A Journey To Love

A Fling At Home

The bottom line is that we never fall for the person we’re supposed to." —Jodi Picoult

It was almost time for our first semester examination when all the lecturers in the country decided to go a one week warning strike due to unpaid salaries.

I mean that's what you get for attending a public university in my country. I decided to go home, to spend time with my mom.

There was a girl living a stone throw from my family house, her name is joy. Joy is a very beautiful girl, she was supposed to be in school but she wasn't given admission, so she had to stay at home for a full year.

Joy started working while she was at home, so she was doing pretty well for herself.

Joy had texted me on social media earlier before i got admission into school. she claimed not to know me, although we see almost every day while i was at home.

She told me she knew my sister which made her text me on socials. I guess she was just too shy to admit she had crush on me.

Joy and i gradually became very close, i once asked her if she had feelings for me, and i was suprised she said no.

During my time in school, Joy and i grew apart, we went from texting everyday to texting once in a week. I guess it was all my fault.

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It was a boring evening at home, so i decided to take a walk, this is an exercise i carry out often to clear my head.

I had stopped to buy something from a mini mart when i heard a female voice calling my name. When i turned arround i was met with a beautiful smile from joy.

"When did you get back" she asked with so much excitement on her face.

"I came back two days ago" I replied. "but i haven't really been steady" i added immediately because i knew she was about to get mad at me for not informing her of my visit.

I was amazed of how beautiful Joy had become, she also added a lot of weight in the right places as well. She told me she was in hurry so she wouldn't be late for work.

"You are going to work by this time?" I asked. "Yea, i work the night shift in a fueling station" She replied me as held my hands to tell bye.

I stood still as i watched her walked away, i couldn't contain the suprise of how someone could change in just a short period of time.

It took a while before i got home, when i finally got home i arranged some things in my room, when i was done with what i was doing i got on socials and i was welcomed with a text from Joy.

This made me feel happy, because i was actually planning on texting her myself. She told me she was happy to see me, i told her felt the same.

We chatted about few things, She told me how her work was going and how she got the job. The conversation we had was one of the best i have in a long time.

"I will like us to hangout, if you don’t mind"- Joy texted. "Yea! that would be nice, but i don't really have money at the moment" I replied her wishing i wasn't broke.

The relationships i had with Joy had grew to the point were i didn't have to lie to her about anything. Telling her about my financial strength wasn't a problem for me.

"I did not ask for your money" She replied me. Joy went on to tell me that she would take care of the bills.

I was really surprised and i didn't really like the idea of a girl spending on me, so her declined her offer, but she persuaded me. I didn't want her to feel bad or rejected so i had to agree l.

At the end of the conversation we planned to go swimming the next day.

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It was a happy morning for me, thinking about my outing with Joy alone made me feel very happy. Everyone at home could see the Joy all over my face.

Joy gave me the location of the swimming pool we would be using, it was very close to our houses.

She told me to call her when i got to the swimming pool. We avoided going together in order to prevent people from seeing us.

When i got there i called her and in less than 5 minutes she arrived looking more beautiful than the Joy i met the previous day.

Joy didn't really know how to have a proper conversation, so i was the one doing most of the talking.

The waitress came and we ordered drinks, i went for a non alcoholic drink while she ordered for an alcholic. It was a little bit weird for me, because in the society were i come from, the man is supposed to pay bills not the other way round.

However, Joy was a Feminist, so she saw nothing wrong with handling the bill.

After we had our drinks we walked down to the swimming pool. Deep down i was hoping i get my first kiss, but i knew i wouldn't be able to push for it.

During the short time i spent in school, i engaged in a lot of swimming lessons with some of coursemates. I wasn't really a badass swimmer but i could move under water.

Joy on the other hand didn't know how to swim at all.

I changed to my swim suit, entered into the pool and waited for her. After spending some minutes alone in the water, Joy arrived looking so sexy in her swim suit. She was walking majestically to the pool, it was almost like she was doing it in slow motion.

In that moment i felt like i was a caricaturist and joy was my muse. She entered into the slowly holding firmly to the rails. Yea! she was arrived of the water.

"Why are you looking at me" Joy asked while staring straight into my eyes. I didn't know what to say, so i replied her with a smile.

"Do you know how to swim?" I asked her. "No! i don't, but I was hoping you would teach" She answered, placing her hands slowly on my chest while biting her lips.

I offered to teach her how to swim, hoping i would get feel her soft body in the process. I started off with showing her how she could hold her breath beneath water.

We carried out the exercise the first time while we held hands but she couldn't spend up to two seconds under the water. She said she needed to rest after the first dril, i left her be and went for a short swim on my own.

She decided she wanted to have a go at it again, this time we were facing each other while holding hands. I did a count down for 3 to 1 and we both went it.

While our heads were deep in the water, to my greatest suprise, she planted a kiss on my lips. We brought out our heads at the same time, steering at each other. I slowly moved to her to continue what she had started and she reciprocated.

Her Lips were soft and mellow, i could feel her heartbeat like it was was mine. She wrapped her legs arround my waist i used my hands to acess the beauty of her body. Suddenly the cold i felt a while ago turned into warmth.

This was the most intimate i have gotten with a lady and i didn't want it to come to an end.

In that moment, we didn’t care about the swimming lessons anymore, we would share kisses for long minutes and take a break for few seconds

I heard read book, which revealed that your first kiss with someone helps you understand how you really feel about someone. I never understood that statement until that moment.

At some point i got uncomfortable, i was afraid of seeing someone who would recognize me, because the pool was close to my house. I really wasn't enjoying the fulness of her lips and body, because a lot of people started coming into the pool.

Joy obviously didn't careful if people were much in the pool which made me wonder why. I guess when you with someone you like, the rest of the world feels invisible, but i wasn't feeling that way.

"I have to go now", I saud while looking arround to see if i knew anyone in the swimming pool.

"Why!! please let's spend a little more time together", She replied with disapproval written all over her face.

At the end i was able to convince her why i needed to leave, we both headed to the changing room to change our clothing. This time she was done before me, so she waited. When i got out i held her hand and gave her kiss, i appreciated her for the fun time. The only response she could give me was a smile, i guess that was enough for me.

I got home with smile wishing i had invited her to my house as i was the only one at home, maybe now i would have been a proud father.

I just got my first kiss and it was amazing. I would close my eyes and reminisce on what happened at the pool which would make me even smile more.

I really enjoyed what just happened between myself and joy and i was hoping it would continue but deep down i knew it would be difficult because i didn't love Joy they way shed loved me.

As i thought about it further, i hoped she wouldn't bring up the conversation about love.

When i got back, i had already texted joy, but i didn't get a reply. "Maybe she has gone to work", I said to myself.

Few hours later i got a reply from her, she explained to me how she had so much fun with me, I told i had a lot of fun and would love to try it again.

"I love you so much", Joy replied. when I saw the message, i was left confused. I dropped my phone to think about what answer to give her. I could literally here James and Michael's voice in my head telling me to tell her "I love you", even though i didn't feel that way.

"I like you too, but i think we should just be friends for now" I said wishing i didn't have to. I didn't get a reply from her up until the next morning. I spent that night thinking about Joy and how she would be feeling.

Maybe i should have just told her I love her too, but that would be a lie, those were the thought that kept on going through my mind.

Next morning, i saw a text from Joy, she only texted "Ok"

I felt really bad about what had just happened, i really wanted our fling to continue but Joy needed someone who would love her, i wasn't that person.

but really what do you really think i should have done?