Was he truly prepared to throw away his career? Nick hadn’t spoken with any real conviction; he’d just clutched at the first thing he could think of that might rattle Alex. Nick wanted to sign the contract. He truly did. He just couldn’t see a way through this mess. He almost wanted to laugh. To think this had all started with his not seeing how he could make a film because he would have to kiss a man.
Bullshit. It was because you had to kiss Alex.
He’d known he was gay and just hadn’t wanted to face the truth. Considering the terrible names bullies had called him at school, many of them having a homosexual tone, and the way Charles had treated him when they were kids, his feelings were understandable. He’d spent so much of his life answering back that he wasn’t gay that he’d even fooled
