I think all of the four boys are really kind and good human beings.
I mean if they didn't do what they did to me maybe we could have been good friends beside Jason of course because he already was.
But that's too late.
I always think about forgiving them and start new but I just can't. It's hard.
The memories and the humiliation keeps replaying in my head every time I think about forgiving them.
Maybe they really had a reason to do it but I won't believe it nor forgive them till I hear it.
Because they broke me.
They made me the complicated and numb person I am now.
And I really miss the old me sometimes.
Even if she was weak but in the past, I could feel happiness, love, and friendship
I could trust people and enjoy life.
I was able to laugh from my heart.
I was able to cry wh
