Her Innocence

the agreement

"You tricked me!" I screamed at him from the other side of the room.

"No, I told you it was rare," he rolled his eyes at me.

"But how do I know that's true? No one tells me anything!" I glared at Leo.

"What's rare?" Nico looked between us.

"He told me it's rare to get pregnant the first time," I pointed at Leo who's face had guilt written across it.

"Well, it usually is, but it's not unheard of." Nico side eyed Leon.

"Cat, it's time to go home, we'll talk on the car ride back." Leo walked towards the elevator door and waited for me to follow.

I didn't want to follow him, but what choice did I have?

***

"It's not that bad," Leo tried to reassuringly squeez my thigh.

"I'm pregnant, the one thing I didn't want!" I leant away from him.

"There's nothing we can do now," he sighed.

I sobbed all the way back home.

I couldn't believe he had let this happen to me.

I wasn't ready to be a mother, I couldn't bear the thought of giving birth, let alone caring for a baby.

"Hey, hey, calm down." he tried to hold my hand, but I slapped it away.

"f**k off, I don't want this. I told you I don't want this!" I couldn't breathe, I began to see stars.

"Take a breath!"

"Don't tell me what to do!" I screamed.

"We'll be home in ten minutes," His hands turned white as he gripped the steering wheel.

"I want to go to my home!" I leant forward as I felt the urge to throw up again. Tears poured down my face as I clawed at my chest, trying to breathe.

"it is your home,"

"No, it's not. My home is a normal house with my horses and land and where I was happy. I was perfectly happy by myself!"

"Don't say that cat," he pleaded.

"What? Did you honestly think we'd get married and just instantly fall in love and become a perfect, happy little family? I was forced into this!" I glared at him, "And for a second there, I almost trusted you! I almost thought I wasn't alone." I sobbed.

As soon as the car stopped, I got out.

"Look, you can trust me, we'll go to the doctor tomorrow and double-check the test is right." He tried to calm me down.

"I'm going to bed," I stumbled towards the bedroom but only got three feet before I realised he was right behind me.

"f**k off," Tears streamed down my face so badly I couldn't see and I slipped on the stairs.

"Let me carry you," He stood over me with a expression of a kicked puppy.

"No!" I got back up and headed to the lounge room. if I couldn't make it up stairs the couch would do.

I woke to the sound of Leon's voice on the phone.

"I don't know what to do," Leon growled through the speaker.

"No, she actually hates me!" His voice broke.

"You weren't here, you should've seen her and heard what she said to me."

"Leon?" I called out, my voiced cracked from my sore throat.

"I gotta go," Leon hung up and came into the lounge room.

"Hey, I've made an appointment with doctor for eleven. It's nine fourty-five right now." He bit back whatever else he wanted to say.

"Go on, say it." I rolled my eyes.

"I don't understand why you don't want to have a baby. We have modern medicine, you won't have to feel too much pain and we'll have the best doctors." He pleaded.

"I just," I held back a sob, I would not start again, "I'm worried I'll f**k our kid up. I have no idea how to be a mum. I have no natural instincts, clearly and I don't want to bring a life into this world just to ruin it."

"You won't, you couldn't." He sat beside me.

"I don't want them to end up like me," I admitted.

"What do you mean?"

"To grow up and be betrayed by the only people you truly know."

"What if we make a deal?" He offered, "Our kids or kid, will not have an arranged marriage."

"Promise?"

"I promise," he rubbed my back as he spoke.

***

"Morning,"