First love,lasts

beautiful reckless

I drove as fast as i can,feeling afraid that she might follow me."Huuuuhh!" i sighed, as i reached my rented hotel in a matter of speed.I abruptly get inside,take off all my clothes and head straight to the cold shower as i want to relax my tense self from the recent accident.The cold water helps me subside my tense muscles.I just pretended i didn't know her but "damn" i cursed,thats a big lie.How can i forget those simple yet beautiful woman i just recently met.If its not one of my mom's tactics maybe...just maybe i could like her but no,never!.

I didn't realize its been hours that i am showering and now im feeling a little cold already so i turned off the shower put my robes on and headed to the kitchen to brew some coffee for myself.

I sip my coffee while thinking of that woman.She has coffee brown eyes that makes her look most innocent,simple,charming and beautiful.Her heart shape face with the light make up,luscious lips and those eyes,....perfect!!!. Her shoulder lenght hair,her slim body that i reckoned would be perfectly fit of my embrace."Hmmmnnn" her scent arouses something on me.

"Oh my God!!!!" i've hitted her,realization drown me.

"What i've done?"i crumpled my hairs in disgust."i am the most irresponsible person ever this time,i snapped and toss her some cash and then leave....just like that.!.

Where were's you're conscience dude?What if shes badly injured?And you just leave her behind, i thought for my self.

I don't know myself at all,...after that break up with mine i can't hardly live with my old self.I just needed a kickback or whatever you called it...just...lost,...be lost.

I don't wanna be like this but it is the only way to freeze the heartaches that i am feeling and continue to live even though i wanted to end my life at that moment but i can't.Mom has only me.

I know mom was only worried and tried so many times to help but im not ready yet.

I went back to my room, open my drawers to get a clothes to change on when a black box fell.I picked and open it,there it is.! the engagement ring she didn't accept.And my tears flows like rain again.