It has always been you

The morning after the night before

I groggily open my eyes, and the morning sun is already beaming through the window. I stretch my arm across the bed. Nothing. It's empty. I jump up and grab my phone from the night stand. It's 8:15. f**k! I'm late! 

I jump out of bed, still half asleep. I stagger into the bathroom and quickly shower. I don't have time to wash my hair, so I pull It up into a messy bun. These things are fashionable, right? although I've no idea why. I'm out of the shower within five minutes after quickly washing, and then I realise… I have no clothes here. My room is across the hall, and the pack house is full of wolves gathering for the council meeting, as well as last nights patrol. I can risk being seen creeping out of Deans room, or go to the meeting wearing last nights outfit, doing the walk of shame. And then I remember! The balcony that stretches around half of the upper floor connects my room to his. I grab my bag, still wearing my bathrobe and open the balcony door. I quickly scan the area to make sure no one is around, its now 08:25, everyone is now most definitely in the meeting, which turns out to be a blessing as I briskly walk around the balcony to my room. I fumble for the keys in my purse and quickly unlock the door. I rush over to my dresser and pull on a pair of black denim skinny jeans and a pale pink blouse. I team this with a black blazer and heels, and out on a little mascara. I rush out of my room and down to the meeting room on the floor below. I throw open the meeting room door and glare at Dean who looks surprised to see me. I hold my head high and stride over to my chair. I can hear people begin to whisper.

"A little late?" one of the patrols jokes. He's new, I don't know his name and I don't really care to know. I can tell from his small stature that he's an omega wolf. People side glance around unsure of how I'm going to react. I feel irritated that Dean didn't wake me up when he knew full well how important it was to me to attend this meeting, and then I rushed to get ready and I haven't had my morning coffee. I'm not good without caffeine. But I expect they want me to react, that way I can be branded "hormonal" or "emotional" or whatever other word men use to describe a passion that makes them feel intimidated. I take a deep breath.

"Nonsense. I'm alpha of the east coast alliance. I'm never late. The rest of you must simply be early" I quote some move I watched years ago. Princess diaries I think? I'm not sure. Its an old one anyway. The pack begin to laugh.

"Someone's in a good mood. Good night?" Zander probes. everyone looks immediately as if I'm going to spill personal gossip.

"I've had better" I respond, and wink at Zander. His jaw widens and Dean growls, I can tell he's using every inch of self restraint he has not to go full wolf and tear out Zanders throat for simply being the butt of my joke. I knew it would get to him, of course I did. That's why I said it. 

"Ok. So, I know you wouldn't have started without me... but does anyone want to fill me in, on what happened last night". 

They take an incredibly long time to basically tell me they couldn't find anyone in our territory and did not pick up any scents, meaning that they were either drifters that had already passed through town, or our patrols scared them off. Either way, when I report to the other packs later on, I can inform them that threat seems minimal, but just to be aware that we did have a breach last night.

everyone files out of the meeting room an hour later and I head back to my room to grab my laptop so I can update other pack leaders. I'm sat on my bed mid-email when my bedroom door flies open and makes such a large thud as it connects the wall, that it dints the paneling. I quickly push my laptop to one side and jump up, my wolf ready to pounce. Dean fills the doorway. I'm about to scold him but I refrain, noticing something in his eye, past his rage. hurt?

"The f**k was that Vannah?" he yells.

"What?" I'm completely caught off guard

"What? f*****g you and Zander. Making a fool of me. I'm the alpha of the blood moon pack, I demand respect from the both of you, and I will not have you both making me look like an i***t!"

"Dean..." I begin, but he cuts me off.

"What? I'm a f*****g i***t that's what. All this time I thought there must be a reason why you always come back to me, why you always choose me. But you don't. Do you? I bet you've been f*****g him this whole time too!"

My heads spinning.

"You don't honestly think there's something going on between me and Zander!"

He doesn't answer.

I know Zanders always been a sore spot but come on!

"Just so you know, I haven't been with Zander since I was a teenager! and when we were done, we were stayed done. Not that you're in a position to comment on who I'm f*****g considering you have a girlfriend!"