wife more, her betrayal hurt so much he had not been able to consider his son or his son's love for him. As Mizuki cuddled close to him murmuring words of love to him Ichirou smiled and found peace with himself falling asleep at last.