*Jane*
I still haven't gotten over being kicked out of Noah's apartment.
Yeah, it was a huge knock to my ego considering the amount of effort I put into trying to give him a great welcome-back gift. But more than that, I can't handle the constant emotional minefield outbursts. I'm not cut out for handling that sort of thing over and over again.
Still, I can't stop myself from missing him.
I hate that despite everything he does that pisses me off so badly, I can't quite get to the point of not caring about him. It's not like I can just turn off my feelings, no matter what he says or does. It's a vulnerability that terrifies me, so much so that I ignore every single one of his attempted calls and messages.
I don't want to hear any of that because I don't trust myself not to cave, an
