Gertrude’s Curse

Chapter 2

The summer before our second year came sooner than expected, and things had changed a lot, James and I decided to still train during summer but because we were doing it in secret we decided on meeting only twice a week, he would say he was attending meetings with his dad and I would say that I had to do chores at home and we would train behind the Alpha’s house before sunset, but I had noticed that the weird feelings I was getting were going from bad to worse and it would only calm down during my training sessions with James, I had also noticed that wolves over 16 were getting a bit anxious around me and I was trying to avoid contact with them. One particular day I was home getting ready for training when I felt a terrible pain in my abdomen, the pain was soo bad that I passed out for a few mins, when I came to my senses I was feeling uncomfortable around my pelvic area but the pain had subsided, I figured it was just the same feeling I’ve been experiencing and started to wonder if I was sick or something and things were getting bad, but I decided to push those thoughts away and put on my training clothes to run to James house, again I don’t recall having any bad intentions or even knowing what was happening, I put on some shorts and regular bra under a training bra and a tank top, my sneakers and my high ponytail. I reached James house and there was no one as usual, his dad was rarely home until around 8 and the Luna was in the kitchen making sure dinner was getting ready between 4 And 7 pm, that is why we would train at this time.

We started with our regular warming exercises and that is when I felt the pain in my abdomen coming back to me only this time it took my entire pelvic area as well and I was about to pass out again when I felt a warm touch holding me before I hit the ground, I was sweating and the pain was very uncomfortable I could barely register that the person holding me was James, all I knew was that where ever I was feeling his touch I was feeling better suddenly I realize I was in a sitting position on top of him and that the pain in my pelvis decreased with our contact, I was not thinking I just wanted to get rid of the pain, I pass one leg over his and straddle him and I could feel my heart beat speeding, I started moving against him and the pain was going away and I was feeling great, I did not register that he was frozen in his spot, not knowing what was happening or how to react and I, well I was not the owner of my body in that moment, I looked at him and I was feeling so relieved and I (this makes me cringe when I think about it), started kissing him, he reacted to my kiss and pushed me away, making the pain come back and I just cried in pain, my body was reacting on its own and I started touching myself and grinding the floor as I was doing with James a few moments ago, suddenly someone was yelling and I felt hands gripping me by my shoulders, shaking me, calling me a slut and suddenly a pair of arms lifted me, it was warm and it didn’t feel as good as James but it did not feel bad and I was feeling a body closed to mine making the pain a bit milder I felt hands touching me then I heard yelling, someone screamed “what are you doing? She is a child” and someone yelling “I was picking her and she started it, she is aroused and I couldn’t help it”, A woman screamed “James what is this slut doing here and what happened why do you smell like her?”, suddenly another pair of arms grabbed me, the pain got really bad and I passed out.

When I woke up I was in a strange place, a bright light in front of me and I could hear voices, one was my mom, she was saying she had no idea I was so deviant and that she was very ashamed she was apologizing and someone was yelling at her, telling her she needed to keep me on a leash, that I couldn’t go around trying to F*ck every guy who got in my way, I couldn’t understand what was happening, they said I was taking advantage of James and that it could’ve been very bad if the guard wouldn’t caught me on time, then someone said or asked if I could be pregnant now, me? Pregnant? How? Why? There were so many questions I called my mom but she didn’t come, then I heard Lana telling them to discuss it outside, that she was going to give me a sedative and that was that, I went to sleep in seconds.

I woke up again, this time feeling a little less drowsy and I looked around me more carefully and realized I was in the hospital, it took a while for my eyes to adjust to the light, and then I heard Lana’s voice she was next to me and asked me if I was up, I nodded and I could see her face, concern written all over it, I asked what happened and how did I get here and she asked what was the last thing I remembered, I told her I remember going to train with James and getting that excruciating pain and then everything is blurry, she looks at me with pity in her eyes and I proceed to ask her what happened, she then proceeded to explain me the very scene in which I was found and hearing it I couldn’t believe it myself, I was soo embarrassed, disgusted and upset, if what she was saying was true, I was gross, I was a terrible person.

While at the hospital Lana mentioned she had ran some test and that the main reason why I went through what I went through was that I got my first heat, when I heard those words I wanted the earth to open and swallow me whole… Oh Goddess! What have I done? Why is this happening to me was all I could think about! I mean, we all know about the she wolf heat but it is something that should happen once we are of age and we’ve met our mate. Lana looked at me with pity in her eyes, she explained this was an abnormal scenario but that she could provide me some pills, pills that would help me avoid this situation getting more awkward if it happened again in the future, I was stunned… this situation? Happening to me again in the future? I asked if she could be wrong if it could be something else, she said she was sure and that I should really get on the pill, but that my heat was very strong and that I may have to take other measures to avoid unpleasant situations, specially due to the amount of unmated wolves that are currently in our pack, I tried my best to focus on what she was saying and understand it, but it all felt so surreal, not to mention that I was not sure how I was going to handle things once I had ro leave this room, how was I going to face James? Does everyone in the pack knows of what happened? I was suddenly having a panic attack, Lana got me to breathe inside a paper bag and calmed me down.