Everything felt off.
Nothing made sense.It was finally the day I had been awaiting my whole life and now the excitement was missing.The happiness.
The Alpha Initiation Ceremony.
I pulled over the T-shirt I wore to take a shower.Placing my hands on the shower wall I let the hot water scald my back.I didn't move from the simmering heat ,trying to gather all my scattered thoughts.I should be f*****g happy.Things were finally going my way.After the s**t of the last few months,everything was falling in place.Where they should be.So what the f**k was wrong with me..?
Why did I feel this need to cry out in grief?
This insane need to punish myself surfaced again and I let it.Let all the emotions of pain and anger blend together.Let them have their war inside.Let them shred me inside out.
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