The Cursed Girl

Chapter 19

Gwen

I looked through the window and saw my aunt who was inside the room and also had gain conscious a few minutes ago but I am very afraid  to see her after knowing that she had fainted because of me. I am having mixed feeling inside me.

"Won't you go and meet her, Gwen?" I heard Ave voice and I looked at her and shook my head and leaned back at the glass wall.

"She is resting. I shouldn't be disturbing her."

"Is there something else going inside your mind?"

"Nothing is going inside my mind. Just I am....." I don't really know what I should say to her.

"What do you want to speak?" I sighed.

"I also don't know that." I said and she sighed.

"I guess you are losing your mind."

"Maybe I am. I am unable to digest what is going around me and I am feeling as if I will go mad soon and would find myself in mental asylum."

"You are talking nonsense." 

"I must be."

"What is wrong with you Gwen?"

"I have no idea."

"I have never seen you this much lost." 

"Everything happens for the first time only."

"I have no idea what is wrong with you?"

When I don't know what is wrong with me then how will you know." She shook me and made me look at her and checked my temperature.

"What had happened with you?" This was going getting over my nerves when I have told her that I don't know myself what is wrong with me then why the hell she is keep on asking the same thing again and again. I jerkily pushed her hands off from me and she was shocked at my action.

"I have already told you that and now I am totally fine and nothing is wrong with me." I said coldly and she was totally shocked at my action and I went away from there. I literally stormed out of there and found myself a seat and sat over there and when I calm down I realized what I have just did and that made me feel guilty instantly. I have never thought that I could be irritated and I would react like that.

"Isn't she Gwen Bellingham?" I looked up and found one of my former classmate who was in University and she came over here with a smirk. I don't really have a good relationship with in there. She always used to pick the fights up with me and I never really wanted to mes up but she always used to find a way to mess up with me. Seeing her after around one year is making me feel bad vibe. She stood in front of me. "You are still alive while you fiance had died? Shame on you. Well what a luck that I could still make you feel so low." I was already very irritated with my sister's question and as if that wasn't enough she also came over here.

"How you are over here?" I asked her in a polite way. I am afraid that if she irritate me than something will happen that neither she would like nor would I like. 

"Well that is not your business but seeing you here seems like an opportunity for me." I rolled my eyes.

"There is no room for you in my life." I said and was about to go when she spoke her dirty mouth.

"Come on Gwen don't be that stupid person like you were in the past." Stupid? I am stupid. I looked around and found a vase and before I could progress anything inside my mind I took that and went in front of her and without any second thought I hit her with all my force and she was on the ground. She was groaning in pain and soon I realize what I did and I let that vase go from my hand. 

"I am sorry. I am sorry. It wasn't my intention." I was shook to the core and without any second thinking I  ran out of there. I could hear inside me ear what they must be thinking about me after I had done which is a crime. I am a criminal. 

I looked at my hand on which was quite red. This can't be me. I haven't hit her. This can't be possible. I haven't hit her. I looked around and found a restroom and went over there and cleaned my hand and I lean against the wall and slide down. What is wrong with me? How could I do that harmful attack on her. I had never really done this before. I am very scared now. I can't cry over here. This is a public bath and I can't be over here for whole day. I come out and started to walk while tears were still falling from my eyes.

My phone started to ring and I took it out and saw that uncle was calling me. I didn't pick it up but put the phone on silent and put it back in my pocket and walked towards my house. I don't really have the ability to hold what I am doing and I want some time alone. Now I don't even want to back to my home but somewhere else and I know where I could go. It would be better for me to go there only. I went towards there and hide in my secret place. I went there and took out the photo album and ran my hand over it and tears started to come out of my eyes and I kneel down and I was sobbing hardly.

"Dad why did you leave me? I am feeling so much alone. I want you guys but you are nowhere to be here." Everything which had happened in the morning till the time I had hit her with the vase. Everything was coming inside my mind. I was shaking badly when thinking about. "I don't think that that was me who had done that. How could I hit someone when I can't even kill a fly but today I have hit her with the vase and blood was out coming out. That sight also make me feel horror." I took out a photo and found me and dad in that photo and I put it down and took out another one and kept doing it while I was crying as well. I went own until I found a picture of him only and I put it near my heart and I laid down while my knees were near my chest and was crying didn't caring even if I will end up over here whole night also because I can't find a safest place anywhere from here. Slowly I started to feel as if I was sleepy and I drifted off while the photo was in my hand.