Ch 115
Eleanor POV
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Darkness feels too addicting.
The fact that you can just lay down and not have to get out and face the actual world?
It feels comfortable than getting strength to get out there.
My eyes feel heavy, tears dried up.
I don't know what to do
He shut me off like he never wanted to listen to anything I had to tell him.
But still, how will I convince him, explain my feelings that were all over the place?
Because I felt it when I and kasper spent the night on the beach, holding each other.
And also felt those feelings when Harrison held after a night which turned into a nightmare after the attack.
Both were real.
But it just happened in a wrong time.
At least one of it.
Either I should have only fallen in love with kasper and waited for him to come back.
