Can I Love You? (LGBT+) GL

CHANGE

It's Morning again another day another week another year passing i'm still alive living as if i'm okay living like nothing's wrong should i be alive, can i end my life?

,,Hannah... Hannah... Hannahhhh!

Wakes Up

,,Having nightmares again huh?

,,Yeah Kind of not really nightmares

,,Oh okay come on let's eat.

,,Okay bro I'll go down stares after i clean my room.

My brother and i used to fight before but now it changed we've been more close and we always talk about anything in our life we don't do secrets!

When i was 7 years old my brother had a boyfriend no one knows that he's gay til i find out i didn't tell mom and dad because i'm scared of my brother maybe he won't forgive that's why i keep it secret.

At night i was about to sleep then someone came to my room he goes to me and he put his hand on my mouth saying wanna have fun?! Do not try to shout for help because no one will help you then i kick him and go to my brother and tell him what his boyfriend did and my brother got shocked when he knows that i know when his boyfriend came into my brother's room he lied and said that i kick him because i know my brother is gay, my brother got angry at me and he turn back at me and not listen he didn't care at me anymore until he find out that he's boyfriend m**********g in my room while looking at me my brother is shocked and he cry so much he tell me what happened that night and apologized for what he did and said to me he even broke up with that b***h. Since then me and my brother have been more close together.

Fear in men (androphobia) that's my condition after what happened that night. It's even worse when there are guys around me it's suffocating me it feels like they are touching me I'm really scared going out without my brother. Then my brother had an idea i changed i dress up like a guy and he cut my hair like a guy I'm thankful at my brother because it makes me comfortable.

When I'm going to school i don't act like a girl because I don't want to be s*x abused that's why i wish i was a boy i never thought of this feeling I've been always happy living my life as a girl but now it all changed i feel embarrassed i feel disgust by myself i wanna be reborn.