Terry's POV
1136 Words
A day out and a picnic lunch was the best idea ever. While waiting for Marizta to get her hoodie, I mind linked the kitchen staff for the day asking them to pack a picnic lunch for us. They really out did themselves too. We had various cheeses, some grapes and apple slices. Along with thinly sliced beef and lamb roast to top the French bread that was thinly sliced as well.
We spent most of the morning just talking and sharing our thoughts and dreams. I was pleasantly surprised when she told me what she planned to study in college. I have no doubt that she will achieve all her goals that she’s made for herself. What did surprise me was the size of the family she wanted to have. It’s not often that you hear of a female who wants such a big family. I’d always hoped, but never dreamed that my mate would want a family as big as I did. Being an only child, I’d often wished that I had siblings growing up. While I did have a huge pack of kids to play with, and Angel, who was raised with me like a sister; it just wasn’t the same as having siblings. I never wanted any child of mine to feel that deep loneliness that I felt growing up.
While we did talk about one day starting a family, I made it very clear to Marizta that I wanted her to finish college first. I don’t want her to feel as if she needs to completely give up her life goals and dreams just because we’ve met. In fact, I don’t see why her dreams would or should be changed in any way at all. Instead, they will only help her in her role as Luna.
I’m so amazed that the Goddess has paired me with this amazing and beautiful woman. Inside and out, she is a person who many could admire and look up to. I can see many of the children in the pack coming to her, and how she interacts with them, the limitless patience and undivided attention that she gives them. Somehow, she makes each and every one of them feel as if they are the center of the universe, and she only has eyes for them. Even when she’s completely surrounded by them, she still manages to make them each feel special, feel heard, feel loved, feel utterly secure in every way. Watching her with the children of the pack, I can’t help but wonder what she'd be like as a mother. I know when the day comes that the Goddess blesses us with our own children, she would show them no less love than she shows the pups of the pack.
I am amazed by her thinking that the mystical community could live side by side with the human population in peace. While I can’t speak for other packs and clans, I can admit that i’ve often wished for that very thing. Once when I was younger, I read a story about a wolf who was destined to unite all species and everyone was able to live and work side by side without much blood shed. When I asked my father about the story, he explained that it was just that, a story of hopes and dreams but would never come to be reality. Unfortunately, humans just were too scared of anything or anyone that may have the slightest bit of intelligence or strength that would take them off the top of the food chain. He also told me about other stories that he’s heard of that had a similar plot, but again, these were just stories to entertain the reader. Sadly, I've never read the other books or stories; and when I tried looking for the story that I read as a child, I could never find it. when I questioned my parents about it, they explained to me that it must have been a story book that i had as a child because they don’t recall the story from their own training.
While we were out alone together, I took the opportunity to look at Maritza from a different angle. Yes, I see and talk to her everyday all-day, but having some time without distractions of paperwork that needs to be completed or emails that need responding, that's a different situation all together. It's when your brain has the opportunity to observe and listen to all forms of communication, that you're able to truly see a person for who they are. Many humans don't realize that our vocal cords aren't the only thin that talks when communicating with someone. We also talk with our hands, eyes, mouth, hips, basically every part of our body, is always used whenever we're talking. Even when wee're thinking about something in our heads, we still use different parts of our bodies to wheen we're 'talking' thinking about something. So, my being able to fully and completely focus my attention on my beautiful queen, is a cherished moment for me.
listening to her talk about her future wants, goals, and dreams, she'll always look off to the side just a bit. Only a little bit, almost like she's trying to focus on something that just out of her direct line of sight. Or how her eyes smile when she remembers a moment in the past. I love how her head c***s to the right an inch, before she'll then c**k it towards the left about two inches when you are telling her something new. Almost as if she'll soak up this new knowledge better if she just dumps the air out of her ears first. I think it's the most adorable thing ever. And just by this subtle movement, that is completely subconscious to everyone, she'll tell whoever she's talking with that they have her full and undivided attention. It makes people open up and talk to her, because they feel as if someone is truly interested in what they have to say. The fact that she has all these non-verbal ques and ways of talking, makes her a great communicator. Although I don't think she realizes this yet.
As we're talking about our future together, and how our pasts are such determining factors in the person we become; I realize that she's just as concerned and curious as I am about her parents past. I want so badly to tell her my thoughts on the matter, but I know that I'll need to know what I'm talking about is true and not just theories and assumptions, so I'll wait to have that conversation with her after I speak with Liam.
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A shorter chapter my readers, but I do promise that if you bare with me through this process; you will love what is to come.
- Writer
