Despite trying to hold back the tear drop, it fell down.
I wiped off my eyes immediately. I was breaking down and I needed my father but he wasn't anywhere near me to help me get through this. Well, it wasn't as if he had ever being around to be for me.
All I could think of was his voice telling me 'men don't cry.
"Only useless men cry, Luciano."
That's what he'd always say and that made me unable to lower my walls and cry. Something deep down was letting me know that I was gradually going useless but I can't let that happen.
I checked the phone one last time but there was still no call or response from him.
I turned the phone off and I checked my pocket but it was empty —
"f**k!" I panicked.
I quickly began searching around for my gun and my heartbeat increased.
I need that Fvck
