By the time I left the archive, my head felt stuffed with ashes.
Voices followed me up the stairs—old ink voices, Maera’s rough confession, Bryn’s brutal questions—but the one that cut through all of them was younger. Arrogant and shaking at the same time.
I do not accept this bond.
I hadn’t walked to the old ritual clearing intending to find ghosts. They came anyway.
Moonlight silvered the snow-dusted grass. The circle—the real one, the one where Jarek had spoken those words three years ago—scarred the ground in a faint ring, stubborn even after seasons of rain and new growth. The trees leaned in, bare branches clawing at the sky.
I stopped at the edge.
You could still see it, if you knew where to look: the faint black trace of burned runes in the soil, half-hidden by moss. Here, where the pack had stood in a tight ring. There, where the old alpha had watched from his chair, already paler than he should have been.
And in the center, where I had stood.
I stepped across the boundary.
Cold hit me like a hand around my throat.
Not the air—the night was mild for this time of year. This was deeper, under the skin. My resonance flared without my asking, snagging on the jagged edges of memory burned into this place.
For a moment, the present peeled away.
Torches blazed to life around the circle, painting everything in gold and shadow. Wolves in human skin lined the edges, their faces a blur of anticipation and hunger. My younger self stood barefoot on the packed earth, spine rigid, heart pounding so loud I could hear it over the chanting.
Jarek opposite me, shoulders squared, jaw clenched. His eyes had been… wrong that night. Glazed at the edges. I hadn’t wanted to see it then.
Now I had no choice.
I let the memory pull me under.
“Do you, Jarek Maalik, accept the bond the forest has marked?” Maera’s voice, formal and steady, rang through the winter air. “Do you accept Liora Vesk as your luna?”
The words echoed against the trees, exactly as I remembered. But resonance picked up things I’d been too stunned to feel at the time.
The old alpha’s labored breathing. A second, quieter chant beneath the spoken ritual. The high, terrified whimper of a child from somewhere beyond the light.
Tavis. Kiva. The other missing ones.
Jarek’s fingers flexed at his sides. His wolf pressed against his skin, desperate, confused.
“I—” He gulped air. His gaze skittered past me, to the old alpha, to the shadows behind him where Serin and the elders watched. “I…”
Beneath the surface of his voice writhed something cold and oily.
Consent, the book in the archive had said so neatly. Requires consent of the alpha.
What if you bent consent until it snapped?
I stepped closer to my younger self, a ghost within my own past. Touched the memory of my own wrist.
Resonance blossomed, filling the space between us.
This time, when Jarek’s eyes met mine, I saw the exact second something inside him broke.
“I do not accept this bond.”
The air in the clearing had dropped ten degrees then. Wolves sucked in harsh breaths. The old alpha’s heart stuttered—literally, I could hear it now—and the forest went silent.
In the present, my chest clenched in sympathy.
But under the words, in the raw, cracked place where truth lived, Jarek’s wolf howled a different answer.
Yes. Yes. Mine. Ours.
Something—someone—had shoved that howl down his throat and forced the rejection out instead.
I remembered the way my knees had almost buckled. The sting of humiliation as eyes slid away, as whispers started. I remembered thinking, wildly, that if fate had been wrong about this, what else had it been wrong about?
Now, standing in the echo of it, I tasted a different flavor: violation. Not just of me, but of him, of the bond itself.
I’d spent three years hating Jarek for that sentence.
Hatred didn’t vanish in an instant. The consequences of his choice—his weakness—were carved into my life like scars.
But for the first time, I saw the chains around his throat.
The vision thinned, torches guttering. The circle emptied of bodies, leaving only the imprint of so many feet, so much expectation turned sour.
I blinked back into the present.
Wind hissed through the branches. My breath fogged white.
Footsteps crunched softly on the path behind me.
“You shouldn’t be here alone,” Jarek said.
His voice was older, rougher, but the shape of it still fit the hollow it had carved in me. He stepped into the moonlight, hands bare, throat exposed—no alpha mark, no claim to speak for anyone but himself.
“Funny,” I said. “Pretty sure we’ve established I shouldn’t have been here with you, either.”
He flinched.
For a long moment, we just looked at each other over the ghost of the circle.
“I remember more now,” he said finally. “Than I did that night. Than I let myself.”
“Convenient,” I said. My hands were steady at my sides, but resonance picked up the stutter of his pulse. Fear. Shame. A thin thread of desperate hope.
His gaze dropped to the ground between us. To the faint scorch marks. To the place where his own feet had once stood.
“They made it sound like duty,” he whispered. “Like… correcting a mistake. Said the bond was wrong. That if I didn’t fix it, the pack would pay.”
I thought of the diagrams in the archive. Lines and circles and little symbols labeled with our lives.
“Did you believe them?” I asked.
“Yes.” His mouth twisted. “And no. My wolf didn’t.”
He looked up, and for the first time I saw tears standing unshed at the edge of his eyes.
“I’m not asking you to forgive me,” he said. “I just… I need you to know I didn’t stand here and throw you away for fun. I was a coward. I let them use me as a knife. But I was not the only hand on the hilt.”
Old rage rose in me, hot and wild. Old hurt. Old humiliation.
Underneath it, something quieter stirred. Not sympathy. Not yet. Maybe just the barest willingness to see that the boy in my memory had been as trapped as I was.
“Good to know,” I said, voice rough. “Doesn’t un-break anything.”
“No,” he agreed. “But if this mess is tied to my family’s line, then my hands are already dirty. Let me help clean it.”
He stepped forward, to the very edge of the circle, and bared his throat to me—not as alpha, not as former almost-mate, but as pack.
Or what passed for it.
Resonance flickered, catching the fragile thread of sincerity in him. It didn’t undo three years. It didn’t heal the kids.
But it was something.
I stared at the spot where he had once stood and sentenced us both.
Then I reached out and laid my fingertips lightly against his wrist.
His wolf flinched at the touch, then leaned in.
“Fine,” I said quietly. “You don’t get absolution. But you do get work.”
His breath left him in a shaky exhale.
“First,” I added, withdrawing my hand, “you’re going to help us tell the truth. All of it. About this night. About the kids. About what our father did.”
Jarek nodded once.
Above us, the trees shivered, leaves whispering secrets they’d held too long.
Somewhere, deep under our feet, the circle in the trees pulsed in answer.