Hellhound: Arise from the ashes

Chapter 5: Friends

Azara's POV

"Can we please at least try to start over. You don't need to give me a chance maybe somewhere in the future. Hopefully the near future." I couldn't help but nod.

"So for now.... Friends?" I nod my head once again.

Damon left a few minutes ago to get us something to eat. So we're friends now? I still don't know how to be around him. For example with Dom it's easy his aura is always so inviting from the day I met him I could just be myself without trying. But now with Damon I don't know I feel weird. After everything he has done and also knowing his my mate and other half I feel very hesitant. What if he doesn't like the real me and just ends up like he was before? -Come on now A don't be like that can't you see his trying.- I sigh -I know be but what if-

-No more "what ifs". Azara for the past nine years you have lived with these "what ifs". You have exceeded you limit. Live in the moment for once. - She's right for the past nine years I haven't been living. I want to live, live my life to the fullest and if that leads to me breaking then so be it I'm already broken.

"I'm back." Damon comes in with a tray with a few grilled cheese and two plates and drinks. Those look so good. I remember the first time I ever had grilled cheese most amazing experience I had in my life so far. Those taste like pure heaven.

"Grilled cheese!" I probably look like a kid in the candy shop. He just chuckles at my outburst.

"Yes and I was thinking we could get to know each other a bit better. Nothing sets a mood like cheese."

"As long as those are involved I'm in." I give him a sheepish smile.

He sets the food on my bed and we dish up some grilled cheese on our plates. I take one to start with wouldn't want to scare him off.

I take a bite out of the grilled cheese and before I could stop it a loud moan leaves my mouth.. I didn't even realize my eyes were closed until I open them to face the stiff Alpha sitting next to me.

"These are really good probably the best I ever had. Who made them coz that person is blessed with good hands." I talk as much as possible to distract him from what happened less then moments ago.

"Your looking at him sweetheart." He gives me a smug look

"You can cook?" I was shocked. Since when?

"Yeah who did you think made all that food I brought for you a few days ago." He looks genuinely confused.

"I thought you had one of the Omegas do it. Then brought it up for me. Since when can you cook?" I take another few bites of my grilled cheese while he speaks.

"Well now you know know. I used to cook with my mom. It our "thing"." Awe that's nice Their thing. It made me think of mom. I didn't know that my face had switched expressions.

"Hey. Are you ok." Damon looks at me concern laced in his voice.

"Nothing. I was just thinking about about my mom." He must've sensed that I don't want to talk about it just of yet because he dropped the topic.

"How about we play a game." he suggests. I take another grilled cheese and put it on my plate.

"Ok"

"Twenty-one questions. That way we have fun will we get to know each other."

"Ok you start." he think for a moment then looks at me.

"So what's your favorite colour?"

"Why did you think so long if it's such a basic question?" I laugh.

"I couldn't think of anything. So just answer."

"Wisteria."

"I asked colour not place."

"It is a colour dumb-dumb. It's a kind of purple."

"Couldn't you have just said that."

"No because I like Wisteria not basic purple."

The game goes on and jokes where being shared. It was kind of fun. I have never seen this side of Damon and I must say I'm enjoying it.

The next few days go by in a flash and it went pretty well. Me and Damon are getting closer. The other day Dom paid us a visit you should've seen his shocked face when he saw us laugh together in the kitchen. We had a talk after that I made a very important decision.

FLASHBACK

Damon and I were laughing at a joke he made in the kitchen while he made us grilled cheese sandwiches. Yes I made him my personal grilled cheese maker. Perks of having him as a friend. I look to the doorway to see Dom looking asif he just seen a ghost. His pale in shock.

"Did something happen or am I just in one of those dreams of mine where I'm in an ulternet universe."

"What?" I was confused. What's his deal?

"You two... You two are getting along. When did this happen?!" He practically yelled the last part.

"Ohh this while you where gone on your business trip." I reply taking a sip of my smoothy.

"Who did this happen." He turns to look at me.

"Don't look at me I don't know how we got to this point."

"She couldn't resist my charm." oh please.

I fake a cough "Cap!"

Damon puts a grilled cheese on my plate and turned to the stove.

"You got him to make you a grilled cheese and laugh. Girl are you some magician or miracle worker."

"Yeah I made him my personal grilled cheese maker. And no magic was involved. He can't resist my charm." I respond with a chuckle.

"Great get him to make me one." I turn and look to Damon.

"Dammie can yo-" He cuts me off.

"Don't even think about it."

"Erg, fine. Dom you can just have mine. Here take it. I'll be in my room. Since someone doesn't want us all to have a nice lunch together." I stand from my stool.

"Erg, fine but I'm only doing it because I don't want to stay here alone with him." He looks annoyed but I don't care.

"Thank you either way."

We had our grilled cheese then Damon had to go for pack business so it was just Dom and I. We got to talking and I made a decision.

The past few weeks as friends made me realize that Damon isn't that bad and maybe I could give him a chance. I can see his trying to make up for what he's done so maybe I should.

"So you and Damon, huh?" Dom wiggles his brows at me.

"We're just friends."

"But?"

"But I wanna be more but I keep freezing up." We were now sitting on the couch eating ice-cream.

"Elaborate."

"Like we are getting closer and that's good right. Some flirty remarks here and a few giggles. But the I become awkward when he gets close to me and I end up making an excuse to leave. Like this one time we were play pool in his game room. But I couldn't do it right so he offered to show me he got to the back of me and helping me hold it correctly. He was so close and I enjoyed it. "

"Ohk then what's the problem?"

"The next minute I ran of making some excuse and didn't go back. I was like something in me was telling me.'your not anything special he did that with other girls before and your no different.' so I ran."

"Hhum. It's like you want to take it there but can't."

"Exactly!"

"Well I just think you just afraid of getting close."

"No that can't be because I want to get close Dom. I want my Mate to hold me not my friend. You remember when I told you that haven't had any nightmares for a while and how great I slept."

"Yeah."

"It was because of him. He would sneak into my room then leave before I woke up. But one time he overslept and I caught him and of course being my stubborn self and angry at him I told him to never do that again. And guess what he respected my decision and didn't."

"So you want him to hold you but when he did you tell him not to and now your angry because he isn't." I just nod my head.

"Babes I think you should talk to him tell him all about your fear and that you want to be more but find it difficult." I just nod once again and lay my head on his shoulder.

"Thank you Dom. Your the best."

So now I have to get myself ready to speak to Damon. This is so frustrating. I hate feelings.