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December 23rd - Riley

December 23rd

Riley Mackeenzie 

“Goodnight Maze, sleep well.” I whisper back as I roll over to check my phone. I know she can’t hear me, I’ve never met anyone who can fall asleep as fast as Maze. It has always made me feel better to say goodnight even if she never hears it. 

Tonight I needed all the extra brownie points I can get, even if they are in her sleep and she won’t ever even know about it. I’m probably the worst best friend in the history of best friends. Looking down at my phone, I see that Christian or Chris as we call him texted me while Maze and I were talking. I can’t help the butterflies that take flight in my stomach or the smile that spreads across my face as I read his message. 

Goodnight beautiful, and sweet dreams. I can’t wait to see you somewhere warm and tropical tomorrow.

I type a quick response hoping not to wake Maze. I can’t help the pang of guilt that goes through me anymore then I can help the butterflies that Chris brings. All I can think about is the fact that I’m the reason they broke up, even if she doesn’t know it yet.

You in a bathing suit? Count me in! See you soon ♡

When I first told him that Maze wasn’t all that into him anymore, I tried to tell myself that it was for her. I wanted her to be in a relationship that made her happy, to be with someone who she actually has feelings for. As time went on, I realized I was just selfish, and that I wanted Chris to myself. Not that it should matter to her anyways, she was more interested in being all googly eyed over someone she could never have, seems kind of pathetic to me. 

Not that she told me any of this herself, no this had all been her big secret from everyone for a long time now, something she could never tell me. All of this I found out from her diary, I didn’t mean to read it, honestly. I was looking for her current writing book. She writes these amazing short stories, they normally are her way of getting her feelings out and saying what she is too shy to say in real life. She had asked me to proofread a couple of the stories, which was completely normal for us. I grabbed the book on the top of the pile and started reading. 

For those of you who keep a written diary in your life, find a better hiding spot for it then on top of your short story books, especially if they are in the same style of writing book...  Just a word of the wise from me to you. 

I know I should have been a better friend, I should have stopped reading as soon as I realized what it was, but she had me hooked. She has never written a more captivating story than the one of her own life. Even after having read it I should have left things alone, let her live her life the way she was. I should never have used what I found out from that book for my gain. I was so hurt, there was so much about my best friend that I didn’t know, so much of her life that she hid from me and everyone she says she cares about. She had been using Chris from the day they started dating. Nothing about their relationship was the truth, it was all a lie, even some of the things people thought they had done never happened. You would think from what I’ve said so far that this would be what made me most upset, but it’s not. Honestly I can’t believe my best friend, my sister from another mister, has been crushing on my big brother for as long as she can remember! I don’t think I have ever met anyone with a crush as big as the one my best friend has for my brother, who has never even given her a second thought or seen her as anything as his little sister’s best friend… I would almost feel bad for her if I wasn’t so hurt.