The choice of an Alpha

Chapter 1 - Revelation

Chapter 1

{Athena POV}

My name is Athena, i`m 20 years old and a werewolf. My pack is the Black Sea pack. Given the name, the pack land is near the sea shore, nestled between the coast and huge forest park. The area is beautiful, nearly 100 square km of beaches, forests, hills and in the center of all is our packhouse, surrounded by the cottages of our pack members. We live in secret from humans as the forest is forbidden for entering, due to “possible grizzly attacks”. There are no bears, but not every day humans get to see 4” tall wolves, so the secret has to be kept. Every now and then a lost human wanders the grounds, but our patrol keeps an eye on cases like that.

All my life I have struggled with the weight of being the firstborn in my family and an Alpha`s descendant. Amos, my father, the Black Sea pack`s Alpha died from a rogue attack 10 years ago and left me as his only child to rule the pack. His Beta, Ramos died protecting him. My uncle, Kona, who was the Gamma back then and was the only survivor of the attack, as a third in position took the role of an Alpha until I was ready to be passed on, which was about to happen on my 21stbirthday. To tell you the truth I have never thought I can be good enough of an Alpha to my pack. I am stubborn, spoiled and narcistic. Nothing can satisfy me and there is no feeling of accomplishment in anything I do. I have always had the feeling that something in my life was missing. Or maybe someone. I still have no mate beside me and I am starting to lose hope. The Elders of our pack, as well as my mother and uncle have an opinion on the matter, which I am not very fond in discussing. They are going to wait until I become of age to be pronounced as the Alpha of the Black Sea pack and if I hadn’t found my mate until then, I am about to be forced to take a chosen one. No Alpha should rule without a Luna by its side and in my case, I am not supposed to take the lead, but to leave it to my future Alpha mate to take. As a pack in Eastern Europe, Black Sea`s practices are according to the old ways, patriarchal ways. I am supposed to take a chosen Alpha from a neighboring pack to solidify the bond between packs. There is an upcoming Alpha`s ball in two weeks which this year is being held on our pack grounds. I have a feeling that it is because of my birthday in 4 weeks. There are several Alphas that are showing interest and I think my mother is over the moon for this. She always told me growing up that a woman should be humble, caring and loving of her Alpha, to listen and obey him, to have and raise his children, the future leads of the pack without complaint and hesitation. This ball means everything for her. Me on the other hand, not so much. I am the complete opposite of her plans for me- fierce, motivated, smart, pushy, troublesome and did I forget to mention, gay?

“YES! Athena! F*** me harder! YES!” 

I was kneeling in a bush with a she-wolf from my pack, my fingers deep inside her tight p***y as her o****m clenched her walls onto my hand. Her name was Coral, Cory for shortand she was this week’s distraction. She had a sexy body, sleek black hair, light green eyes and was shorter than myself, which wasn’t a surprise given my almost 6” height. 

“You sure you don’t want me to pleasure you today Alpha? “Cory asked shyly, her lashes trembling, soft eyes looking at me

“You know the rules to this Coral”, I glared at her “I`m not to be touched”

“Can’t you make an except..?” she asked, hope beaming from her voice

“No and don’t get your hopes up, this thing won’t last long” I cut her before she can finish her sentence, her looking sorrow.

“I`m sorry Alpha, that won’t happen again”

“It better not if you want Me to f**k you at least a couple more times” I smirked. 

She could not resist Me, no one could actually. I had muscular body, despite the fact that us werewolves have stronger metabolism and need to train like hell every day to our limits to keep the form. I had no tattoos or piercings, never liked this stuff, but my physical characteristics were like one from a magazine, I had curly light-brown hair, light brown eyes, little freckles on the nose, peachy lips and a smile of a million, at least that’s what my dad used to say to me. I looked younger, kind of like a mixture of tomboy and skater-girl and she-wolves, especially those who were more fem couldn’t stop drooling over me. I used my title as an advantage for sleeping around without being noticed. No she-wolf would have opened her mouth to out me from fear of being banished. I know it is cruel to scare them like this, but I had no other choice, I couldn’t risk being caught.

Or, you can stop hiding and show your true self, our true self to the world

You know I can’t do that, Nyx. It`s all at stake here, my chance of being the heir of my father. I wouldn’t want to disrespect or shame him or his name.

Nyx was my wolf, my other half. You know how they say that your wolf should be your best friend, well mine was like my complete opposite one. I was hard on myself, not letting myself catch feelings, I surely wasnt the romantic type and was clearly searching for trouble, while Nyx on the other hand was compassionate, loving, passionate, helpless romantic. 

You know as well as I do that your father would have been proud of you being yourself, standing for yourself and for who you love, whoever that would be. He loved you this much.

I know Nyx, but for the sakes of all I just hope we don’t find our mate ever, she shouldn’t be dragged into this nonsense of a pack or its ways.

You can’t say that, she cried

she is our soulmate, the one the Moon Goddess herself chose for us, I can’t wait to meet her and her wolf

You may need to wait forever, because I have no intention of searching for her.

With that I crossed the line and Nyx locked me away. She was clearly pissed, but I knew I had it right. I had to become the Luna that my pack needed, not the Alpha that I wanted.