Love Off Script (FREE TO READ)

Kabanata 15

A/N: NAGKASAKIT AKO KAYA DI NAKAPAG UPDATE. SALAMAT SA PAGHIHINTAY. OY INIP NA BA ANG LAHAT SA LOVING LOVING NILA? WAIT LANG, DARATING DIN TAYO DON. HAHAH.

Mathew

“Mathew… harder, please… a-ahhh.”

This girl keeps on moaning my name. We’re in the middle of a war. A war between our thighs. She’s one of the best partners that I’ve ever had when it comes to satisfying my needs as a man. Don’t get me wrong. I’m not that kind of man na papatul kung kani-kanino.

Aaminin ko, girls? Hindi ko sila pinoproblema. Bakit? Marami silang nakapila na nanghihingi ng atensyon ko. It's not that I'm a snob or what. Wala lang talaga sa isip ko sa ngayon ang salitang serious relationship, kahit sa babaeng ito na nagdadala sa akin sa ibang dimensyon to satisfy my s****l fantasies..

Her name is Belinda. She’s one of the great actresses of her generation. She’s older than me but I don’t give a damn. And I don’t really care if they think that we’re in a relationship. As long as it benefits both of us, so go for it.

“Harder, Mathew a-aaahhh, please don’t stop… you are so good Mathew.” I smirked. Alam kong malapit na siya kaya mas binilisan ko pa ang pagbayo sa kaniya habang nakatuwad siya sa akin. “Fvck! A-Aaahh.” She reached her climax, but I’m not done yet.

“S-So, you know what to do.”

“Just enjoy…” she said seductively. And the next thing I knew… nakahawak na ako sa buhok niya while enjoying my d!ck into her mouth. That’s her expertise.

I closed my eyes while enjoying the moment when that stupid girl named Gigi invaded my privacy again.

“Fvck!” I shouted when I’m finally released. Para akong nawalan ng gana.

“Out!”

“What?”

“We’re not done yet Mathew.”

Tumayo ako ang wear my bathrobe. Kinuha ko ang basong naglalaman ng whisky at ininom habang nakatingin sa nagkikislapang ilaw sa ibaba.

“What’s wrong with you!” Belinda shouted. Siguro ay naninibago siya. Dati rati kasi’y nakakailang rounds kami sa buong magdamag. Pero mula nang dumating sa buhay ko ang babaeng iyon ay unti-unti niyang ginulo ang buhay ko.

“I guess, wala ka sa mood. So, aalis na ako. Call me, okay?” Tinaas ko lang ang aking kamay bilang sang-ayon.

Akala ng lahat ay may relasyon kami ni Belinda. Palagi ko kasi siyang nakakasama sa pelikula at tv projects. Palagi rin kami nakikita na magkasama sa iba’t ibang events and parties. Ayos lang sa amin iyon, but the truth is we are just a fvck buddies. Hindi lang sa akin ginagawa ni Belinda ang ganito, alam kong marami pa kami pero wala akong pakialam. And I don’t have a right to judge her.

I get my phone to call Charles, my best friend since high school. “Where are you?”

“What the hell Math?!” he yelled.

“Oops, sorry wrong timing ba?” I’m trying my best not to laugh.

“What do you think?”

“Sorry, okay! See you at the bar.”

“What!? Sige na… siguraduhin mo lang na mas mahalaga ‘yang sasabihin mo,” he ended.

I take a shower and go to the bar na lagi naming pinupuntahan ni Charles.

“So, what seems to be the trouble, dude?” bungad sa akin ni Charles. We are now in a VVIP room.

“Kailangan ba may problema ako? I just wanna be with you, dude.”

“Funny… kilala kita Mathew. Hindi mo basta iniiwan ang mga babae mo nang gano’n lang. Tapos si Belinda pa,” Charles said while shaking his head.

I let out a wry laugh and simply raised my glass.

“I knew it!”

“You knew?! How come? Ako nga ‘di ko alam.” I’m trying my best, maitago lang kay Charles kung anuman ang gumugulo sa isipan ko. Lalo na nang eksena kanina sa elevator.

“Who is she?” Charles chuckled.

“Wala,” a fake smile written all over my face.

“Is it about a girl named Gisselle?” What! Paano niya nalaman.

“No it’s not!” tanggi ko at tinuloy ang pag-inom.

“Huwag ka nang tumaggi. I saw it!”

Wala talaga akong maitago sa kaibigan kong ‘to. “How could you tell it was Gisselle if you only saw her once?”

“I saw it, kung paano nanlilisik ‘yang mga mata while she’s with Dustin.”

Damn, I’m not against Dustin. He’s a nice guy and responsible. Pero naiinis ako at nagseselos kapag nakikita kong masaya si Gisselle na kasama siya kaysa sa akin.

“I don’t know either why I feel this way, Dude.”

“Feel what?” tiningnan ko ng matalim ang kaibigan ko.

“Ang…the feeling of… tsk, nevermind. Just forget about it.”

“You're jealous over Dustin, right?” I inhaled deeply. Hindi ko siya sinagot at uminom lang ako nang uminum.

Yes, I’m fvcking jealous. I’ve never been jealous, ngayon lang. At hindi ko matanggap kung bakit of all the girls around me ay bakit si Gigi pa? I don’t want to drag her into my world. Kung saan punong-puno ng mga taong mapangkutya. Pero hindi ko mapigilan ang pvtang in@ng nararamdaman kong ito sa kaniya. Hindi ko mapigilan na hindi maalala ang matatamis niyang labi na nagpapabilis ng t***k ng puso ko.

Marami na akong nahalikan, pero iba nung siya ang hinalikan ko. I couldn't control myself. I want to take her and be with her all the time. Hindi siguro ako magsasawa na halikan siya sa buong magdamag. But damn it, she’s just my personal assistant.

“Is it about her status?” Charles asked.

“No! Hindi lang dahil do’n.”

“Then, what?”

“I just don’t know. Naguguluhan lang ako at the same time naiinis lalo na pag kasama niya si Dustin. I am that bad kuya for them?”

“No you’re not. You’re just fvcking in love, Dude. So congratulations, welcome to the club.”

Am I? In love na nga ba ako sa babaeng ‘yun? “Ugh, let’s just celebrate for being in the club.”

So, I drank until I’m numb. When I got home, dumiretso ako sa kwarto niya. Then, nadatnan ko siyang tulog habang nakadapa. Kalahati ng katawan niya ay lampas sa higaan. Inayos ko siya at kinumutan. Then I turn on the aircon.

She was still snoring in her sleep, so I couldn't help but laugh. I went closer to her and fixed her hair that was covering her face. Pinagmasdan ko siyang maigi. Mahahaba niyang pilik mata. Buhok niyang kulot, katawan niyang nabilad sa araw kaya medyo maitim hanggang mapako ang tingin ko sa labi niya.

I am drawn to touch her lips and kiss her, but before I could lose myself, I decided to go to my room. Naligo ako’t nagbihis. Medyo nawala ang alak sa kawatan ko pero the urge to kiss her is killing me. I control myself and forget everything. I wanted to erase her in my mind and in my soul. Kaya nagpalunod ulit ako sa alak at uminum mag-isa sa kwarto.

“Math, be a man and tell her the truth, before it’s too late,” sabi ko sa aking sarili.

Nakaubos na ako ng ilang bote pero hindi pa sapat kaya’t kukuha sana ako ulit nang matigilan. Sinara ko agad ang pinto at sinilip na lamang siya. She’s enjoying the food I cooked. Nakaramdam ako ng saya habang pinagmamasdan siya. Subalit nang sumagi sa isip ko na maaring maagaw sa akin ng mga ngiti niyang iyon ang nagtulak sa akin sa matinding pag-aasam na maangkin siya. Kaya’t dahan-dahan akong naglakad papasok sa kwarto niya. Maya-maya’y pumasok siyang masaya.

“Are you full now?” Her surprise was evident, yet she appeared oblivious. My patience finally broke, and I pulled her into my arms.

“You still have the guts to ignore me, don’t you?”

“Sir, bakit ho kayo nandito?” Despite her brave words, I could feel her whole body shaking.

“Naniningil ako,” I whispered. I made sure that she knows what I’m referring to. I threw her on the bed without warning. She backed away, but I kept moving in until she was trapped, and I smiled.

“Sir, lasing ka lang kaya hindi mo alam ang ginagawa…” I didn’t let her finish.

“You wanna try? Huh, Gisselle?” I pull her legs and position myself. Fvck, nakaramdam agad ako ng kakaiba. Alam kong natatakot na siya pero wala pa rin akong pakialam. Iisa lang ang tumatakbo sa isip ko ngayon–ang angkinin siya ngayon para wala na siyang kawala sa akin.

“Sir, ano ba? Mali itong ginagawa mo,” she protested. Before she could push me away, I caught her hands and raised them above her head.

“Nakalimutan mo ba ang punishment mo, Gisselle?” I whispered. Our lips are one inch away. Lalo akong nag-init nang maamoy ang kaniyang bibig. Gustong-gusto ko na siyang halikan pero nagpipigil pa rin ako.

“Sir, tatanggapin ko agad ang parusa mo kung anuman ang nagawa ko, pero hindi ngayon at hindi sa ganitong paraan,” she beg. But lust is all over my body that I couldn't help but to kiss her.

“Ano ba Mathew, bitawan mo ako.” I pretended not to hear anything and continued kissing her until I reached her neck. I sip it and make sure to put some hickey on it.

And the next thing I do is to rip her clothes and forcely remove her bra.

“Sir, huminahon kayo, pakiusap,” again she begged. And the moment my lips landed on her right boob and my right hand was on her left made me more crazy.

“Fvck, Gisselle you’re a goddamn beautiful. And this is all mine. Ako lang, I don’t share.”

That moment, hindi na ako nakapag-isip ng tama. Hindi ko alam kung tama lang ito ng alak o kung ano? Pero isa lang ang sigurado ako. I've never wanted a woman like this before. This feeling is completely new to me.

Then I heard her crying. It was like a bucket of cold water had been thrown over me. And all I could say is “S-Sorry.”

She cried, gusto ko siyang lapitan at aluin. Tell her how sorry I was. Pinapalabas niya ako, alam kong natakot ko siya. What have I done?

“Ang sabi ko lumabas na kayo Sir Mathew. Bago ko pa maisipan na tumawag ng pulis at pagpyestahan ang pangalan mo.”

And before I leave, nag-iwan ako ng assurance sa kaniya na haharapin ko lahat ng aking nagawa, mapatawad niya lang ako. “If that’s my punishment, then do it. Nararapat lang ‘yon sa akin.”

Umalis ako at pumunta kay Charles. Wala akong narinig sa kaniya. I know that he knew what I had done.

“Matulog ka na at magpahinga.” Iyon lamang ang narinig ko sa aking kaibigan sabay tapik nito sa akin balikat.

I couldn't go home to my parents' house because I didn't want them to know the truth. But I also need to tell them what I did and face whatever the consequences may be. Kaya naman magdamag akong nag-isip hanggang unti-unting sumikat ang araw. Subalit bago nakatulog ay nag-iwan muna ako ng message sa kaniya. Saying how sorry I am.

Hinayaan lang ako ni Charles na mag-stay sa bahay niya. Tanghali na rin ako nagising pero wala akong balak bumangon. Tiningnan ko ang cellphone ko pero tanging si Miss C lamang ang natanggap ko. Mukhang nabasa ni Gigi ang message ko sa kaniya pero hindi siya nag-reply. Kaya lalo akong nanghina.

Sa aking pag-iisip ay bigla akong nakaisip ng paraan para malaman kung ano nang nangyayari sa kaniya. Kung umalis ba siya sa condo at kung ano pa. Kaya I hired the best agent to look for her kaya nalaman kong hindi siya umalis at hindi niya ako iniwan.

I feel so relieved and alive that I am ready to face everything to win her. To be with her and own her completely.

Kahit gabi na ay nagpunta pa rin ako ng flower shop para ibigay sa kaniya. It’s a bouquet of red roses and a note: “To the woman who stole my heart: Thank you for staying. Missing you, Mathew."

It makes me smile to think that, at my age, I'm finally courting someone. I hope she's not too harsh on me. But I'll show her how I feel every day, and I'll wait as long as it takes for her to say yes.