Set free

Chapter 16 Amelia POV

I ate my food quietly all the while sneaking glances at him, he lay so still like he was made of stone. His face was like perfect marble, the sun beating down and glinting off of the lip ring made him look almost majestic in a ruggish, scary kind of way. But without him looking at me, he almost looked softer, his harshness came from his eyes, they burned into your soul like they read your darkest secrets, and they were always narrowed and harsh, always aware and watching like he was ready for anything at any time. He never missed a thing. But with his eyes closed, he looked softer.

Looking away from him, realizing he could catch me staring, I looked out at the view. It was almost as breathtaking as its owner. Although the view was not scary, not one bit it was peaceful. I could almost trick myself into relaxing here, making myself feel like I was on a vacation. But I couldn't let myself relax, I still didn't know what he wanted or planned to do with me. All I knew was this was something to do with my dad, and he may or may not kill me. That was for him to decide.

I should be shaking like a leaf and feeling panicked, but somehow I don't know I didn't feel like he would hurt me. I was terrified of him of course I was. Do I think he himself would hurt me? I don't know I had this feeling like deep down, that I don't think he would. But would he order one of his men to do the dirty deed of ending me ? Well, that was different.

" I can practically hear your mind churning from here," he stated without even opening his eyes, just as I had finished eating.

I looked at him in shock. He peaked one eye open and looked at me and then smirked, closing his eyes again.

" Listen, Angel, your fate is mine now. What happens to you is my choice and my decision. I won't tell you a single thing, and neither will anyone else here. My advice to you is to just act like a guest and a quiet one that behaves. Enjoy the island and the views without straying too far. The pool, the gym, anything you want to use you can. And don't think about it too much. It's just a waste of energy on your part, because dissecting everything and trying to work things out is pointless when nothing that happens is your own choice anymore. You belong to me now, " he stated so casually.

But for me, his words were anything but, they were soul-breaking, earth-shattering, because I was just a pawn to him, a belonging a movement on a chess board. To him, I was exactly what I was to my father. An object to use when and how he wanted to gain advantage. Is it not what I have been my own life ? Has my life ever been my own ? No, was the answer to that. I don't know why his words hit so hard, it's not like it should shock me. It is not like he hasn't been saying I was here for some sort of revenge plot.

So why did my heart break a little that he saw me no differently than my own father did ?

I turned my face away from his direction and looked towards the trees now. I didn't want him to see that his words had brought tears to my eyes.

" It shouldn't be hard to follow your rules, it is what I have been my whole life, someone else's possession. I have been a quiet guest in my own home for years. Excuse me, I think I will go rest my knee "I said quietly to him. Standing, I grabbed my plate and walked off into the house without looking back. I felt more tears gather and started to fall now. I felt his eyes burning into my back as I limped my way back into his house. When I entered the kitchen, Janey was there. She looked up at me and when she saw my face she frowned. I dipped my head not wanting her to see me , and left my plate on the side as I made my way back to my room.

I closed the door and moved towards the bathroom, head still down. I didn't want to give him the satisfaction of him watching the camera to see me fall apart. I would do that in the bathroom like a lady should, so to not cause her husband any distress. A lady is strong and crying like a baby is a weakness a husband needs a strong figure by his side.

As soon as the door shut , I turned the shower on, then walked in fully clothes under the spray and slid down the wall. I let the tears fall freely now , everything that had happened to me, I let out. My k********g, my life and everything that had happened with him in such a short period of time had caused me to feel things I never had. I let it all out as I sobbed under the water.

I was so stupid. Why did I feel these things, these stirring for my captor ?

Why did he make my heart rate spike, and my knees weaken? Why did he terrify me and intrigue me all at the same time ?

Why for just a brief second, did I think he would be different ? The way he cared for me, knowing I was hurt back to the house, the way he brought me a pill and wouldn't let me walk to get my knee examined. The fact his eyes haunted my dreams in my sleep , I was so stupid and so inexperienced and naive that I was willing to let a dangerous man touch me. Was I mentally unstable ? Had years of that horrid school and my father made me wrong in the head ?

Well at least, things were clear now, and I knew what role I had to play here. He had seen to that. No more confusion, I had to be the lady I had been trained to be. Emotionless, compliant and perfect. Souless .......